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ScarsofVampires — I wonder
Published: 2011-10-03 02:30:22 +0000 UTC; Views: 107; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 2
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I wonder,I wonder what it would be like to be cared for.
What would it be like to be loved.
To have someone say I love you,
and really mean it.
I wonder what it would be like to have someone hold me while I cried.
To have some tell me I was going to be okay.
People hide behind fake caring.
They dont really care.
I wonder what it would be like to have a real friend.
Someone who actully liked to hang out with me.
Instead of doing it because they feel sorry for me.
Someone who I could trust.
I wonder what it would be like if I died.
Would people care?
They would probably not even notice.
That the sad little emo boy is gone.
Well, soon I wont wonder anymore.
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I know. I hate being lonely. ?Sometimes i just lay here and think if i will ever find a guy who's into me. for real.
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I feel the same way.
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gald to know someone else feels the same Ps big fan of the rich and the broken! Ryan reminds me of Adam. Spoiler to my plot line! Adam's dad is a big label designer and he can't ware t-shirts!
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Im' glad you like my story
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Yeah it's awesome! Also are you wearing guy-liner on your profile pic?
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That's cool! I can't cuz I go to school and get bullied for being "out." ~ Ryan
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yeah I can't wear make-up just cuz i'd get punded like Adam.
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oh dear... if you could wear make up would you?
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I wonder all these things too - but I know that eventually they will happen. If I was there, I would be your friend and hang out with you (if it wasn't really creepy seeing how I'm older o>o), and even though I can't BE there for you, I'm always here.
I would miss you - and even if they haven't said it, you don't feel it, or just have no idea - others would too. And they would notice. Trust me.
I CARE. Think *clearly* before you act, dear. And if anything, remember me. I AM here for you.
And in reading your comments - you better my life. I try to reach out and help people because I was there once. MCR helped me, and now I try and help people. I know what it was like, and the thoughts going through your head - and I also know that it isn't worth it. If I still felt I was completely alone in what I was feeling when I was suicidal, cutting, scratching, etc - I wouldn't be here. MCR showed me I wasn't alone and opened doors to me. Now I reach out and try to show others they aren't alone: And you're not. Even if it's JUST me, I AM HERE. READ MY TEXT! I AM HERE. If I didn't see there were others, and still didn't know there were others - who knows what I would do. You better my life and help me to keep my head on straight, and I can only hope that I do that for you too.
Sorry for reading your other comments btw... :/
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I dont care if you read them. Can you send me a note? I want to say something that I dont want everyone to read...
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Of course, I'll get right on that.
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Now, i could say something really deep. or i can just say this:
I care. no fake-ness here.
I am a real friend. and i hang out with you cause your awesome. nothing to do with feeling sorry for you. and someday mabey youll trust me lots
and i would be devastated if you died.
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Its not like I better your life by being alive thomas.
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you have no idea how much better you made today and yesterday.
imageine how bored i woulda been.
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oh I see, you hang around with me cause I'm the only thing you have to entertain you.
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NOOO ANDY!
you actully pretty cool, and funny.
btw my mom said she likes you 
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you can just ignore me... das cool.
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thats wonderful thomas. Listen, if we want to have a convo about this, I dont think it should be in the comment area where a bunch of people can read it. Call me on my cell, text me, or sent me a note over dA please.
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