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pitnerd In reply to ArtOfMattEldritch [2015-07-01 15:02:55 +0000 UTC]

I just decided it was time to give up Pixelegion. The FB page has a little over 3500 followers now and I'm simply not the one to lead it since it's not who I am anymore.

The voices in my head kept me in a constant state of thinking I needed to keep the page updated with cartoons, and it had become a burden.

On top of that, I'm not angry like I was with Fundamentalist Evangelical Christianity anymore.

I don't believe in a god or gods, but I just don't want to devote my time and energy to berating people who do as if I'm somehow better than them now for not believing. I may be freer from my perspective, yet insulting them and insisting 'they' have it all wrong is a pendulum swing from the fundie believer to a fundie non-believer.

It was beginning to eat away at me and kept me in a state of hate and upset. I feel like it was integral to my 'healing' to express how I felt through my art, and I am proud of the past pieces I've done. However,  I'm not in that place anymore and refuse to allowt past bullshit I went through dictate my 'now', y'know?

For those people just becoming new atheists who need to scream at fundamentalist religion, I salute them in their courage to step out of what they've always known and into something new and free.

But I also have friends who still believe and I don't want to hurt them.

Evangelical Christianity hurt me, but I will be better than it.


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On a lighter note, this should mean that fresh artwork is to come out of this different perspective soon! Thank you so much for your support and interest in my work. It's a new day!

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ArtOfMattEldritch In reply to pitnerd [2015-07-04 00:55:39 +0000 UTC]

This speaks in great volumes to me. 

I fully understand your plight and personal growth. As much as I do despise religion, I have a friend in the US that is a terrific guy and if a good 90% of christians were like him, the world would be in better shape imho. 

There are some aspects of the new atheism movement I dislike a lot. Such as the rather obnoxious personalities (as I do like some of his videos, I find the Amazing Atheist too much of a douche) and how many of them seem to be overtly neo-conservative or libertarian in most of their political viewpoints.

Sometimes If I get too upset over news or stupid personal shit, it helps me by taking some deep breaths and focusing on something more positive to think about.

I hope the new change of life doesn't stop you from making those kickass monsters you do so well. If you ever have a request for me or wanna do an art trade, feel free to ask. 

Speaking of, I'm doing a horror novel with the premise of atheists having to fight Lovecraft-based monsters in their cult-dominated town. If you want more details, I can PM you if you'd like. 

Sorry for the lateness of my reply, it took me long to figure out what to write to you.

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