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I wish I was brave ,
Brave enough to say
Go away
Stop talking
I don't want you here,
In my space
In my home
On my chair
Telling me how I've wasted my life
Talking, talking, talking...
But
I'm not brave.

I might implode soon
Because I'm not brave enough to explode
My mind is screaming
Shut up . Shut the fuck up

But
I nod and agree
Yes I nod
Yes I know
I know I've wasted my life
Wasted your time

I nod, I agree ( shut up, shut the fuck up)

She sits looking at me,
I think maybe I need to explain
Why I'm such a useless, terrible
Person.
But then the talk ,talk, talking starts again
And I fucking really REALLY
Need her to SHUT UP
SHUT THE FUCK UP

But she's still here
Still in my home
Still sitting on my chair
And still TALKING

I wish I was brave
But I'm not brave

And so I sit here
My insides churning
Thinking , wishing ,praying
That I was good enough
That if I was just good enough
For her, for every one
If I was different
Then people would stop
Talking at me
Stop saving me
From myself

My stomach is churning
My breath is fast
My heart is racing
My head is throbbing

SHUT UP
SHUT THE FUCK UP