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PatchyFallenstar In reply to ??? [2015-06-02 19:27:25 +0000 UTC]

((ty bud. even tho she's an apprentice now, i'mma pretend this happened when she was a kit))

Fallenstar made his way back into his den after returning from a patrol, making sure not to step on one of his kits who were bounding around the den excitedly.

"Careful," he cautioned Windkit and Thymekit as they wrestled, and looked over to see Silkkit still in the nest.

"How are you feeling today, Silkkit?" the leader asked, his expression soft.

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2015-06-04 22:44:00 +0000 UTC]

((No problem ^_^ ))

Immediately the russet Kit's green eyes brightened when she saw her father, purring as she waved her tail excitedly, "I'm good papa" she told him, with a small skip to her step as she ran over to greet him, heading-butting his leg lightly, as she brushed around him. She was always happy when her papa came to visit, and mama always looked so happy as well.
"Have you been really busy?" Silkkit asked, "because of all the heat and stuff, me and Smilekit have been keeping out of the shade," she was eager to show him what a good job she was doing.

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RANPl In reply to ??? [2014-11-05 02:11:50 +0000 UTC]

Coldkit was out exploring the camp. Every. Little. Crevice. There were no clan meetings since Coldkit and his siblings had been in Moonclan, so he had no idea that he was snooping into the Leader's den. Poking his nose to the ground like a curious dog, he had his tail high in the air."What den is this..?" He quietly asked himself out loud. He had been to the medicine cat's den so this wasn't it. hmmm.... The kit hunched over pondering what the den was.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to RANPl [2014-11-06 19:58:17 +0000 UTC]

"If you need me for something, just say so," Fallenstar mewed, somewhat distracted. He'd smelled someone's presence, a scent he wasn't quite sure of -- perhaps one of the younger kits, as he could detect an overwhelming scent of milk more than anything -- as he chewed away on a sparrow, he looked up, ears pricked for his visitor's response.

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RANPl In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-06 23:47:37 +0000 UTC]

Coldkit let out a squeak of suprise. Bingo. Looking up to see the massive  leader, the small freckled tom shrunk down a bit."S-sorry sir..." He didn't expect the leader, and with his littermates gossiping, he was told to be afraid of the tom.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to RANPl [2014-11-14 20:39:24 +0000 UTC]

"You don't need something?" He realized it was a kit he was talking to, for sure, one of Frogsplash and Silversoul's. His voice softened as he watched the kitten from his position. "You're......is it, sorry, Berrykit, right?"

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RANPl In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-17 05:09:15 +0000 UTC]

"Nah that's my sister. I'm Coldkit!" The young tom puffed out his chest proudly at his own name, fluffing his fur up to make his pudgy frame look larger than it already is."I was exploring and my littermates told me to come in here... but I guess they did because you're the leader huh..?"

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to RANPl [2014-11-17 07:37:44 +0000 UTC]

"Sorry, Coldkit. I'll remember next time." He felt bad when mixing up kit's names, but when there were seven in a litter, it was bound to happen. "Well, feel free to look around. I'm sorry to say the den is a bit underwhelming, the stories are much better."

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RANPl In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-12-07 18:26:53 +0000 UTC]

Coldkit purred slightly in amusement."Thank you!" His stubby tail flicked back and forth, almost as if he were wagging it like a dog. Sniffing around the den, he made sure to avoid the large tom's nest, as that was usually a private place, and he was always scolded about it.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to RANPl [2014-12-22 00:27:07 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar circled around his nest and began gnawing once more on his meal, keeping a steady eye on the kitten as he poked around the den. "See anything exciting?" he asked.

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RANPl In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-12-22 00:37:08 +0000 UTC]

Coldkit finished circling around the rather empty den, lifting his head to look back at the leader with amber eyes."Not really. It's kinda empty and sad." The tiny kit flicked his tail slightly."Don't you get lonely in here?"

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to RANPl [2015-01-19 01:56:51 +0000 UTC]

"A little bit, but when I do, I just go outside and mingle instead." Fallenstar flicked his tail, offering a smile. 

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Nugchuppy In reply to ??? [2014-11-02 04:32:21 +0000 UTC]

"Fallenstar?"

The leaf-fall day was cool, signalling the approach of leaf-bare, although not so cool that the cats could barely stand to be outside, as Cottonpaw had been for the most of the morning, out hunting. But she'd since returned to camp, setting her catch down in the fresh-kill pile, Cottonpaw had decided to enter a den. Not to escape the cold, no, but because she wanted to talk to someone. Fallenstar, to be exact, hence why she'd found her way to the leaders den, standing half inside the den as she called her... she wasn't actually too sure what their relationship was. While Cottonpaw knew that Timidbreeze was her adoptive father, Dullsky was hardly dead, despite not having been at all a part of her life, and while Fallenstar was Timidbreeze's mate Cottonpaw was reluctant to call him her father. It was confusing.

But her voice was clear and confident as she called for him in the den.

"May I please come in?"

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to Nugchuppy [2014-11-03 04:09:53 +0000 UTC]

"Come in," Fallenstar called to his visitor, wondering if it was one of his adopted kits. He wasn't quite sure enough to pick out if it was Cottonpaw, Dandelionpaw or Milkpaw's voices, as he hadn't spent much time with any of them up to this point. It was Cottonpaw who entered the den, however, and Fallenstar greeted her with a slight dip of his head.

"What can I do for you?" he asked aloud.

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Nugchuppy In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-03 04:47:36 +0000 UTC]

Cottonpaw dipped her head slightly as she entered the den, the gesture that was meant to be respectful came across a little awkward, as she paused a few times during it, collecting her thoughts for herself. She quietly stood across from him, a little unsure if she should sit down, before eventually deciding to do so, blinking her green eyes at the leader. "I, um..." Cottonpaw mumbled, forming the sentence in her mind before speaking it out loud. "I heard you and Timidbreeze were having more kits... I, um, wanted to talk about that, I think" She mewed, her voice calm and slow yet still confident.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to Nugchuppy [2014-11-03 08:11:21 +0000 UTC]

"Ah, yes," Fallenstar assumed his most fatherly-looking position, sitting poised with his tail curled over his paws neatly. He'd practiced all morning after Vixenpaw had asked to talk about the same thing, and he wondered if Cottonpaw had the same concerns as her adopted sister did.

"If you're afraid that we're going to stop loving you because of the new litter, then I'll tell you right now, that's not going to happen." It was the same advice he'd given Vixenpaw, though he stuttered over the word love. It was the first time he'd ever said that to Cottonpaw, and he wondered how she would take it. His ears flattened instinctively, what if she was put off by it? He could practically smell how uncomfortable she was already.

"Er..." he tried to backtrack.

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Nugchuppy In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-03 17:44:33 +0000 UTC]

Cottonpaw blinked at Fallenstar, a little taken aback by the statement although she tried her best not to show it. She wasn't really here about her, and didn't really wan to make it that way either. So Cottonpaw shook her head slightly instead, biting her lip once more. "I don't really care if you love me... or not" She mewed bluntly. "I'm really here for, um, Timidbreeze, and Morningpaw and the others but... mainly Timidbreeze. I don't really know why you... shut her out... once the kits were born but I can't really, um, allow you to do that again... I think" Cottonpaw's eyes focused on the ground, not wanting to look the leader in the eye as she became aware that her statement sounded a bit like a threat, but it was out in the air now anyways.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to Nugchuppy [2014-11-03 18:43:44 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar's ears pricked again, surprised once more by the little she-cat. Could sisters be so different from one another? When he'd spoken to Vixenpaw she'd sobbed for minutes over the thought that Fallenstar and Timidbreeze would forget about her, yet Cottonpaw couldn't care less. She was worried about Fallenstar abandoning Timidbreeze.

His poised position relaxed a bit, and he smiled. "Don't worry, I won't abandon her. Last time...was, well, complicated. I thought that by shutting her out, I was protecting her, and you kits, because--I'm sure you've heard the rumors--I wasn't the most trustworthy, or even safe to be around." His tail whisked across the ground, disturbing the bones of his most recent meal. He tensed slightly at the noise they made--still not used to the little noises. It was odd that such silence put him on edge.

"You really love Timidbreeze, don't you?" he asked.

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Nugchuppy In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-03 19:05:01 +0000 UTC]

Cottonpaw nodded thoughtfully, a slight smile on her lips at the leaders last question. She curled her soft tail over her paws, eyes sill focused on the ground a little. "I think I do... I try to, I mean she sorta is my mother and she's a really, really great cat... but I think you must know that by now too, if you're her, um, mate and stuff" Cottonpaw mewed, her gaze shifting upwards slightly to look at Fallenstar. "I'm sorry, but I guess that's probably why I don't trust you... since what you did really hurt her, I think it was Muddykit too, but either way she was really sad for a long time... at first I didn't get it but now I do, and I just want to make sure it doesn't happen again..."

She straightened up slightly, once more, blinking at him. "I guess all I want to know is that you won't... do that again. Even if the circumstances are the same, I want you to, um, do stuff differently. And, um, know that I'll be, um, watching you when the kits are born to make sure... everything's okay"

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to Nugchuppy [2014-11-17 07:40:08 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar nodded. Though she didn't seem all that confident, not like some of the warriors he'd had to face, he took her every bit as seriously. "Fair enough. Feel free to get on my case if I'm not up to your standards--I know I hurt her. I regret it every day of my life, but I won't deny that it happened. I thought I was protecting her, when really, I was just making things worse."

He looked away from Cottonpaw for just a brief moment before his green eyes snapped back to hers. "Can I trust you to keep me in line?"

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Nugchuppy In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-20 06:49:59 +0000 UTC]

Cottonpaw nodded slightly, feeling reassured by the leaders words. At least he knew and accepted that he put her through hell, and whilst she was still nervous around him, she thought that this would be a good beginning to his second chance, in Cottonpaw's eyes anyways. But she shuffled her paws a little awkwardly at the next part, looking at the ground for a few moments. "I'll, um, try my best. But honestly, I'm not too sure what a good dad is meant to be like, so, um, I'll just sorta see if they're happy and stuff... I don't know. I think that you'll do okay though if you try your best, y'know?" Cottonpaw mewed, offering him a slight smile. "I mean, I guess I'm sorta worried I won't be a good sister for them either... since Dandelionpaw kinda hates me anyways... but I think I'll try and do better with the new kits" She blinked at him. "I guess we can try and do better together or something?"

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to Nugchuppy [2014-11-21 18:57:21 +0000 UTC]

"How about this. You help me do better as a dad, and I'll help you do better as a sister. Sound like a good deal?" Though Fallenstar was still a bit muddy on what it meant to be a good father, at least he had a somewhat good relationship with Wishspirit, and a really good one with Russetmoon.  Being a sibling, in the tabby's eyes, was easier than being a parent.

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Nugchuppy In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-12-20 19:31:22 +0000 UTC]

Cottonpaw looked at her paws, thinking of this for a few moments before smiling at Fallenstar, nodding. "Yeah... okay, that sounds like a good deal, I think" Cottonpaw mewed, blinking at Fallenstar. "Thank you, um, Fallenstar, just by the way... for offering to help me... yeah" She finished, looking at her paws.

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sparkeythehamster In reply to ??? [2014-10-19 18:36:39 +0000 UTC]

Would it be possible to do an RP with Fallenstar?, I don't think I've RPed with him since he was a Kit ;^_^

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-10-20 03:52:03 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, lets do it!!

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-10-20 08:51:38 +0000 UTC]

((I'll start then~ I'll use Hazefire if that's okay)).

The Clan seemed to be recovering quite well from the War, better than Hazefire would have assumed under Fallenstar's Leadership... or Fallenshadow, whatever he was going by now. Hazefire had lost track of whether the tom was playing Leader or Deputy, though it did seem to be a bit of both now that Spiceshadow had moved to the Elder's Den with his injury.
It was a shame, Spiceshadow would have made a brilliant Leader if Starclan decided at the end that Fallenstar wasn't a worthy Leader, then what? Would Starclan just choose another Leader, after all, now there was no Deputy to replace him.

He'd just returned from a Border Patrol along the Pebbleclan side, from what he'd seen there, the Pebbleclan Cats still seemed to hold some hostility towards them, which wasn't surprising really considering they'd run them out of their territory and kidnapped their Clanmates, Dawnclan probably felt the same way towards them.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-10-27 18:47:29 +0000 UTC]

((Perf))

Fallenstar, still frazzled as always as he tried to take care of too many things by himself, had finally settled into a relaxed pose as he ate away at a sparrow that Morningpaw had brought him, insisting he ate it while it was still warm.

The tom knew he couldn't keep this up forever. With Spiceshadow's retirement, that only put more pressure on him, and more eyes. Everyone was expecting him to do well, and at the same time, everyone was expecting him to fail. He still heard them talking amongst themselves, asking who would be leader when he messed up and had to step down.

The sparrow tasted bitter, and Fallenstar threw it aside in a huff.

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-10-27 22:36:53 +0000 UTC]

Glancing in the direction of the Leader's Den, he realised that none of the other members of his patrol were going to go and give the report - not that there was much to report.
Letting out a reluctant sigh, he jumped up onto the Leader's rock and called through into the Den, "Fallenstar, report from the Pebbleclan Border Patrol," he waited for permission to come in, and held back on using the same tone of voice he would have used if speaking to anybody else while using Fallenstar's name. He didn't like the Leader, and he knew he could be a bit free and easy with his opinion sometimes, but you'd have to be an idiot to actually talk like that to Fallenstar's face - he wasn't a coward either, but it was easy to reason that shouting out what you thought wouldn't get you very far and would be in complete vain.

He waited patiently on the rock, ready to turn and go if there was no reply.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-10-31 16:57:30 +0000 UTC]

"Ah, yes, come in," Fallenstar gathered the sparrow closer to him, though his tossing it aside had disrupted some of it's feathers and left an unsavory mess in the corner of his den, he hoped his visitor wouldn't notice. 

Much to his surprise, it was Hazefire to entered his den. Fallenstar knew the dark tabby wasn't his biggest fan, and wondered why he had been selected to relay the report. Probably put up to it by the others. Maybe he lost a bet.

"Oh, Hazefire," the younger tom straightened up and dipped his head ever so slightly to his Clanmate. "What's the report?"

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-10-31 17:00:59 +0000 UTC]

"It's all quiet on the Pebbleclan border" he assured the Leader, his expression neutral as he spoke, "The border markings are still in place," he did ponder for a moment telling Fallenstar about the incident he'd broken up between Marigoldflame and one of the Pebbleclan Cats on the border the other day, but he held his tongue - the Queen had made a mistake and everything had been sorted out, no need for her to get into trouble.

Realising he was lingering, he dipped his head quickly and began to reverse out of the Leader's Den before he said something that might get him into trouble. As he'd gotten older he'd found he had better control at keeping his thoughts to himself, but he still wasn't quite sure of himself.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-10-31 17:52:31 +0000 UTC]

"Thank you Hazefire," Fallenstar dipped his head as well, and as the older tom turned to leave, the tabby added in quietly, "and I'm sorry."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-10-31 18:01:35 +0000 UTC]

Pausing, Hazefire turned, unsure if he'd heard correctly, amber eyes a little wide with surprise.
"I'm sorry, I didn't quite catch that?" In contrast to his previously neutral tone, it was slightly more open now, having been taken by surprise it was harder to keep up appearances.

Fallenstar was a difficult Leader to figure out, one moment he's killing off Cats for the 'Good of the Clan', then he's going dopey eyed over his Kits. Hazefire sometimes considered this was what made him so cautious of the other tom, that he didn't know how he was going to react at any given moment - at least Wishspirit was predictable, give him the wrong look and he'd claw your ear off.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-10-31 19:26:30 +0000 UTC]

"I said..." Fallenstar started with his leader voice, before dropping it into a smaller one, like a kit scolding an apprentice. "I'm sorry. I know you don't like me, and you have every reason not to. I just...wanted to apologize for that."

He flicked his ear in a motion that many cats would take as either a sign of dismissal, or a sign of embarrassment. He wasn't sure which one was behind the intent of the signal. While Fallenstar had put on a brave act whilst under the jurisdiction of the Voices, it was true that the older warriors, toms especially, made the young tabby nervous. Not even in a way that would make him fear for them overthrowing him, like he was so concerned about moons ago, but in a way like an apprentice trying to impress their mentor.

Hazefire especially was a tom that had a great deal of status within the MoonClan camp, he had many cats that looked up to him and would follow him to the moon and back, even without the title of a leader. Fallenstar wished he could be so respected.

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-10-31 20:29:01 +0000 UTC]

"I don't... dislike you..." and now he put a voice to it, Hazefire suddenly realised it was true. Of course he still hated that Fallenstar with a passion that had returned to Camp that night several moons ago claiming the title of Leadership, the Fallenstar who had dragged them into battles where many of their fellow Clanmates had died, destroying connections they had with their neighbors.
But this Fallenstar, the one who apologized, and twitched his ear in such a way, he knew it was the same Fallenstar that Timidbreeze must see.

He stopped, hesitating a moment, before padding back into the centre of the Den, his conscious just wouldn't let him leave any Cat in this situation.

"You don't need to apologize for any Cat's feelings towards you, I mean of course there was the way you behaved during the war..." he caught himself, sighed and shook his head, "But I know you've changed since then, I'm not sure why, but it seems like you have," nodding his head in acknowledgement though, he added, "although I do appreciate you being mature enough to say it, apologizing is not an easy thing for any Cat in a position of influence and power to do." 

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-03 04:21:06 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar pricked his ears, surprised that Hazefire returned and was actually speaking to him...with some amount of respect, or moreso, appreciation. The tabby looked at his paws, the way younger warriors would when speaking to a senior warrior such as Hazefire.

"I've made a lot of mistakes," he began, choosing his words carefully, "and I understand that...which is why I need to apologize. If things had been different--if I had been different--Joltflash, and many others, would still be here. Our relationships with the other Clans, our honor, our reputation would have remained unsoiled. Of course I want to apologize for that."

What else was there to do? Perhaps a few moons ago, Fallenstar wouldn't have had the courage to say such things, at least not truthfully. Hazefire was right about one thing--he had changed, hopefully for the better. "I just don't know what to do, Hazefire."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-03 07:40:32 +0000 UTC]

The gray tabby tom blinked with even more surprise, was the Leader actually confessing that he wasn't sure what he was going to do next? Fallenstar admitting a mistake?
Clearing his throat he tried to regain himself a little, "Well, admitting your mistakes and making them in the first place is how you learn," he remembered saying something similar to Nettlestrike, a young Pebbleclan Cat he'd met on the border who had admitted to being the one who had hurt Timidbreeze - did Fallenstar know about her? And would he be as willing to accept that she had learned from her mistakes as the Leader seemed to want them to be? He wasn't sure.

"Well whether all of us like it or not, you are our Leader at the moment and the Clan can't support itself without a Leader, but Starclan has taken away your nine lives and want you to prove yourself to them," he flicked his tail, considering these points, "If you want my advise, and you don't need to take it, a good Leader is someone who takes an interest in the lives of his Clan, not just those he thinks will become strong Warriors, but is conscious of those who are struggling and might need a little extra help as well, and just in general, let the Clan see you in the Camp sharing prey with them and talking to them, you seem to spend so much time in here on your own or with Timidbreeze," he shook his head, "I'm glad your spending time with her, particularly as I hear she's pregnant again, but it wouldn't hurt to widen your circle of trust a little, that way others might put a little more trust in you."

He finished his speech and waited for Fallenstar's reaction. He wasn't frightened of the younger tom, but he was conscious that he might have to leave in a bit of a hurry.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-03 08:16:05 +0000 UTC]

"I don't know how I can broaden my circle of trust when I'm afraid everyone wants to claw my ears off," the aforementioned ears atop the tabby's head flattened in emphasis as he spoke. "I've been trying to talk to some of the, uh, like kits and apprentices and stuff, but the Warriors are a bit trickier. It seems only my littermates and Timidbreeze would even give me the time of day."

Avoiding eye contact with the darker tabby, Fallenstar clawed at the ground. It wasn't easy for him to ask for help, or admit his mistakes, let alone to a cat he wasn't on good terms with. But for some reason, the ability to vent seemed to be more overwhelming than his initial fear. It felt so good to say these things to someone other than Timidbreeze or Russetmoon, for once. 

He looked up at Hazefire this time. "I know everyone is waiting for me to fail, or to get killed or something. I don't think anyone thinks I can be--or even wants me as--their leader again. But, I mean, I keep trying anyway, because I want to prove it to myself, and to everyone. I want to make up for what I ruined."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-03 08:21:11 +0000 UTC]

Conflicted, this was the point where Hazefire really had to consider the Leader. Was Fallenstar genuinely sorry and in need of help, or was this all just a ruse so he could get them to trust him so Starclan would give him back his nine lives so he could rule in terror over them again?
Some time past before he spoke again, if he agreed to help Fallenstar then he may possibly have tied himself to a plank of sinking wood, but everybody got a second chance, that was only fair, particularly if they seemed to have learned from their mistakes.

"...I think I can help you there," he met the younger tom's green eyed gaze with his own amber one, trying to convey that this was very hard for him and he didn't want to be stabbed in the back with it, "I'm quiet well trusted within the Clan, if the Clan see you talking to me, some of my friends might come over too, I know that Bravenight has support for you, he's well trusted too, we can help the Clan see you in a better light."

He really hoped that he wasn't making a mistake here.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-17 07:49:47 +0000 UTC]

"Thanks, but, you don't have to do that for me," Fallenstar mewed quietly, though he was grateful for the offer, he didn't want an easy way out. He could feel Hazefire's discomfort as the darker tom had spoken, too, and the young MoonClan leader knew that Hazefire would probably never trust him, no matter what. "I can do it on my own--or die trying. That's what everyone wants, right? To have me get killed in some idiotic way, like charging into a nest of badgers, or getting my throat 'accidentally' slit during a border skirmish. That's one of the reasons I'm afraid to name a Deputy--I fear that, as soon as I choose someone, I'll be killed, because anyone would be better than me."

He'd briefly considered leaving the Clans altogether at some point after the War had happened -- that everyone had been happier before he was born, surely they'd be more content with his leaving, especially with no explanation. But no, he'd reasoned with himself, he had kits and a mate to care for, and he did want to prove himself somehow. Maybe he could be a good leader some day.

After a moment of silence, Fallenstar realized what he'd said, and shook his fur out. "S-sorry, that was a little dark. Timidbreeze and Russetmoon don't like it when I talk like that, so, I'm sorry--it kind of just...slipped out."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-17 09:55:18 +0000 UTC]

"Good Starclan!" Hazefire heard himself explain, really forgetting himself now as he marched towards the younger tom, as if he were any younger Cat that needed to have a few things set straight.
"First, nobody wants you to go out and die in a stupid way, as that would initially leave us without a Leader or Deputy, your Kits without a father to support their mother, and what a ridiculous thing to say, true we're not all delighted with you, but running away or lying around here feeling sorry for yourself is not going to solve anything or make the situation better."

He did calm himself down a little, letting out a long sigh, as he could see that this situation was also upsetting the Leader.
"Look, I know you're worried, by the look of it, it looks like the responsibilities of your Leadership has hit you, but you're not the first, I'm sure there were times when Patchstar or the other Old Leaders felt as if they weren't good enough, asking why out of all Cats Starclan had chosen them, but the fact of the matter is that Starclan did choose them, just like they chose to give you a second chance, they must see some potential for good in you. You just need to swallow that doubt and lead, because if you don't who will."

They did need a Deputy, that was very clear, but would they really have to wait until Fallenstar had proven himself to Starclan for that to happen. He was sure that the bordering Clans were not happy with them, and while he wasn't sure they'd attack them, there were going to be a lot of repercussions for this War and Fallenstar would need support in dealing with them.
Would it not be possible for Fallenstar to appoint one of his Kin, Russetmoon perhaps, he was a far more acceptable face of their family and a lot cooler in approaching a situation, surely Fallenstar could count on him for support, or even his own father Deathsong. Hazefire knew the old tom was due to retire, but maybe he could put it off a little to help out his son.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-17 19:07:21 +0000 UTC]

"I-I know, I'm sorry. I wasn't going to--I mean..." Fallenstar wasn't used to anyone but Eagletalon speaking to him in this way, and it caught the tabby off guard. Of course Hazefire was right--Fallenstar wasn't sure what else to say that would put the older warrior's mind at ease without sounding like whining again.

There was an awkward pause between the two toms as neither of them said anything, Hazefire's words echoing in the leader's mind for a while.

"I was thinking...Scorpionfang."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-17 21:56:00 +0000 UTC]

Hazefire pondered the option, a little surprised, Scorpionfang after all was probably the furthest thing from Fallenstar's loyalist Warrior, and most of the Warriors were a little nervous of him, but he was a strong fighter, certainly a good Cat to have in your line of defense. He didn't want to say anything too critical here as it was the closest that Fallenstar had come to naming a Deputy.

He dipped his head, "It's your job as Leader to decide who you want by your side," he offered Fallenstar a reassuring smile, "but Scorpionfang is a powerful Warrior," this was after all true, "He also has a mate and Kits in the Den with Timidbreeze which shows him as a tom with a family," perhaps the younger Warriors and Apprentices would be less nervous of him now.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-19 05:34:03 +0000 UTC]

"I...I think he would be a good leader. He's a lot like Patchstar. I mean, without the gentleness on the outside. I thought about Creamrose, his sister, but...I think her and Bristlefang are mates, or will be soon, and I don't want her to feel like she'd need to choose the position over a family. I thought about you, too, but..." But what? Fallenstar wasn't sure if he had a good reason for not choosing the dark furred tabby. He spoke honestly, "I didn't think you'd want to be my Deputy."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-19 08:07:15 +0000 UTC]

Hazefire snorted, "You've got that right, I'm far better where I am, able to criticize and snap at you without feeling like I have some sort of obligation not to," he flicked his tail to let the younger tom know that he was joking. He still wasn't sure he liked the idea of an aggressive tom being in the Deputy position, but he didn't know Scorpionfang very well, and at least so far as he knew Scorpionfang had never actually attacked one of his own Clanmates like Wishspirit had, so perhaps he was being unfair on the tom.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-19 08:45:13 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar couldn't help but smile at the dark tabby's words. This was a good start, if anything.

"Scorpionfang is hardworking, and he's had an apprentice, so it follows all the rules," the younger tom made sure to emphasize that point. "I've seen him a few times with his new kits, when I go to visit Timidbreeze in the Nursery, and he seems really gentle with them. He's even nice to Marigoldflame's new kits, so I think that's a pretty good trait." Fallenstar had suspicions that Scorpionfang might even be a little too nice to the orange she-cat's new litter. If Sorrelfox could do it, Scorpionfang could. He couldn't be sure though, and didn't want to pry. One thing he knew for certain: Russetmoon had no interest in she-cats, or fathering a litter.

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-19 08:53:51 +0000 UTC]

Hazefire dipped his head, "Well in the spirit of turning over new leafs, as you seem to have done it so well, I will endeavor to presume everyone capable of it, tell you what, I'll even reconsider my position on your Leadership, perhaps you might be able to lead Moonclan after all," he flicked his ear, "though I'm not ready to say you've quite stepped into Patchstar's paws yet," there was no need to be dishonest after all.
"I'll support your decision to appoint Scorpionfang, but remember your Deputies aren't the only ones you can come to for advice, the Senior Warriors are here too, we've seen a lot, more than a young tom like you," he chuckled, "So don't hesitate to come by if you have any problems."

((Haha ;^_^ Fallenstar's on to MarigoldScorpion))

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-22 06:47:21 +0000 UTC]

(heehee only cause he knows Russ. He's like, "really bro? A she-cat? kits? you never wanted any of those what the heck why all of a sudden. is this to get Deathsong to leave you alone?)

"N-no, I don't think anyone would ever be able to replace her," Fallenstar was absolutely ecstatic. If Hazefire saw him this way, could that mean that his other Clanmates would, too? He could almost cry, if he wasn't still wanting to impress Hazefire. "I will, I promise," he smiled. "And Hazefire....thank you."

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-22 13:29:28 +0000 UTC]

Surveying Fallenstar with a light smile, Hazefire nodded, he was still surprised and a little amused by the Leader's turn around, but it seemed like perhaps he would prove himself as a Leader after all if he kept on the path it seemed he was on.
"I'll leave you now" he dipped his head, turning to go, "Good luck," and with that he left the Leader's Den and hopped back down to the ground to go and find something to eat.

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PatchyFallenstar In reply to sparkeythehamster [2014-11-24 19:44:05 +0000 UTC]

Fallenstar dipped his head as his senior warrior left his den.

(eeeeeeeee fallen youre redeeming yourself)

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sparkeythehamster In reply to PatchyFallenstar [2014-11-24 19:48:54 +0000 UTC]

((Little by little he's getting there~ -Cheers on Fallen-
And end here?))

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