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My Thoughts Today

There are a lot of things on my minds these days, yet I'm not confused at all. These thoughts are good thoughts and good feelings. Let me explain. The abstract thing in this peice represents me. At the bottom right of the peice you can see light, but I am not there. This explains my backgrounds. I've been raised in a Christian atmosphere, which to me is good. That light continues on to the top left of the peice. About 3/4 of the way there, I comes out of the ground. I've realized as of late that just becuase I've been in this Christian atmosphere doesn't mean I was always this joyus Christian who's been happy about everything. I had a lot of realizations last night when I was talking to my friend. We went to a Christian highschool. I just went in there becuase it was part of the school system and I didn't have a problem with that. By the end of my Sr. year, I didn't feel any stronger in my faith, but that was nothing new to me becuase I just felt this was the way most people felt. My friend on the other hand took things a lot more serious than me and is now agnostic (I think). Now we're in college. I've never been happier and it's the same with him. After just 1 semester, I made a good realization. Motivation. Through my whole life, church really wasn't an option for me. I've never been one to argue becuase I respect my parents too much to insult their beliefs. Back in highschool, chapel wasn't an option. Here it is. I hated chapel in highschool, and now I love it. You might ask, why? I know in my heart that Christianity is right for me. I've always known that I should praise God, but I didn't. Back to the non optional chapel in highschool, most of the students didn't want to be there, and my friends definately didn't want to be there either, so what was I supposed to do? I did what everyone else did, I didn't sing beucase I feard judgement. Now here in college, priase and worship is an option. If people don't want to go, thats perfectly fine. My friends here always go to it. I went about half the time last semester and I still had a little bit of that uncertainty whether or not to sing brought over from highschool. I'm not sure when it happened, but I just stopped caring about judgement and all that crap becuase I know no one is going to judge me here. People wouldn't be attending a Christian college if they didn't want to get a good education and grow spiritually with God. The night at praise and worship I stopped caring about judgement and just totally sang out every word, I really can't give you the words of what I felt. It was then I knew and understood what I had to do to be the happiest I've ever been. I feel like I've finally figured everything out in what I have to do in my life to keep happy. I feel that all of my doubts through highschool when I really started to think about my religion have finally left. Last, you see me, this abstract shape moving towards the light unblocked or stuck. This is where I am today.

I know the community at this site might not share my same feelings, and I won't stick that I'm holier than though crap on all of you either. If you have any questions about this I'll be more than happy to answer. Thanks for anyone who helped me gain the skills and inspiration to be the artist I am today, to allow my images express my thoughts and words. I would deeply appreciate it if you didn't critique this peice because this means more than you can ever imagine to me. (Honestly I'm almost in tears here lol).

Description
My Thoughts Today

There are a lot of things on my minds these days, yet I'm not confused at all. These thoughts are good thoughts and good feelings. Let me explain. The abstract thing in this peice represents me. At the bottom right of the peice you can see light, but I am not there. This explains my backgrounds. I've been raised in a Christian atmosphere, which to me is good. That light continues on to the top left of the peice. About 3/4 of the way there, I comes out of the ground. I've realized as of late that just becuase I've been in this Christian atmosphere doesn't mean I was always this joyus Christian who's been happy about everything. I had a lot of realizations last night when I was talking to my friend. We went to a Christian highschool. I just went in there becuase it was part of the school system and I didn't have a problem with that. By the end of my Sr. year, I didn't feel any stronger in my faith, but that was nothing new to me becuase I just felt this was the way most people felt. My friend on the other hand took things a lot more serious than me and is now agnostic (I think). Now we're in college. I've never been happier and it's the same with him. After just 1 semester, I made a good realization. Motivation. Through my whole life, church really wasn't an option for me. I've never been one to argue becuase I respect my parents too much to insult their beliefs. Back in highschool, chapel wasn't an option. Here it is. I hated chapel in highschool, and now I love it. You might ask, why? I know in my heart that Christianity is right for me. I've always known that I should praise God, but I didn't. Back to the non optional chapel in highschool, most of the students didn't want to be there, and my friends definately didn't want to be there either, so what was I supposed to do? I did what everyone else did, I didn't sing beucase I feard judgement. Now here in college, priase and worship is an option. If people don't want to go, thats perfectly fine. My friends here always go to it. I went about half the time last semester and I still had a little bit of that uncertainty whether or not to sing brought over from highschool. I'm not sure when it happened, but I just stopped caring about judgement and all that crap becuase I know no one is going to judge me here. People wouldn't be attending a Christian college if they didn't want to get a good education and grow spiritually with God. The night at praise and worship I stopped caring about judgement and just totally sang out every word, I really can't give you the words of what I felt. It was then I knew and understood what I had to do to be the happiest I've ever been. I feel like I've finally figured everything out in what I have to do in my life to keep happy. I feel that all of my doubts through highschool when I really started to think about my religion have finally left. Last, you see me, this abstract shape moving towards the light unblocked or stuck. This is where I am today.

I know the community at this site might not share my same feelings, and I won't stick that I'm holier than though crap on all of you either. If you have any questions about this I'll be more than happy to answer. Thanks for anyone who helped me gain the skills and inspiration to be the artist I am today, to allow my images express my thoughts and words. I would deeply appreciate it if you didn't critique this peice because this means more than you can ever imagine to me. (Honestly I'm almost in tears here lol).