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And then the day came
The day my mind opened
Just the smallest of a break
So that I could see inside my own thoughts,
As if I were an outsider looking in.

And what I discovered
Was truly disturbing...

A Pandoras box
Of jumbled thoughts
Of half planned ideas.
This tiny crack revealed
A child's misunderstanding
Of what was true
And what was not.

I saw that I allowed others
To control my every action
My every thought
As if they owned me.
I saw how I let others lead me/use me.
How I trusted so easily
To totally trust
Without reason. I saw the people I had let into my life
I saw them as they really were
Life suckers who had almost drained my entire humanity . I was their marionette

And there and then I knew that the strings that tied me to them must be severed, if I was to survive this growing insanity within me.

I must cut these marionette strings
Or die
Can I do this ?
Can I free myself ?
Can I ?
Will I ?

Or will I die a puppet
Of the monsters
Inside my head.