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Yesterday afternoon, I learned that one of my best, and closest friends died in a car accident yesterday morning. Not only her, but her daughter, who was dear to my heart, also passed away due to the crash. Her 3 year old son survived, which is indeed a blessing.

But I am so torn apart..I keep breaking down and sobbing..and my mind absolutely refuses to comprehend that this is real..I keep sending her kik messages..and messages on Facebook..praying that she'll respond..praying that it's a bad dream..that it's some type of sick joke..

I honestly..do not know what I'm going to do without her..I don't know who I'm going to go to for late night girls night..Who I'm going to gossip to..who is going to understand me on a different level like she did. I don't know who's going to get drunk with me late at night and sleep together on call..I don't know anything anymore..

Her daughter..was the light of my life, just like her son..I loved them both, I was a big sister/aunt to both of them..they loved to talk to me and send me kisses through call..and I'd run to tell her daughter about all the new things Monster High had..or we'd argue over who is best pony..she loved to say Rainbow Dash, I always said Pinkie Pie..

I can't..believe that this is real..and it's tearing my mind apart..and I didn't want to initially post all of this on DA..but it does help me make an outlet..

My friend was my "soulmare" as she called it..and one of the two friends who had ever gotten that close to my heart..family and all. I'm glad, though, that the last words I had said to her the day before the accident was "I love you too <3"..So..I guess that is supposed to matter a lot.

But I can't seem to get too happy about it..she was supposed to be there when I got married, supposed to be there when I gave birth..we were going to spend holidays together..all of that..and it was just ripped from me out of nowhere..

Another thing I'm sad about..is the fact that I wont be able to see my little nugget anymore either..her son. He was absolutely the most precious thing..and he'll be with his father now..and I don't know that person..but I am going to try to get contact through my friends Mother in a few days..to check up on her and to try and at least..watch my little grow up into a man..for my best friend..

I'm sorry about the rant..But it just..it hurts me so incredibly bad..

I love you Rene, I love you Morgan..please..rest in peace..

- If I seem distant, harsh, quiet, or don't even reply..please don't be offended..I don't know how long it'll take to get through this..

- None of my dates for the upcoming events are going to be postponed..working on art will help me take my mind off of everything for a few hours..and I'll really, really need that..

Sweet Korruption and art by me

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Yesterday afternoon, I learned that one of my best, and closest friends died in a car accident yesterday morning. Not only her, but her daughter, who was dear to my heart, also passed away due to the crash. Her 3 year old son survived, which is indeed a blessing.

But I am so torn apart..I keep breaking down and sobbing..and my mind absolutely refuses to comprehend that this is real..I keep sending her kik messages..and messages on Facebook..praying that she'll respond..praying that it's a bad dream..that it's some type of sick joke..

I honestly..do not know what I'm going to do without her..I don't know who I'm going to go to for late night girls night..Who I'm going to gossip to..who is going to understand me on a different level like she did. I don't know who's going to get drunk with me late at night and sleep together on call..I don't know anything anymore..

Her daughter..was the light of my life, just like her son..I loved them both, I was a big sister/aunt to both of them..they loved to talk to me and send me kisses through call..and I'd run to tell her daughter about all the new things Monster High had..or we'd argue over who is best pony..she loved to say Rainbow Dash, I always said Pinkie Pie..

I can't..believe that this is real..and it's tearing my mind apart..and I didn't want to initially post all of this on DA..but it does help me make an outlet..

My friend was my "soulmare" as she called it..and one of the two friends who had ever gotten that close to my heart..family and all. I'm glad, though, that the last words I had said to her the day before the accident was "I love you too <3"..So..I guess that is supposed to matter a lot.

But I can't seem to get too happy about it..she was supposed to be there when I got married, supposed to be there when I gave birth..we were going to spend holidays together..all of that..and it was just ripped from me out of nowhere..

Another thing I'm sad about..is the fact that I wont be able to see my little nugget anymore either..her son. He was absolutely the most precious thing..and he'll be with his father now..and I don't know that person..but I am going to try to get contact through my friends Mother in a few days..to check up on her and to try and at least..watch my little grow up into a man..for my best friend..

I'm sorry about the rant..But it just..it hurts me so incredibly bad..

I love you Rene, I love you Morgan..please..rest in peace..

- If I seem distant, harsh, quiet, or don't even reply..please don't be offended..I don't know how long it'll take to get through this..

- None of my dates for the upcoming events are going to be postponed..working on art will help me take my mind off of everything for a few hours..and I'll really, really need that..

Sweet Korruption and art by me

Base by PonyBasesRUs