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Playing with fire
Playing with food
Eat or don't eat?
A decision so crude

Numbers on the scale go down
But the girl in the mirror grows
I know it doesn't work that way
But maybe.. Who knows?..

I skipped my last meal
Had my snack for the day
Not a calorie more
Not a word left to say

I never have breakfast
But coffee's a must
If I eat that early
My stomach churns in disgust

Then the clock strikes 12 with no prevail
I sit and listen to my body cry
But it's a well-known habit
So each day my eyes stay dry

At 3 is my first bite of food
Don't I dare eat too much
But purging is my injury
Starvation is my crutch

I cover the mirror
Or get dressed in my room
I know what I look like
No point to assume

Then I leave and come back
Say I already ate
Missing dinner is simple
When hurting someone you hate

So I fall from exhaustion
I stare at the ceiling as I lie in my bed
Breathing shallow, heart not beating
Am I alive or dead?

Bones are showing
Water's thinning
Mind is losing
Society's winning

I only win when I'm skin and bones
When there's nothing left to pick on
But I'm still waiting for
My last sunset, my last dawn

My final nightmare;
When media makes me roll over in my grave
When I'm truly gone
There'll be someone else to save