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Lately I found myself strangely, heartwrenchingly nostalgic for ESO.
Or is it ESO, really? After the beta tests concluded, I felt pretty disillusioned. It is perhaps an alternative universe that never existed, in which ESO was the legendary game I thought it ought to be, and I could play it together with my boyfriend and all my TES fan friends who ended up being much more disappointed than I was.
I will not lie: I liked playing ESO. I liked the game, some parts I even loved, but my feelings of joy were mixed with a strong pinch of sadness over a wasted opportunity.

(I've found my old review too, which I wrote about ESO at that time. If you are interested in what I thought, you can read it on Tumblr. )

This was almost one year ago. At this time last year was a happy time in my life. Extremely stressful, indeed, and yet more stable; some things felt more complete. The quality of my life is now better in many ways, and yet I don't feel as competent to fulfill its expectations.

Maybe it's just a layer of nostalgia that have settled on my glasses, but the truth is: I miss these two motherfuckers.
(I also had a Dominion character, but he was just created on a rush in the last moment and wasn't very heartfelt.)

So I've heard the ESO cesases to be subscription-based next month... and I really, really feel like I need a getaway.

You wouldn't believe, but I started working on this in March 2014 or something. I got some invaluable, extremely insightful criticism on this piece that I definitely learned from but I had no willpower to act upon it any longer - I just wanted it to be out of my system.
Originally it didn't even intend to have a background. I was not happy with this. It irked me at first that it looked like a still from some oldschool Hollywood movie where the ground is prop and the rest of the background is just a poster. Then I realized maybe this had to be some kind of accidental genius, because this is exactly what ESO felt like to me while I playing it. (cf. as a game, fair enough, but not really a world.)

Maybe ironically, the picture that I titled "It's not ready yet" will never really be finished.

Description
Lately I found myself strangely, heartwrenchingly nostalgic for ESO.
Or is it ESO, really? After the beta tests concluded, I felt pretty disillusioned. It is perhaps an alternative universe that never existed, in which ESO was the legendary game I thought it ought to be, and I could play it together with my boyfriend and all my TES fan friends who ended up being much more disappointed than I was.
I will not lie: I liked playing ESO. I liked the game, some parts I even loved, but my feelings of joy were mixed with a strong pinch of sadness over a wasted opportunity.

(I've found my old review too, which I wrote about ESO at that time. If you are interested in what I thought, you can read it on Tumblr. )

This was almost one year ago. At this time last year was a happy time in my life. Extremely stressful, indeed, and yet more stable; some things felt more complete. The quality of my life is now better in many ways, and yet I don't feel as competent to fulfill its expectations.

Maybe it's just a layer of nostalgia that have settled on my glasses, but the truth is: I miss these two motherfuckers.
(I also had a Dominion character, but he was just created on a rush in the last moment and wasn't very heartfelt.)

So I've heard the ESO cesases to be subscription-based next month... and I really, really feel like I need a getaway.

You wouldn't believe, but I started working on this in March 2014 or something. I got some invaluable, extremely insightful criticism on this piece that I definitely learned from but I had no willpower to act upon it any longer - I just wanted it to be out of my system.
Originally it didn't even intend to have a background. I was not happy with this. It irked me at first that it looked like a still from some oldschool Hollywood movie where the ground is prop and the rest of the background is just a poster. Then I realized maybe this had to be some kind of accidental genius, because this is exactly what ESO felt like to me while I playing it. (cf. as a game, fair enough, but not really a world.)

Maybe ironically, the picture that I titled "It's not ready yet" will never really be finished.