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Published: 2022-06-14 02:27:33 +0000 UTC; Views: 6262; Favourites: 49; Downloads: 1
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Description Soooo, it's pride month and I've been meaning to come out one more time to you all.

About four years ago, when I was 18 I came out as a trans man here. To be honest at the time I still wasn't really sure that that's who I truly was. But it felt close to the truth.
After that there were two years of soul-searching and angst. I felt like I'm not fully a man but at the same time I didn't feel like a girl at all, just the thought was painful for me.
I judged myself for not having a "typical" trans man experience (aka always knowing that you are a boy or at least realizing it somewhere during the start of puberty) and for not feeling constant strong dysphoria. In fact my dysphoria usually was pretty weak on its own, when not provoked by my unsupportive parents. I thought that I only had two options: either I'm a "real" trans man or I'm a faker and cis girl.
With trials and error and a lot of support from my boyfriend I realized that I was non-binary. I finally accepted myself and since then I never again doubted my identity.
I realized that everyone feels gender in different way and that's okay, you don't have to fall under some made-up standards to be a real trans person. You don't have to have a strong dysphoria or have dysphoria at all. If you identify as gender different than assigned to you at birth, you are trans. Period. No one has a right to gate-keep someone and push them out of trans-spaces. I will always advocate for other trans people, no matter how different their experience is from mine. 

As for my pronounce I use they/he/it (they is most preferred). My identity feels fluid. I'm somewhere between a man and agender, sometimes more one than another. But "genderfluid" or "demiboy" doesn't click with me so I simply call myself nonbinary trans man or queer!

As for my other identities: I'm bi! I can be attracted to a person of any gender (tho currently I feel most comfortable with other transmask people because of shared experiences). And poly (not pictured here). I have two wonderful boyfriends who I love very much and we all live together ^^

Have a good day and remember that all trans people are beautiful   
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