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I haven't been feeling well lately, not sleeping is part of it...
...old habits I can't seem to rid myself of are another.
I've had little human contact this past week outside my family as I've more or less stopped going outside.
I know that this is self-destructive, but my mind seems to be imploding at the moment and I'm not sure how to stop any of it.
The friends I've made out here have mostly forgotten about me, the friends I left behind in Cali continue on without me, I'm really feeling as if I've lost my place in the world though I know this can't be so.
I'm so tired of the stupididy of humanity, I'm tired of my own weakness and I'm tired of people in general.
If the option were available to me, I can honestly say that I would be living out in the middle of nowhere in a log cabin where no one could find me...
I would stay there until I had my mind back in one piece or until God told me otherwise, and I would just live the peacful existence of a hermit.
Away from everyone...
...the stupidity, the chaos...
Of course I won't, mostly because I can't and shouldn't...
...still...
...it IS a nice thought.

Description
I haven't been feeling well lately, not sleeping is part of it...
...old habits I can't seem to rid myself of are another.
I've had little human contact this past week outside my family as I've more or less stopped going outside.
I know that this is self-destructive, but my mind seems to be imploding at the moment and I'm not sure how to stop any of it.
The friends I've made out here have mostly forgotten about me, the friends I left behind in Cali continue on without me, I'm really feeling as if I've lost my place in the world though I know this can't be so.
I'm so tired of the stupididy of humanity, I'm tired of my own weakness and I'm tired of people in general.
If the option were available to me, I can honestly say that I would be living out in the middle of nowhere in a log cabin where no one could find me...
I would stay there until I had my mind back in one piece or until God told me otherwise, and I would just live the peacful existence of a hermit.
Away from everyone...
...the stupidity, the chaos...
Of course I won't, mostly because I can't and shouldn't...
...still...
...it IS a nice thought.