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I didn't really like the last picture of myself, so here's a better one. Also mega edited because I'm bad.

I don't know why I don't just put this in a journal, but I almost feel like more people read deviations. Idk why I even care who reads it. I don't know anything... What the fuck is anything

I'm so sorry for the inactivity. This last week of school for me has been Hell with so much work and I was sick and I was dying and falling apart and I wasn't okay .. it's finally over, though, and all that's left are final exams. I'm just glad most of them are performance based -- Only two are going to be written, but they're still going to be like 3 hours long. Sigh

I have so many unfinished drawings that I've been working on for months, but I just have no energy or motivation to try to finish them. They're not even very big drawings, I just can't get myself to actually make progress on anything... I want to, but I honestly believe I'll ruin the sketches by trying to finish them. Should I make a WiP dump of them? I have so many sketches I didn't even begin to work on.. so many ideas but I just... Can't...

I have no mental energy for anything and really I just want to stop existing for a while. I'm happy the insane schoolwork is done for a couple weeks, so I can finally relax and take care of myself and spend more time with my boyfriend, but I just still can't get myself to draw. At all.
There was probably a lot more that I wanted to say, but I just really can't push myself to remember.

I'm sorry I complain all the time and always talk about dying. It will continue though... Fuck me..

Also bad solo performances actually kill me, so I'm not really going to be okay at all for a long while. Who doesn't love music school... -points finger gun to head-

Description
I didn't really like the last picture of myself, so here's a better one. Also mega edited because I'm bad.

I don't know why I don't just put this in a journal, but I almost feel like more people read deviations. Idk why I even care who reads it. I don't know anything... What the fuck is anything

I'm so sorry for the inactivity. This last week of school for me has been Hell with so much work and I was sick and I was dying and falling apart and I wasn't okay .. it's finally over, though, and all that's left are final exams. I'm just glad most of them are performance based -- Only two are going to be written, but they're still going to be like 3 hours long. Sigh

I have so many unfinished drawings that I've been working on for months, but I just have no energy or motivation to try to finish them. They're not even very big drawings, I just can't get myself to actually make progress on anything... I want to, but I honestly believe I'll ruin the sketches by trying to finish them. Should I make a WiP dump of them? I have so many sketches I didn't even begin to work on.. so many ideas but I just... Can't...

I have no mental energy for anything and really I just want to stop existing for a while. I'm happy the insane schoolwork is done for a couple weeks, so I can finally relax and take care of myself and spend more time with my boyfriend, but I just still can't get myself to draw. At all.
There was probably a lot more that I wanted to say, but I just really can't push myself to remember.

I'm sorry I complain all the time and always talk about dying. It will continue though... Fuck me..

Also bad solo performances actually kill me, so I'm not really going to be okay at all for a long while. Who doesn't love music school... -points finger gun to head-