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Janestree [2016-08-21 03:26:59 +0000 UTC]

Below are two of my Janestree Journal Writings.   One at the beginning is my writing the winter of 2007 - 2008 when I was dealing with Clinical (Suicide) Depression and this was my way of working my thoughts through on this one particular winter day....  The 2nd Janestree Journal Writing is one I wrote this evening currently.  Writing of my human heart in the process of natural dying from age, and being like that of tree that becomes an ETERNAL TREE...   This is my heart beat in writing.... Writing has been what has been with me all my life and has kept me walking one step in front of the other.  Please read and see my heart in action.

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My beating heart from beginning to end; from conception until my heart leaves this earth and I become into ETERNITY... The heart of a human to the very heart of a tree Journal writing by Janestree on this day of August 20, 2016 at 9:00 pm


Please listen to the music video as you read the words that pour out of my heart to write in my journal on this day.

In the beginning was a seed

A small tiny seed that cannot even be seen by my eyes

A seed that hides in the vast darkness

Inside the womb

Inside the depth of the dirt beneath the earth

Not seen

But yet quietly there

a seed

only a seed

the seed of beginning of life

the seed goes completely silent in the deep of this darkness

the seed dies

Dies

Dies

and is no more

but wait

something is happening

the SON is pouring HIS LOVE upon this small unseen tiny seed, that is buried deep in the darkness and in death

and HIS LOVE pours out, pours, pours

the seed lays dormant

Lifeless

Until this LOVE brings one drop

One drop that reaches to this seed

and this SEED's heart begins to beat

Beat

Beat

Beat

This heart is so very small

No one can even tell that this heart is beating to the rhythm of life

Beat

Beat

Beat

This life grows beneath this great darkness

This life pushes

Pushes upwards to reach its hand up to this small DROP of love that 
has nestled on and held on this small tiny seed

One drop

One drop is bringing LIFE

As this seed of LIFE

This seed of BEING

Pushes
Pushes
Pushes

Upward to be held by this LOVE

It pushes through the darkness

It pushes against the labor of pain

It pushes to come ALIVE in fullness

The winds of life come against this small sprout of LIFE
as this sprout of LIVING LIFE pushes against

Being tossed from the tosses of the WIND blowing hard against it weakness

But wait

Rather than breaking

This sprout of LIFE becomes

This weakness is made strong through the WIND pushing always 
against it

For in the midst of the STORMS that push

This seed because of great strength in this one drop of LOVE

Now the roots of this sprout reaching down to grasp ahold of the DROP OF LOVE in HIS RIVER OF MERCY

The roots go further and further down to grasp ahold

As the winds push harder the roots go deeper and stronger
Through the sprouts great weakness

The BATTLES against this small weak sprout become of great STRENGTH because of this ONE DROP of love that this sprout reaches down to HOLD with all their life

Push

Push

Push

And this weakness will soon become HIS STRENGTH

This one drop of LOVE poured out upon this seed will become the VICTORY of strength

Then one day life takes a new turn

and this sprout is no longer of weakness but of great strength from this ONE DROP of love

Now this sprout has become fullness of LIFE

As this sprout becomes a GIGANTIC OAK TREE and my roots have 
gone so deep that they rest in depth of knowing HIS LOVE AND HIS 
MERCY

Now I, a TREE, a BEING, now I become the resting place for others

The birds as they bring birth

The squirrels as they bring birth

I hold them upward to be protected, provided for, and given a place of REST

I life LIFE to its fullest

But wait

My heart beating starts slowing down as the years pass by

One small seed drops from my limbs
and buries itself deep into the depth of the earth to be not seen

My heart starts missing beats

But it continues to beat, beat, beat

But then one day I turn around and the beating of my heart is leaving me

I am going back to the dust of this earth from which I came

Beat

Beat....

Beat...

until one day the beating of my heart stops and my earthern vessel once against has to die and turn back to the dust of this earth

Now I lay before you

I lay bare

No longer have LIFE in my branches

And the few cords of leaves I still hold onto are fading into the dust to be no more

Only to be cut down

and buried once against beneath the darkness of the earth

But wait

Silence comes for a moment

I, Jane, am no longer am in an earthern vessel of LIVING LIFE

I no longer am a tree running with only bareness and age that has left me

I now am face to face with the ONE that brought this ONE DROP of LOVE that held onto Jane, until Jane came to fullness of LIVING LIFE
and now, this very moment of time, I am face to face with LOVE
and Jane, puts on the new body of LIVING LIFE to its fullest before this LOVE

For Jane will no longer have to face death,

no longer will be left to die,

or given back over to the DUST...

but now Jane, is LIVING FULLY in ETERNITY

Victory has come

There is no sting

There is no more sorrow

But only great peace and joy

Victory is LIFE after living on this earth

For now I truly have LIVING LIFE

Real LIVING

Real LIFE

Life for Eternity

For now this seed has BECOME

All because of ONE DROP OF LOVE holding me to ETERNITY

My heart beats now for ETERNITY for

I have become fullness of LOVE in this ETERNITY

Now I stand before HE who poured HIS LOVE upon me

Now I stand before HIM who nourished me

He who stood there alongside of me through the wind and the storms

Telling me 'Dig in child, Dig in to knowing MY LOVE for you'

Yes, now I have become an ETERNAL TREE

Because of ONE DROP poured from HIS HEART to only LOVE ME through

LOVE ME

LOVE ME and never let go of me

For now I am inside of ETERNITY

The dust has gone

The TREE has become no more

For now I stand before HIM

Never to go back to die again

For now I LIVE LIFE for ETERNITY

My mortal being has died

and my heart beats again into the New

The Immortal of living life

Now I have become
(More to come)

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alomhordozo57 [2013-05-03 13:03:23 +0000 UTC]

Amazing!

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chrismarshall78 [2013-05-02 06:13:43 +0000 UTC]

great job

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Gomnon [2013-05-01 19:36:35 +0000 UTC]

Nice picture!!

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