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Dear L,

My name is Elisha. I am a hybrid and twenty-one years old. Right now, I am in a spot of bother and feeling very low and depressed. An event just happened and it has been dragging me down ever since. I know you are good with relationships and life troubles, so I am wondering if you can guide me down a path that does not involve hurting myself both mentally and physically.

Like many of the letters before me, it is about my boyfriend...who right now has an "ex" in front of it. His name is James and I have known him and dated him for about 9 months until we decided to share the same bed together. We like each others company and grew very fond of each other each year we spent together. Now and then, even towards the end, we have been going off and on, fighting here and there about small stuff, mostly emotional issues and setting boundaries. He fought and argued and ended up hurting each other to the point where we couldn't talk anymore. He decided to leave my apartment and stay with his friend after our last argument. We were both hurt and depressed. I wanted to try to patch things up with him after our last fight and called him, asking if he would like to come over to my place to hang out. I told him that I am very sorry about the fight and wanted to make amends. He agreed to come over so we can patch things up. We both decided that 9pm was a good time and it would be a day to see if we can remain as love ones or split up. Either way, we really needed to talk face to face and he full heartedly agree.

Being a somewhat horny canine, I wanted to do something romantic, something that we haven't done in a very long time. I wanted to be romantic with him. I am very shy and distrusting about my own body due to my "hyena" spots all over random places upon my body . He has never seen me totally naked before, so I wanted to open my body up all the way to him. Everything was set up and I fixed myself up, ready for his arrival. ...And I guess you can tell where this is going...

He never showed up. We both agreed on a time when he would make it to my place. I waited in my bathrobe for him for two hours, holding my cell phone and looking at it, expecting him to call. I texted him a few times, but after the second hour, he texted me back, saying " I just got back home. " So I texted him if he still wanted to come over, even if it was 11pm, but he never replied and from there on, never did. I felt hurt and completely cut off. He knew how much I wanted to see him again, and now my hopes are crushed and my plans ruined... I felt very depressed to the point where looking at the tub remains me of how much I cried and where I wanted to expose myself fully to him.

Dear L, why do you think he did that to me even when I wanted to make peace with him? I told him how sorry I was, but he completely flicked me off. I don’t know where is friend lives, so I cant go over and see him. If he wanted to see me as much as I wanted to, why didn't he texted more to me and only told me that he "just got home" when we planned this for days now? Is it his way of telling me to fuck-off? Is it another way to hurt me back so he would have the last laugh in the fight? I do admit he is now and then stubborn, but he is understandable. What should I do? Should I continue to contact him, or should I just delete his number form my phone.

... I miss him so much and I wanted to mate with him... I am still in love with him and it hurts me to no end just remembering his face and warm embrace...

Please help me before I do something rash...

- Elisha Whitfield

One Missed Date © 2007 Alex Cockburn

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Dear L,

My name is Elisha. I am a hybrid and twenty-one years old. Right now, I am in a spot of bother and feeling very low and depressed. An event just happened and it has been dragging me down ever since. I know you are good with relationships and life troubles, so I am wondering if you can guide me down a path that does not involve hurting myself both mentally and physically.

Like many of the letters before me, it is about my boyfriend...who right now has an "ex" in front of it. His name is James and I have known him and dated him for about 9 months until we decided to share the same bed together. We like each others company and grew very fond of each other each year we spent together. Now and then, even towards the end, we have been going off and on, fighting here and there about small stuff, mostly emotional issues and setting boundaries. He fought and argued and ended up hurting each other to the point where we couldn't talk anymore. He decided to leave my apartment and stay with his friend after our last argument. We were both hurt and depressed. I wanted to try to patch things up with him after our last fight and called him, asking if he would like to come over to my place to hang out. I told him that I am very sorry about the fight and wanted to make amends. He agreed to come over so we can patch things up. We both decided that 9pm was a good time and it would be a day to see if we can remain as love ones or split up. Either way, we really needed to talk face to face and he full heartedly agree.

Being a somewhat horny canine, I wanted to do something romantic, something that we haven't done in a very long time. I wanted to be romantic with him. I am very shy and distrusting about my own body due to my "hyena" spots all over random places upon my body . He has never seen me totally naked before, so I wanted to open my body up all the way to him. Everything was set up and I fixed myself up, ready for his arrival. ...And I guess you can tell where this is going...

He never showed up. We both agreed on a time when he would make it to my place. I waited in my bathrobe for him for two hours, holding my cell phone and looking at it, expecting him to call. I texted him a few times, but after the second hour, he texted me back, saying " I just got back home. " So I texted him if he still wanted to come over, even if it was 11pm, but he never replied and from there on, never did. I felt hurt and completely cut off. He knew how much I wanted to see him again, and now my hopes are crushed and my plans ruined... I felt very depressed to the point where looking at the tub remains me of how much I cried and where I wanted to expose myself fully to him.

Dear L, why do you think he did that to me even when I wanted to make peace with him? I told him how sorry I was, but he completely flicked me off. I don’t know where is friend lives, so I cant go over and see him. If he wanted to see me as much as I wanted to, why didn't he texted more to me and only told me that he "just got home" when we planned this for days now? Is it his way of telling me to fuck-off? Is it another way to hurt me back so he would have the last laugh in the fight? I do admit he is now and then stubborn, but he is understandable. What should I do? Should I continue to contact him, or should I just delete his number form my phone.

... I miss him so much and I wanted to mate with him... I am still in love with him and it hurts me to no end just remembering his face and warm embrace...

Please help me before I do something rash...

- Elisha Whitfield

One Missed Date © 2007 Alex Cockburn