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Life is...strange. Everything in my life is so unsure at the moment. I don't know what's going to happen.

I don't want to post publicly online about one of the things that's going on in my life, because I'm not sure yet, and there is a very important person I need to talk to about it before I even think of saying anything (out of respect for his role in things). Those of you who've talked to me via note might know what I'm talking about.

Also, my cousin has "decided" (all of her decisions I have to put in quotes, because she has a tendency to change her mind a lot) to move back to her home town sometime relatively soon; which puts a bit of stain on ME, because I don't know if I will be allowed to continue renting without her(her parents were our guaranteers for the lease). I have a job, and I CAN pay the rent and bills without her, but I might have to re-pay the security deposit, and thanks to the very long time I spent being sick, I no longer have any savings. Of course, we haven't ONCE been late on rent, so I think that will help my case.

Going back to my family is NOT an option for me, so this is nerve-wracking. I love my job and can't continue to work there if I can't keep living here, I need to remain here to study tattooing, and I have a deeply personal reason to stay in this city. This is a very stressful time for me.

Please keep in mind that I am fully supportive of my cousin's decision. While I don't know if it's the BEST idea, and it certainly puts a lot of pressure on me, I understand that she's got to do what she thinks is best for her. She likes her job here, but she doesn't really like the city, and she hated our hometown too, but they are getting a Sephora-Beauty and she wants to work there. It's not a result of any personal fallout between the two of us.

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Life is...strange. Everything in my life is so unsure at the moment. I don't know what's going to happen.

I don't want to post publicly online about one of the things that's going on in my life, because I'm not sure yet, and there is a very important person I need to talk to about it before I even think of saying anything (out of respect for his role in things). Those of you who've talked to me via note might know what I'm talking about.

Also, my cousin has "decided" (all of her decisions I have to put in quotes, because she has a tendency to change her mind a lot) to move back to her home town sometime relatively soon; which puts a bit of stain on ME, because I don't know if I will be allowed to continue renting without her(her parents were our guaranteers for the lease). I have a job, and I CAN pay the rent and bills without her, but I might have to re-pay the security deposit, and thanks to the very long time I spent being sick, I no longer have any savings. Of course, we haven't ONCE been late on rent, so I think that will help my case.

Going back to my family is NOT an option for me, so this is nerve-wracking. I love my job and can't continue to work there if I can't keep living here, I need to remain here to study tattooing, and I have a deeply personal reason to stay in this city. This is a very stressful time for me.

Please keep in mind that I am fully supportive of my cousin's decision. While I don't know if it's the BEST idea, and it certainly puts a lot of pressure on me, I understand that she's got to do what she thinks is best for her. She likes her job here, but she doesn't really like the city, and she hated our hometown too, but they are getting a Sephora-Beauty and she wants to work there. It's not a result of any personal fallout between the two of us.