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just a vent or smth idk :v

i feel useless and i'm always so bad to my friends. Despite the yelling. I told my feelings to one of my irl friends and he just ??? idk but i just feel like a bad friend and all i want to do is not hurt anyone....

i love my friends so much but hhh idk i'm so damn useless to them and i literally can't do anything but keep my mouth shut.
and another thing is:

I can't do any competitions because my art style changes/improves too quick and everytime i look back at my old work i just.. want to start again? I'm working really hard to earn money for my family from the compettion and show my family i'm not useless and make them proud but now.. i just want to give up or the time. I'm not persistent. I'm not going to have a good future if i keep acting like this.

I'm so dumb, my friends and family say so themselves. Is it the terrible things happening in life? Or is it just me? I'm not sure. And on my birthday, i didn't feel special at all. Despite i didn't get any gifts (apart from art but tysm guys) and whenever i say something i want to say my friends just ignore me? I just want to give up on life but i can't. And i never will.

sorry for the long message i just,,, '

Description
just a vent or smth idk :v

i feel useless and i'm always so bad to my friends. Despite the yelling. I told my feelings to one of my irl friends and he just ??? idk but i just feel like a bad friend and all i want to do is not hurt anyone....

i love my friends so much but hhh idk i'm so damn useless to them and i literally can't do anything but keep my mouth shut.
and another thing is:

I can't do any competitions because my art style changes/improves too quick and everytime i look back at my old work i just.. want to start again? I'm working really hard to earn money for my family from the compettion and show my family i'm not useless and make them proud but now.. i just want to give up or the time. I'm not persistent. I'm not going to have a good future if i keep acting like this.

I'm so dumb, my friends and family say so themselves. Is it the terrible things happening in life? Or is it just me? I'm not sure. And on my birthday, i didn't feel special at all. Despite i didn't get any gifts (apart from art but tysm guys) and whenever i say something i want to say my friends just ignore me? I just want to give up on life but i can't. And i never will.

sorry for the long message i just,,, '