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Dammit.  DAMMIT!  Oh, why can’t I figure this out!  If I tell him I want him to help me, I’d be depending on him, but if I just say, ok, and let it go, I’m being controlled.  WHY!  Why can’t I just be alone!  I’m really scared.
I want it to all go away, but I don’t know how, I want for everyone to be happy, but it has become increasingly obvious that that is impossible.  So, like always, I will allow myself to be the unhappy one.  I always do this, always!  I can’t believe that I’ve let them control me for so long, when I thought I was controlling myself.  I feel trapped.
No matter what I do, I’ll always depend on others, and others will depend on me.  I don’t want it!  Oh God, please take it all away!  I don’t want this!  I don’t want it!  Just let me go!
Your hypocricy makes me feel sick, but again, like a limp fish, I let you say it.  I let you win.  I hate myself when I do that.  But I still do it, because I depend on your happiness.  When ur unhappy, so am I.  when I’m unhappy, you’re happy, so I stay unhappy.  I let it happen for your sake, but I don’t want it anymore!  I’ve done it for so long, I’m tired.  I’m so very tired.

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Dammit.  DAMMIT!  Oh, why can’t I figure this out!  If I tell him I want him to help me, I’d be depending on him, but if I just say, ok, and let it go, I’m being controlled.  WHY!  Why can’t I just be alone!  I’m really scared.
I want it to all go away, but I don’t know how, I want for everyone to be happy, but it has become increasingly obvious that that is impossible.  So, like always, I will allow myself to be the unhappy one.  I always do this, always!  I can’t believe that I’ve let them control me for so long, when I thought I was controlling myself.  I feel trapped.
No matter what I do, I’ll always depend on others, and others will depend on me.  I don’t want it!  Oh God, please take it all away!  I don’t want this!  I don’t want it!  Just let me go!
Your hypocricy makes me feel sick, but again, like a limp fish, I let you say it.  I let you win.  I hate myself when I do that.  But I still do it, because I depend on your happiness.  When ur unhappy, so am I.  when I’m unhappy, you’re happy, so I stay unhappy.  I let it happen for your sake, but I don’t want it anymore!  I’ve done it for so long, I’m tired.  I’m so very tired.