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devilhooker666 — And Then the World
Published: 2006-11-26 05:10:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 255; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 2
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I was so sure of my footing,I knew my place in the world.
Everything made sense,
And it was all right.
But now everything's caved in.
The big open space of freedom I once took for granted
Has been pulled out from under me
And I miss it so desperately.
Where are the things that are supposed to go right?
Everything is supposed to have worked out for me;
It's now or never, right?
But my courage has been replaced by sorrow.
Where I once would have gladly stepped up to the plate
I now feebly back away.
I don't want to do anything for myself,
And the dependence on others scares me.
The tears welling in my eyes,
Threatening so hard to pour down my cheeks
Only acts to remind me of all that I've lost;
And all that I have ahead of me to make up for it.
The only thing I have to look forward to is the constant support.
The people who stand behind me and cheer me on.
The ones who catch me when I start to slip again;
Without them, I would be the same nothing I started as.
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Comments: 19
i really like this poem a lot. i read this when you wrote it in a blog, and liked it then too.
i think this poem displays a lot of pain, a lot of built of sadness that people can't just make go away. though it seems like all is lost, it havent been. there are ways to bring anew and make things better.
i love you and this this huge part of me that, being best friends, aches to be able to help more than just support. i want things to be okay again, happy again, and real happy, not the fake smile kind.
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thanks. it means more than i can ever say.
and i wish i could just wake up and be over it, but there's so many emotional scars now, and i keep questioning myself.
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as long as you're not doing the whole "i should have been killed in that accident" then it's okay to question things.
and you're welcome. <3<3
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i'm not doing the whole "i should have been killed in that accident" thing because instead i'm asking "why wasn't i killed in that accident?"
almost as bad in a different way.
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well, all i know is that i'm glad you werent.
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I could tell left and right, but I guess that is because I am used to it by now...
Shouldn't you be off somewhere, dreaming of some boy, or working?
I can't see or picture you writing something so lame and cliche. Unless something is really bothering you, which would lead me to believe some dreamboy is bothering you and if that is the case is it the same one or a new one.
And to leap from that point, why would you let one bother you... Unless I am so far from the truth.
But about the poem... Like I said cliched and the lines overused. It sounds rushed and not like what you really wanted to say but, what do I know?
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Well then. I just got told.
Excuse me, I do not spend all my time dreaming of some boy or working. In fact right now I have no time for boys OR working. Which stinks.
I don't find this lame OR cliche. But it's an opinion.
No, this was not written about the same boy. Or a new one. Or a boy at all. There are many things bothering me right now, and they basically don't include boys at all.
This poem was kinda rushed, and it wasn't really what I wanted to say. But that would probably be because it started out as a journal and I kinda wrote it in poem form and turned it into a poem.
And I was proud of it....
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That was, I guess I ruined your pride. If I did, I achieved my goal. 
If not, oh well atleast you learned alot from this.
Sometimes the best criticism is the kind that hurts. Hits you deeper.
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Why have you become such an ass hole? I used to love you so much and look forward to talking to you. Now, I can't stand talking to you, and the interesting things I've heard about you makes me wish you'd stop talking to everyone I know.
Why does it have to be like that? What happened to the old Manny? The amazing Manny?
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I don't know what you mean, I've always been this way and you've dealt with it.
You've always been mean back when I've been mean. And I've always been caring when caring was necessary.
So explain.
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no, you haven't always been caring when caring was necessary. right now, caring is still necessary from the accident. i don't care if you say i'm asking for attention or w/e because of that, but i still need it. and you're all too eager to throw all my flaws in my face.
i don't care what you say, you have no always been this way. or if you were, it was never to me. or at least i always thought you were joking, now you're being so much more serious. the old manny would never have tried to hurt me to make a point.
you've just become cruel. and i don't need cruel in my life right now, i need people who love unconditionally.
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First I always have been like this, and I never said I was serious. You assumed and second, nothing is unconditional. Not even love, even love sometimes breaks. I'm not cruel I am realistic.
And if you wanted caring about the car accident you didn't seem bothered by it at the dance.
You can't assume I know everything even if I do.
And if I changed so have you...
So don't blame this whole situation on me.
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you know what?
fine, whatever.
you being an ass hole is totally, 100% my fault. i asked for every ounce of it. because obviously i just wasn't getting quite enough ass hole in my life, i just needed you to add to it.
so thanks. you're a true friend, doing anything i need like this and all....
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Ya know your freaking out and everything but there is one thing you forgot to do...
Ask why...
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I did. On MySpace. And I'm rather fond of the wording in the message.
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Well I haven't been on that in ages...
Maybe I'll get on eventually...
And if it is a mean way of asking I'm giving you the meanest respone I can.
It may seem ridiculous that I am... upset with you, but it has always been that way with anyone who is upset with you, they can't be... because your Diane. And it is upsetting that you have not made an effort to try and soothe my anger. Instead you fuel it as if I do not matter... you act like I don't care, I am mean cause I do care and I want you to do something and all you do is complain that I am mean... You of all people should know I don't just do something like this without a reason... you of all people should know me and not just assume I changed into an asshole...
And I am really upset now.
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Would you please tell me what it is that I have done to deserve you being so mean?
There can hardly be a nicer way for me to ask without it being so forced you can tell.
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Yes there is a nicer way, just straight up ask, and I'd rather tell in person or over the phone...
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yeah, well by the time that happens i'll be an old maid. i don't really have a lot of spare time right now to spend doing thing to relax, let alone spend doing things that stress me out.
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