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When was the last time you fell in love? A year… A month… maybe a few days ago. For some, it doesn’t take all that much to be head over heels. To be ready to dive into the fire for someone. But as for me, I don’t even know if I’ve been in love. But if I have, I’m in the process of that very confusing relationship right now. If that’s what you can call it.

I’m best friends with an openly gay man. He flirts with me, and I flirt back. Some take this the wrong way, but I really am not gay. I don’t like cock. Simple as can be. He does, and tells me that I don’t know what I’m missing. Oh, I beg to differ. Me and my girlfriend were talking yesterday about the fact that she doesn’t trust me when I spend the night with him. He’s my best friend, but ‘he has to be more.’

Is it just me, or is it ridiculous that girls can determine when a male is gay? Gaydar? Bullshit. I see her walking around with her friends, all of them dressed like hookers. Arms are linked, hands are around waists, and they even will kiss in front of me. On the lips, the whole deal. But because I play video games with a gay boy I automatically am also a flaming homosexual?

There are so many reasons I disagree with her. But the thing is, is that I think I’m in love. My life without her is most definitely something I’m not looking forward to. Our conversation revolved around the fact that no one is around when we are home alone at his house. Who’s not to say we aren’t sucking each other off? Me. Him. Even he admits he used to want to be with me. We even talked about it. Gerard’s an open person, and I believe and love him with all my heart. He is my brother. Nothing more, but sure as hell nothing less. I will not give up someone I grew up with so that she will feel safe.

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When was the last time you fell in love? A year… A month… maybe a few days ago. For some, it doesn’t take all that much to be head over heels. To be ready to dive into the fire for someone. But as for me, I don’t even know if I’ve been in love. But if I have, I’m in the process of that very confusing relationship right now. If that’s what you can call it.

I’m best friends with an openly gay man. He flirts with me, and I flirt back. Some take this the wrong way, but I really am not gay. I don’t like cock. Simple as can be. He does, and tells me that I don’t know what I’m missing. Oh, I beg to differ. Me and my girlfriend were talking yesterday about the fact that she doesn’t trust me when I spend the night with him. He’s my best friend, but ‘he has to be more.’

Is it just me, or is it ridiculous that girls can determine when a male is gay? Gaydar? Bullshit. I see her walking around with her friends, all of them dressed like hookers. Arms are linked, hands are around waists, and they even will kiss in front of me. On the lips, the whole deal. But because I play video games with a gay boy I automatically am also a flaming homosexual?

There are so many reasons I disagree with her. But the thing is, is that I think I’m in love. My life without her is most definitely something I’m not looking forward to. Our conversation revolved around the fact that no one is around when we are home alone at his house. Who’s not to say we aren’t sucking each other off? Me. Him. Even he admits he used to want to be with me. We even talked about it. Gerard’s an open person, and I believe and love him with all my heart. He is my brother. Nothing more, but sure as hell nothing less. I will not give up someone I grew up with so that she will feel safe.