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#bed #broken #chest #dream #explosion #exposed #floating #forgiveness #heart #light #night #woman
Published: 2019-08-02 21:08:29 +0000 UTC; Views: 4129; Favourites: 222; Downloads: 0
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I had a dream recently, about asking for forgiveness from someone I have wronged. I woke up to find myself disappointed in not having righted this wrong in real life. The feeling weighed heavily on me all day. It felt like my heart rose to the surface and was painfully exposed. It yearned for this reality I do not know how to secure. How do you ask forgiveness from someone you haven't talked to in half a lifetime?Related content
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This is a very gripping composition, overall.
The fact that the heart is the only thing that's horizontally straight gives a very disjointed and chaotic feel to the rest of the piece.
The mixture of blues and reds is very appealing, and is executed very well. Very stellar lighting.
As far as the negatives go, They're only minor problems that could have been fixed either in the sketch or the final rendering of the piece.
The bed sheets to the right fade into the background a little. This itself isn't necessarily a downside, but other parts of the sheet have a very defined edge, therefore making it inconsistent. This also affects the right foot. You could have the foot fade into the background with the sheets, or better defined it by not having that square jolt out from it.
Some of the linework of the sheets seems too dark/bold compared to the rest of the ripples. Mainly in the left side of the piece, around the thigh and hand. It would be more consistent to have those fade more into the rest of the sheet.
The face looks fine at this angle, but right side up, the left eye is very droopy. Most digital art programs are capable of rotating the canvas, if not, you could rotate your head every once in a while to avoid this problem. I dunno.
Finally, the right arm is noticeably larger than the left I think you would have to change the position of the arm if you want to get that foreshortening look. The left hand's linework is also much more rough and simplified than the rest of the piece. The left shoulder is also strange. There's a lot of rotation in that arm, so the connections/folds between the pectoral, front deltoid, and bicep should be visible (even if this character doesn't have that much muscle mass).
I always enjoy when a piece has inherent meaning, whether that be outside or within the piece itself.
Forgiveness is a tricky matter. For you, the wrong-doer, it takes much humility to acknowledge your wrong and offer that apology. If you are able to contact this person, you can only apologize and ask for their forgiveness. You are not entitled to that forgiveness in any way. The choice is solely with them, whether they would want to bury that hatchet or not.
If you are completely unable to contact them, the best you can do is to acknowledge your wrong and move on. In a way, you have to forgive yourself for what you've done.
I've witnessed a few people who have done some terrible things and have let that guilt consume them. Some turn to substance abuse, and some manage to hide it away, but all of them have it leak out through the way they interact with others. Sometimes being a complete doormat to somehow "make up" for the suffering they've caused, and other times lashing out through words or fists. Trying to put as much responsibility away from themselves as they can.
Don't let it consume you.
If there is a possibility to rectify it, however small, it's your responsibility to do that.
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Yeah... I guess it's not all in vain.
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Putting it in words is simple, but doing it is not. It's hard to admit we're in the wrong and apologize. That said, if you truly want to reconcile it the apology should be done from the bottom of your heart. If you're sincere, it will be seen, is what I think. Whether the person will accept it or not, it depends on him or her. But, again, it is so, so hard... even more so if you care about that person.
A intriguing and inspirational piece, it makes me think of what I've done. It's great to see art that inspires unexplored thoughts!Β
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Hey! Thank you for the kind words.Β Β
I am afraid sincere words can't cut it if the person doesn't want to listen at all...
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Unfortunately, I don't know what to answer to your question. Since each person is different, I don't think there one good answer, it varies according to the person and the damage done.
It's a great painting you've done here ^^
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Thank you! You are right, but in this case I don't know that answer either.
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You certainly made a great piece of art from that dream.
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Hahaha... it's usually things that generate powerful feelings who tend to trigger this type of artistic response. Thanks for the compliment.
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Wow this painting is just amazing. I really like the way you designed the outbreak of the heart. I have no negative things to mention. Because I am just astonished of that painting. Really really amazing.Β
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Oh, thank you very much! That is very kind of you!
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It's just the truth. Your painting is such amazing, and this is very honest. You have real talent, and so I will keep an eye on your art
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Great work and concept!
Do you know anything about the one you've done wrong? Do you think it still hurts the one or maybe it's even something she or he doesn't even think about anymore?
But if so, and you know how to contact that person, just tell them about how you feel about it. I think it's never too late to apologize (and to forgive).
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It was quite some time ago, I was a teenager. I hurt that person emotionally really badly, and this last thing that I did was a very small thing but added insult to injury. It was something I always thought I could correct later on, but that person made it a point to never acknowledge my existence ever again, so my attempts were rather in vain. Of course, I haven't tried in about 7 years. But you see, this person moved on beautifully in their life, and I think they made it a point to forget - or rather suppress any memory of me and out past together. It feels like I would be the only ridiculous person in the room who hasn't yet completely moved on. And I'm not sure if the dream was meant to nudge me to tie loose ends and wright wrongs, or if it meant to point out that I was childish in holding on to this thought/memory/feeling.
This person was my fiance at the time, my first love, the one most people hold beautiful memories of. I haven't spoken to him at all in 15 years, despite my (heavy-handed) attempts to contact him. He's married now, has a young child, he's happy and I don't want to disturb anything in this beautiful picture. And I think this thing really weighs on me a lot, because I am still afraid to face him. I feel really guilty about the way things ended, and it still matters a lot. Even in the dream, speaking to him, I was all the time afraid of him at the same time. Not because he would hurt me physically, but because he still holds a certain power to hurt me emotionally and I am a coward. *sad smile*
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Oh, that's quite a sad story...
But at least, it seems, the other person has a good life now. And teenagers often do silly and sometimes bad things. So I think you shouldn't judge yourself too hard anymore and try to forgive yourself - and move on. At least you've learned from your mistakes and wouldn't repeat something like that, I guess. There's nothing else you could do, if he doesn't want contact.
Good luck and have a nice day!
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je verrais bien aves des Γ©toiles autour, pas juste le coeur...
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I appreciate the idea, but... it's about sadness and longing and I couldn't quite feel the stars fitting into this theme.
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Thank you for the compliment!
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