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You might have noticed I've got back to drawing and posting art recently (like this little pencil sketch I colour in ^) and people have been asking for an update of how I'm doing
Briefly, if you don't know, I've been ill since November. Mental health. I've needed to be hospitalised twice for psychosis/depression/suicidal ideation. It's been an, uh, crazy few months. I've gone as far down the rabbit hole as anyone wants to go, and then some. And here I stand at it's exit, a little blinded by the sunlight, but delighted to be facing the real world again.
There is still not enough ground between me and the hole. My legs wont let me run yet, so I have to walk slowly, treading carefully, feeling with my feet, one step at a time. I'm at a good distance now. Far enough that I dare look back, and see the hole, smaller. One day it will be so far away it will be only a freckle, a blemish on my skin showing where I've been.
It's now been a whole month since I left hospital. Which sounds like a lot, but each fragile step has been tough, though in the right direction. I've just been officially discharged by Treatment Team, who were seeing me daily at home. Everyone seems pleased with my progress. ~Myself included!
Thank you everyone for being there during the darkest time in my life. The fact that so many people have been caring supportive and compassionate means so much to me. It makes me feel like the world is stuffed full of good people, trying their best through tough times, supporting each other. Your kindness and light gives me hope that in the future mental health will be better understood and treated by society.
I want to apologies to everyone who I haven't got back to, or replied to. I have so many unanswered messages and so many lose threads which I now have to tie up...
I've now almost finished writing the full story of what happened, grim details and all. It's so in depth I've had to break it down to several parts, I'm drawing some artwork to go with it too. It's hard, but talking about or experiences with mental illness is already winning part of the battle. I've lost a lot of my life to this illness. I feel like I am at least giving something back by talking about it.
So yep, very happy to report I'm out of the rabbit hole and making my way to firmer ground,
One, step, at, a, time.
Peace, love and Footprints,
Blue xx
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Comments: 644
SeryRas [2016-05-12 21:19:17 +0000 UTC]
I THINK THIS MUSIC MAY MOTIVATE YOU IN SOME WAY OR ANOTHER:www.youtube.com/watch?v=C7hq9f…
just,please watch the whole video to see what the lyrics are(because is in japanese and well I don't know if you know japanese,if you know,then you're freaking amazing!! x3)
either ways,have a nice night and Stay Determined!! x3
-undertale thing in case no one got it...-
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rose-guts [2016-05-12 01:55:14 +0000 UTC]
♥Now that you are on the mend, from rabbit hole you do ascend! We all send wishes, best of luck, in no hole can you be stuck! And though the steps are small and slow, further, higher you will grow. May your healing take you far, in darkest night shines brightest star.★
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AkiraSume [2016-05-11 21:18:05 +0000 UTC]
I´m happy to know that you are still here to make art to all of us and inspire us.
I hope the best for you.
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TheSapphires [2016-05-10 01:26:11 +0000 UTC]
I've been staring at your art for a long time now, and I realize how much I've gone through, but my super depressing days seem like a walk in the park compared to what you've been through. I'm glad you're recovering, and I hope you never need to go through that again. Great art, btw! I always find that art and music calm many people when they're sad, me included
Keep up the great work, emotionally and artistically!
~SapphireTheAbsol
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DeliriousKitten1738 In reply to TheSapphires [2016-05-10 02:08:54 +0000 UTC]
*tears roll down face, claps*
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TheSapphires In reply to DeliriousKitten1738 [2016-05-10 05:40:33 +0000 UTC]
Have a Llama for my token of appreciation ^^
Just wondering, do I speak too fancy? I dun wanna speak fancy D:
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Merengil [2016-05-08 18:18:37 +0000 UTC]
You may have lost time to this illness, but you came back stronger > : ) I believe time is never lost for nothing
That's the most important Now that you're starting to go away from it, better focus on what's going on here and now
Best of luck for all this! You have my full support (mine and everyone else's)!
Also, that might help you a little bit: www.youtube.com/watch?v=cYcbiW…
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theartist0829 [2016-04-30 04:19:08 +0000 UTC]
D'aww! We're all glad you're feeling better now!
(P.S. Your art is so good, aaaah--)
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RainbowHeartComics [2016-04-29 21:17:18 +0000 UTC]
I hope everything gets better for you. When you're down, theres no where to go but up. Things will get better.
Oh, and don't worry about replying to this.
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JazHart [2016-04-29 04:30:17 +0000 UTC]
I just stumbled on this image, I'm really happy you're getting better!!
Such a beautiful piece.
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mike576 [2016-04-29 00:50:48 +0000 UTC]
I've gone through the same thing being hospitalized twice for depression/suicidal ideation, I only wish I was as amazing an artist/person as you are. You are really inspiring thank you for sharing this, I'm glad you're feeling better and I hope you keep feeling better
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Koronue [2016-04-28 06:44:00 +0000 UTC]
You have always been a shining example in my life as to how to bounce back after hardships. I have never been diagnosed with anything, but I know I have suffered some pretty severe depression. I won't get into the gritty details of having to raise a baby while a husband would rather do drugs and be anywhere else and how extreme that sort of pain can be. Or the financial stress and struggles and the constant worry about what the future would hold. I never was one of those females that was dying to have a family and babies. I still don't think I am cut out for it and I just pray everyday that I don't screw it up, and I have two now, not just one little life I need to look out for and love and teach.
You lift me up and let me know that I am not the only one who has gone through this. There have been some really dark times for me, and I can never say that I have been through anything close to what you have gone through, and please don't feel obligated to respond, just know that I love you, I love your art, and I love your courage. You put yourself out there for the world to see, and it touches so many.
I am rooting for you.
Always.
K
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sion7945 [2016-04-24 03:02:56 +0000 UTC]
Be sure to know that you have a big community of fans and friends on your side. Your artworks are probably the most inspiring ones ever made. You have an unique style and if our little comments can make you feel better, then we'll post comments as much as we can. Depression is probably the most annoying thing in the world. I have been in depression too, it's just so terrible. We will always be there for you
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Belle-Skies [2016-04-23 17:05:49 +0000 UTC]
This is a really nice piece! As I said in my earlier comment, I hope things improve, and that they keep improving! Your so strong and inspiring! <3
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Krickettpaw In reply to ??? [2016-04-20 19:51:31 +0000 UTC]
I know u don't know me but a close friend of mine just went through the same thing and I think it is amazing u came back up
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Sketchun [2016-04-20 11:49:50 +0000 UTC]
So happy to see you're getting better. We're with you, Blue! <3
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The-Lost-Hope [2016-04-19 04:02:40 +0000 UTC]
I'm glad to hear you are doing better (back logged on art so just found this.)
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D-Archae [2016-04-17 17:33:23 +0000 UTC]
So happy you're getting better, Blue It's just amazing that you are talking about it, because it can help a lot of people, you know. Hugs
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DemonOfSarila [2016-04-17 13:10:57 +0000 UTC]
I'm glad you're getting better. I know I'm basically a stranger, but your art is so beautiful and inspiring. Partly because (I at least think) I can related to some of the emotions your art elegantly wonderfully captures. You are a far more skilled communicator (rather using art or language) than I, that's for sure.
Sometimes it's like that song go one more, but you don't ever feel like you build up the momentum that the song does. Take care of yourself and hang in there. You will find a way to make things better, you have the creativity to do so.
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jaguarblanco [2016-04-15 13:20:56 +0000 UTC]
beautiful piece! You´re so inspiring, I also suffer of depression very often, and is difficult for me to take a pen a draw something because of that, everything is son meaningless that I dont see the point of doing something, but when I see your art, that gives me an amazing hope and inspiring energy, thanks for that!
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kayla4799 [2016-04-12 22:22:51 +0000 UTC]
I'm so happy to hear you're doing better <3 You're such a strong and amazing person and I look up to you a lot. You've dealt with mental illness and are on your way to recovery and beating it which is really inspiring as I deal with kinda similar things (though not as serious). Take care, and know we're always here for you if you need us
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actualbagel [2016-04-12 22:04:05 +0000 UTC]
I'm happy that you're getting better, Blu.
We're here for you, even if you jump down the darkness again. We'll always be here.
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TheTinfoilRat [2016-04-10 17:13:13 +0000 UTC]
I'm so glad to hear you're getting better! I hope it continues in that direction.
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loish [2016-04-09 09:30:40 +0000 UTC]
wow, so sorry to hear that you struggled so much! and amazing that you've come so far in your recovery, that takes so much strength. i think it's great that you are sharing your story! hugs!!
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Aripot [2016-04-08 01:20:54 +0000 UTC]
Dear Blue,
You are one of the best artists I have ever seen, your work is so inspirational. And know that you work makes a difference in thousands, if not more, of people's lives. Even when times are tough, you keep going, and I admire that. It is so amazing how a picture can express so much, something that could never be expressed in words. Thank you for all of your beautiful work,
Aripot
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Ilovethechipshop [2016-04-06 21:05:16 +0000 UTC]
A couple of years back I went through a very difficult time. There were themes in your wonderful artwork that expressed how I was feeling in a way that words never could. I came out the other side and now things are good again. I do wish you all the very best and hope things improve for you too. Good luck. x
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Blu3-Kitty [2016-04-05 20:36:51 +0000 UTC]
I'm so glad your on your way to being better! congrats sweet heart!
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holzi88 [2016-04-05 13:43:32 +0000 UTC]
You'll pull through
let art help you with your ups and downs.
We'll be here to support you xx
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jayfeather4444 [2016-04-05 13:14:17 +0000 UTC]
I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time. Your art is beautiful!
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keh-arts [2016-04-05 12:41:35 +0000 UTC]
I know I don't comment often, usually fave and run! But I am sorry to hear that you've been so unwell, and wish you all the best on your road to recovery
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Jay-The-Punk [2016-04-05 05:33:26 +0000 UTC]
Since it's an update i'm not going to critique this one.
It's a great drawing very you
Glad things are mending even if it's what might be considered the begining or a small amount you're moving in the right direction and i'm really happy to hear that keep going Mind warrior i got ya back *holds giant axe*
Jay x
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SweetSugarDemon [2016-04-05 04:00:31 +0000 UTC]
Wow! That's so beautiful!! You're very talented! Have an amazing day/night friend!!
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StormCry6 [2016-04-04 08:18:37 +0000 UTC]
You've come so far, I'm so proud of you. Please know that all of us are here for you, and even though I don't know you personally, I know you're strong and you can make it! I'm glad you can see the sunlight again your art is so amazing and inspiring
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AnnabethLovegd [2016-04-03 21:04:44 +0000 UTC]
I'm so proud of you <3
I wish you blessings and peace and closure for this <3<3
thank you for truly being one of the most inspirational people in the world. ilu
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ColorsofCrystal [2016-04-01 19:11:53 +0000 UTC]
I'm so happy to see that you're feeling much better, Blue! Your artwork is so inspiring to myself and others, and I can't wait to see more of it.
Wishing you health, happiness, and harmony
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Acelars [2016-04-01 10:32:46 +0000 UTC]
She looks like Cloe Price from Life is Strange
Glad u feel better blue
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