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Description
I am lost
A broken bird with
No rest, no redeemable past
And a hazy, unlucky future

Lost, lost in a sea
Of poor choices and
Trusts broken

I am up before 3 AM
And sometimes even after,
Woken up by the
Tingling sensation that
This is the end of the world
As I know it

I always remember the
Anniversary no one else
Cares about or even remembers

It always seems to be
Us or them
No in between,
A definite pick of sides

I want an alternative ending
But there are none of those,
No deleted scenes,
No director's cuts,
No previews
To this life

I don't know what's going on
Half of the time,
Don't know why the
Ones I love
Are always leaving me behind,
Especially when I have
Never done so to them

You would think I
Had said
"Sure, go ahead,
Break the promise
You said was closest
To your heart"
With what they
Expected of me:
Unaffected, and then their
Shock when I revealed myself
To be caught in a turmoil
Of ugly emotions

what's wrong?

nothing's wrong. i'm fine i really am. i'm not upset, i'm just tired. i'll be fine, don't worry about me. not that you were doing that anyway yes, i am feeling better, thanks. still a little out of it, though. sorry, what was that? alright, i'm not angry with you.

don't be upset

of course not. itoldyouidon'twanttohavethisconversation. leaveitthefuckalone.

Description
I am lost
A broken bird with
No rest, no redeemable past
And a hazy, unlucky future

Lost, lost in a sea
Of poor choices and
Trusts broken

I am up before 3 AM
And sometimes even after,
Woken up by the
Tingling sensation that
This is the end of the world
As I know it

I always remember the
Anniversary no one else
Cares about or even remembers

It always seems to be
Us or them
No in between,
A definite pick of sides

I want an alternative ending
But there are none of those,
No deleted scenes,
No director's cuts,
No previews
To this life

I don't know what's going on
Half of the time,
Don't know why the
Ones I love
Are always leaving me behind,
Especially when I have
Never done so to them

You would think I
Had said
"Sure, go ahead,
Break the promise
You said was closest
To your heart"
With what they
Expected of me:
Unaffected, and then their
Shock when I revealed myself
To be caught in a turmoil
Of ugly emotions

what's wrong?

nothing's wrong. i'm fine i really am. i'm not upset, i'm just tired. i'll be fine, don't worry about me. not that you were doing that anyway yes, i am feeling better, thanks. still a little out of it, though. sorry, what was that? alright, i'm not angry with you.

don't be upset

of course not. itoldyouidon'twanttohavethisconversation. leaveitthefuckalone.