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Dear (Y/n),

Tiny drops of rain scattered on the glass surface. The light sound of the sky washing out the pressure of it's past days. Even the sun can only shine for so long.

It's been about six months now, and I don't know how I'm going to do it.

You didn't belong here. This wasn't your home. Your home was the moments shared with Levi. From every honey laced word, to the regrettable, angry shouts. That was home. Not some town where the fire was extinguished from their very soul.

It's not fucking fair. How am I supposed to be my best when the biggest part of me is thousands of miles away?

If you could go back, you would. If you could. It wasn't fair to him. You couldn't hold Levi down longer than you already have. So much potential, yet he'd give it all up for you. Every opportunity. Every chance. All the endless possibilities, gone. All for you. Playing with fire gets you burned, and you had to put this out before intensive care became his downfall.

You never said why you left, so I've decided to try to find you, as I've said in letters before. But, you never write back, so I can't know if you're getting these words. I'll keep sending them though, with the hope of seeing your love again.

You knew you weren't going anywhere. Levi could run the world if he wanted. He didn't need a hopeless dreamer to break down the world he could build. Oh, how many roads you've walked down. Every step putting a crack in the very fiber of your being, as you got farther and farther away from the man you love. Love enough to let go.

You knew I never cared about those pricks. They said you wouldn't end up anywhere but broke and broken. I know you're so much more. You're so much more, but without you I'm just a shell of anger. Please don't do this to me. Don't do this to us.

The rain was steady but a slow drizzle. The air smelt almost cleansed in a way. You've been here before. You could remember it so clearly. Levi and you. The river was flowing with all the determination in the world. Hand in hand you two walked to the edge of the water. That's when he told you, Levi told you he wanted you to be his and only his for the rest of this life. The river ran slower the next day.

I know you too well to not have some ideas of where you are. Remember the first time you told me you loved me? Remember how shocked I was? That was the first time someone had told me that. And the first time I could say that to someone else.

Your knees hit the plush grass by the riverbed. Tears rolled down your cheek, as you shared the pain of the sky as the water of the earth's pain mixed with your own remorse. How could such a cruel world be so beautiful. The smooth tide of the river ran along. You took the water speckled letter out of your jacket pocket, and set it into the river, to keep moving forward forevermore. Reciting the the last line of it in your mind on loop.

"To the water of my endless river-"

"Love, Levi. I just know you too well to let go, (Y/n)."