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MichaelJLarson β WARNING: THIS IS ABOUT HOW CRAPPY I FEEL CURRENTLY
Published: 2013-10-29 00:05:21 +0000 UTC; Views: 4673; Favourites: 85; Downloads: 6
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As the title says, this is just a miniature, "rant" about how I've been doing lately. So if you don't wanna read about me and my problems, then go look at something else ot whatever...... Anyways, over the past few months, starting in either late spring or early summer, I've been feeling really shitty. The kind of shitty that feels like my eyes feel like tears could burst out of them and I feel empty inside. I feel like I don't have the energy or the soul I used to have anymore. Now it's incredibly difficult just to get out of bed and attempting to be productive. Things I've used to be so passionate about seem to be fading away from me, and I keep on trying and trying so hard to care about them, but to no avail.
Making art, making comics, drawing in general even if it's just sketching, Halloween, even just turning on my computer seems to be a chore rather than something I wanna do, and I hate it. I hate feeling like this, I hate being sad all the time, and I especially hate it when it prevents me from embracing the things I love doing. But even though I hate it, I just don't feel any kind of enthusiasm for trying to turn it around. I just feel so worthless and tired that I don't even want to try to make some art or whatever, because I'm scared that all it will do is confirm how worthless I actually am. It's an awful feeling that I do not wish on anyone, even people I thoroughly dislike.
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Remember to enjoy. Enjoying something is the most important thing to do in life apart from eating and drinking.Β
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Maybe instead of drawing gore and death, try drawing more uplifting and happy artworks! Or mix them together, that would be very unique. I challenge you to do so! Only great artists would accept a challenge. It'll just get worse if you don't make a balance. That's what life's all about, right? Try going for a walk outside, nature is very inspiring. I know I've had times where I felt like poop.
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I know that its been months since this was posted and I bet you're past this feelings but try to be more positive, I'm sure it'll help.
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welcome to my shitty little world at times...
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I don't know if you'll read this whole thing, but I hope you do. I want to be honest with you. There really isn't anything that anybody can say to make you feel better- the empty feel better words and such- but you should know that art is with you for a reason. I have felt the same thing, that art can be a chore rather than a favorite pastime. (Instead of drawing detailed illustrations, maybe you could try scribbling doodly things.) Also you should know, you are not alone. There are plenty of people who are willing to talk to you, and many people who are willing to help you. My advice: Keep smiling- if you do, people smile back...it helps, believe it or not. Also, maybe putting art aside and taking something else up for a while may help. If it was meant to be, art will find its way back to you. I gave up art for singing for a while, and art found its way back to me.
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Just keep smiling.
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Aw, don't worry, man! I really didn't expect one of my favorite deviant artist to go through this, but hey, many of us probably went or will go through this. It's a nasty feeling that is about as deplorable as you mentioned, but hey, it'll not last forever. Mark my words! Sooner or later, something will happen that'll cheer you up considerably! Just stay strong and hope!
I'm not sure that'll do any help, but it's the thought that matters, huh?
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I know this feeling, and depression DOESN'T run in my family...
so ya know what cha do? ya shake things up a bit. go do something completely out f left field. It works for about a week tops....
eh... i'll just fav it since I know the feeling.
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I know how you feel. It's really hard to get out of bed in the afternoon, knowing that you not only wasted half a day, but you aren't going to do anything worthwhile. Having a counsellor helps, it really does, but I find that just having a routine back in my life keeps me going longer between bouts of crushing despair. Hell, just having a shower after being to depressed/lazy to do so for a week or more makes a big difference.
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I don't even need the medical diagnosis to be perfectly honest. Go to counseling. Honest, it helps.Β
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Back in high school, I stumbled on DeviantArt for no real reason. While looking through the popular deviations, I came across one of the comics that you made on BrokenTeapot. It was because of you that I decided to keep returning to DeviantArt, and even submit my own artwork. Hell, I even drew Ike in the SSBB collab that you did a few years ago. You should maybe go see a doctor or something, but you should definitely take some time to yourself. Do something you want to do for yourself. Be selfish. Even if all you want to do is stay in bed for 18 hours and watch a marathon of "Adventure Time", then do it. If art feels like a chore, take a break. Just don't push yourself for the sake of others. That's my 2 cents anyway, take it as you will.
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I'm really sad to be reading that you, one of my favorite artists, is going through this. I love your style, your jokes and comics... and if I was there in person, I'd give you a big hug and heap a bunch more praises upon you, but I recognize that there is only so much I can do. So I will wish you well and hope you recover soon, because you are wonderful and deserve great things. You have earned it.
Love and hope,
DarkX1122
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maybe you want to try new thing or forgot to do something you wanted to do a LONG time ago? think you wanted something in particular 5-to-10 years ago? try do that
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Hey, you can get out of this. Your art and drawings and all the stuff you do, it's wonderful and amazing. The fact that you can even draw people is great, because I can't. I see your stuff and it bring a smile to my face because of the dirty, dark, or just silly humor you have in it. I envy your ability to draw.Β Feeling hollow inside sucks, I've dealt with that.Β I know you can get out of this pit your in, just keep moving forward. Find a way to get your mind off it for a little while. Β
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honestly my best suggestion is to find new things you can occupy your mind with.
you may regain your old interests someday you may not.
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As you said, nothing people tell you usually works, because that is how depression is. However, I've been through that and I know how it can suck. Seek help, accept that help but most importantly, try to find out the ultimate cause of the depression because by tackling it you'll be able to get out of it. For me it was my academic failure at college. I decided to leave it for a year and study something else, something easier and more interesting. Now I'm back in college and doing quite well
ALSO! Keep doing things. Being inactive is the worst you can do (not do? 
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I really DO hope your life gets back on track, man. Incoming motivational llama.
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no these are all lies! you are a wonderful artist to the point i have a commission you did for me as my icon!Β
you have always been an inspiration to me to keep trying and to keep posting
i love your drawing and coloring style.
also you as a person are completely awesome considering how hard you try to keep customers as well as followers happy.
never second judge your skills or yourself
you are great your art is great and you should feel great
never give up because we won;t ever give up on you
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just do what you want to do. Don't yearn for things in life just put your heart into it and do your best. No one expects a whole lot from anybody but everyone expects something. good or bad you're the judge of that.
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buck up, champ. I can't tell you how many times I've felt like you do now. just trust me when I say you're gonna be fine.
have some cake, you fabulous bastard, you
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I suffer from depression too.Β Sometimes when I start feeling like crap I just listen to my favorite songs or pull up a funny video.Β Anything to just cheer me up a bit
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:U chat me up on Skype more silly, I'll always listen if you need someone to talk. And hell, if you want to play a game I'm sure we have some game we could both mess around with. or chat up He always loves talking to you
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Hi, really sorry you're feeling this way, and it might not be possible for anything any of us say can make you feel better. Β Clinical depression, is, after all a disease, not a mood, not a state of mind but an illness and words can't mend an illness
However, I do hope that the support you've gotten on this site and others may help brighten your day if only a little. Β Your art is a whole lot of fun and you make a lot of people very happy with it. Β I know I always get a smile whenever I see a piece of art from you in my inbox on here and I couldn't stop laughing at that Sonic review you did on youtube
I really hope you start feeling better really soon, someone who makes other people happy never deserves to be sad
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The feels...
We all have our moments when we look up and ask "why do I bother anymore?"
If it is clinical depression, seek help.
If it isn't, try to feel happy again. Go to a rescue centre and see some puppies, or sit in a sunny field and watch the clouds roll by. Just do whatever you need to do to get back on track. We are all behind you. If life kicks you in the nuts, be sure we will be here to kick it back for you man.
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I think that you are an awesome person even though I haven't met you. I believe you'll recover son and I hope you do. Just don't lose hope.
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My comment may just get lost in the fray, but allow me to say that you aren't alone in this mate. You have a plethora of people who are not only emotionally invested in your art, but in you. We are all here for you mate and don't you ever forget it! Hope you feel better soon! This community enjoys you way too much!
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I LOVE YOU. DEVIANTS LOVE YOU.Β
AND IIIIIIIIIiiiiiIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIII WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU AND IIIIIIIIIIIIII WILL ALWAYS LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
stay happy my friend.
"When life knocks you down, get back up and say. 'you hit like a bitch'"Β
>.< im rooting for you buddy
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This occasionally happens to me.. I suggest trying something new and see how that feels and then go back to what you love to do ^^ sometimes people get tired of it all XD
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I am usually very horrible with words, but I will try.
Mike, don't give up hope. As another with chronic depression, I know how those days can be. It can seem like nothing can make you happy, nothing can seem fun anymore. But there is a light, and right now it looks like a lot of people want to try to help, including myself. So take a hiatus if you need, do what you must to get yourself better, or at least feeling a bit more like yourself, and remember, we will all be here when you decide to get back, or whenever you need us. You are not alone in this, not at all. Do what is necessary, just remember that the night IS darkest before the dawn, and even if it seems like forever, the sun will always rise. <3
If you need me, don't hesitate to drop me a note. I'm jobless at present, so I am almost always here.
I hope things get better for you ^^
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I think everyone who takes the time to read that whole splurging of your guts (like me) should say so just so you know that even if things aren't going to well you still have our support here on DA.
That's about all I can say. I'm not good with this sort of thing most of the time.
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I know what depression is and you have my sympathies. I've followed you since your early days on your older account 'Brokenteapot'. Do NOT give up hope, Michael. Think positive, think of the future instead of the past. You can change your future. I'm not a man of many words, but i can guarantee you'd feel better if you went on Cons, animecons, comiccons, gamecons and so forth. A few years ago i almost gave up on life for reasons i still want to get rid off, but i met new people on an anime convention in my town. I got so many new friends that cheered me up. Do yourself a favor and cheer up and live with a strong will to continue on. Please.
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Boy, I am going to write my phone number on your forehead in permanent marker if I need to.Β D<Β I'll even write it backwards to make sure you see it properly every time you look in a mirror.Β
Joking aside, never forget that you have people here for you who are willing to help you.Β 
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I kinda understand the feeling. Not that I've been feeling it, but it's something that strikes me from time to time. Guess some times, you just need a break from what you usually do and try other non-artsy things for a while. Eventually, the inspiration will get into you.
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You are great person. You drew many funny comics. Has many watchers. And we love you. You have done great job so far!
Β And if anything. Look up pictures of cat. Make self feel better. Because you deserve to be happy.
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Hey man, have you tried to do some new things? Sometimes getting out of familiar patterns can help quite a bit, be shot to the arm.
I know depression is a tough thing. My best friend has it too. But he was able to overcome it. It was pretty deep too for him. Because he had always been bullied in school and stuff. I really hated it when we moved out and he was left behind. Couldn't help him, but I visited him often and stayed many weekends at his place. He was so depressed he started to negligate his own personal hygienie and all that.
He also found out that he's gay. But I think that was a good thing for him. I think he's a lot happier nowdays that he could admit that to his friends, family and people around him, and they still accept him. Also he re-educated himself to be a chef, he's been very happy with the choice of work he took. He still gets upset and still gets down now and then, but not so much anymore and he is pretty active. He didn't use any pills or anything, just let the time heal his wounds and he worked hard for the things he wanted. I've always been there for him and listened his worries, I've sometimes said the wrong things and sometimes have been frustrated by his passiveness and defeatism. But in the end it worked out fine. He and I are best friends till today.
Anyhows, you can beat this thing! Just takes time and effort. Sometimes effort can be hard to come by, I know it. But I hope you have folks who can help you carry this burden.
Good luck, whatever you decide to do.
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I know that feeling, it follows me around a lot. But still I look at your art and it's darn well done. Hope things will look better soon for ya, it's some kind of hell circle we people get trapped in.
Cheers
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Change your shirt buddy that label on you won't help, but what will is realizing that this is a bump and you can make it over it. Some times it may seem like the bump is a mountain, and seem impossible to scale, but you will. You have a life. It will go on. This will pass. Though it may come back after this one you will have already passed it once, and can do it again. Let things flow naturally, and you will see everything falls into place eventually. Give up, and it moves no where. Trapped in self pity it will hold you down until you either die or find something to motivate you. Don't let that happen. Best of luck.
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I get these feelings as well, sometimes it helps just to get away. Take a walk out of your house and keep walking with no destination. Just look around and notice things you haven't noticed before. If you recognize everything you see, walk further. An activity that is different from the same routine can put things into perspective.Β P.S. Your art has a lot of emotion that some artists spend years to achieve!
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I'm very sorry that you're feeling like this bud. depression is never an easy thing to deal with. I hope these words will at least help a little:
First off, you are one of my fave artists on this site. I love your dark offbeat humor as well as your clever and original stories, and I always look forward to whenever you post a new comic page, like Lou Ghastly or your limited Nosfera. They really serve as great tributes to oldschool horror and its just so much fun to read (btw Grimmsworth is my fave character of yours haha). And honestly, you really are one of my inspirations to make good comics. I've always wanted to make comics and I do have lots of inspirations, but yours have made me excited about how good old school style comics can be and I really want to actually start them. You really are such a fun artist, and I hate seeing my friends this way. And even though you don't know me, I would like to consider you a friend.
I know you barely know me, but I hate seeing anyone like this. And I mean it when I say, if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here if you ever need it. It hardly means anything coming from a guy on deviantart, but this stuff is never easy to deal with and I always wish to help out in anyway. So if you ever want to talk about anything, please shoot me a note. Or hell shoot anyone who messaged you on this pic a note, I'm sure they care about you as much as I do.
Stay well and strong my friend, I'll be rooting for ya.
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I know how you feel, but I don't really know what to suggest. If you're seeking help, that's a good start.
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I understand how you feel, man. I have had a similar experience (though with a significantly smaller fan base to support me, so at least you got that going for you 
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I'm here to listen to your problems man, I've always got your back, heck, you've been the inspiration since i first came here in 09, you, are a legend, if it wasnt for all the stuff you've done, i never would've came here and done a name for myself, you've been a like hero to us, and to me.
if things got too heavy for you at this point, you can always choose to take aΒ break and clear your mind of many things holding you back.
It's also not easy for me too jsut becasue things are changing, but, i still keep going on regardless the danger. You're stronger than this my friend. I'll always stick by your side.
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I'm not gonna tell you some bull like "everything will be okay" because I can't see the future.
No one can know what will happen, but we can know what we choose. I'm not saying thatΒ
what you are choosing to do is bad, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't choose to go out
and hang with friends, grab a bite, or watch a movie. It gets depressing when you do the
same thing everyday. Trust me, I know. When you do something you love, it's a career. But
if you do something because someone else asked/told/paid you to do it, it becomes a job,
and jobs suck. ALl I really want to say is, stuff won't get done unless you get it done. Stuff
won't change unless you change it. It all depends on you and your choices.
But why listen to me, I'm only 17.
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