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Good evening everyone (who actually reads the stuff I spew out),welcome to my year in Review. It is a but late seeing how I'm used to the morning bird schedule but with a night Owl mindset. I just woke up with a bit of an ache and needed some pain meds. I sat waiting for the meds to take effect when I realized that I am finally in a good (and polite) state of mind to start my review of 2014. Now, this is the uncut version of my review. My original is on FurAffinity. But, furries are furries and drama drama drama. I could totally see one person getting his panties in a twist.

Man, the Chinese was not kidding when they said that this year would not be a good year for me. Sadly, the lunar year is still going (leaving one more month for ObaMA to be assassinated, predicted by the Chinese). It has been an incredibly stressful year for me. I started out the year jobless. While I do admit that having a free schedule was nice, it does wear thin after awhile. So, I began my job search in February. I was turned down by my first choice and put on a bit of a run around trying to find out what happened. Talk about 2 weeks wasted! I was definitely discouraged after that. After that downer, I sat in the library and contemplated. I had heard from my old medical director that a vet I used to work with had opened up a new emergency clinic in town. I initially thought that it was a bad idea to work for him due to rumours of him running things with a bully tech. But, then, I noticed it was not just him opening up the clinic but also someone else
I used to work with, someone I enjoyed working with. So, I thought "Hey, it's worth an ask". I was called for an interview (with only 2 hours to get ready). The main boss met me, again. He had a vision intended for his new clinic that I was sceptical about. He wanted a family environment for the clinic. The staff will be like a second family and current family members treated as such. My thoughts were "hah! For an emergency clinic? As if" but the flexible schedule and familiar faces were attractive to me. So I pretty much got hired right away. Since then, I've met a lot of wonderful people. In fact, I was proven wrong, the family environment he wanted really did happen. I also got to do some pretty intense stuff.

Personal life though, took a nose dive soon after I got the job. I got stressed and buried myself deep into work. Things got so bad that I was less stressed at work than sitting in my car to go home. I mean, I guess these things happen when there's a gay guy going after your boyfriend.
I never actually took mental health very seriously before this year. In fact, I was that person that would say "pfft, whatever" and look at the person funny (probably in contempt. Now, I have more understanding. I see the Bell commercials currently playing and I appreciate the effort.
To describe what happened to my mind is difficult. I never went to a doctor because of the stigma attached to it. A certain event made my mind kind of fissure. The events through the day caused the fissure to get wider and both sides to twist a little. I attempted to close the fissure by working more. All I succeeded in doing was build a bridge between the two pieces. Eventually, I think my mind had enough.
The stress got really bad at some point in the year. I thought I could handle it on my own. I really couldn't. I have a lot of friends to thank for helping me that week.
The stress is gone from my life. I am so glad for it. So grateful for my friends for getting that asshole out of my life. Mind you, he got himself out. Hey, I get to laugh at the fact that he said to me "I'm not going to let you being a deadbeat ruin my con". Well, he nicely ruined his own con. Though, ironically, I have to thank an infant for that. Who knew a (temporarily) crying infant would save my weekend. I certainly didn't. But hey, payback's a bitch!
My lesson/advice: don't be me. Don't be the person that looks at mental health in contempt. 2 reasons, if you're the person making cracks such as "you need to toughen up" or "are you that wimpy you have to go to a therapist?" or as I heard many times "This is why I don't deal with women". I sure as heck ain't coming to you if I'm suicidal. 2nd, it kinda sucks becoming someone you once looked in contempt. Yup, totally sucks.

The rest of the year went well. I still had to work a ton but the weight was gone. It was noticeable right away, even to my boss. I bonded with my coworkers through nights out about once a month. My boyfriend made his decision, which it a weight off my shoulders. I'm glad he chose me. And I'm just glad to be rid of the wrench in my gears...Kind of. Gay Guy didn't let him live it down easily. He blamed my guy for having the infant in the room (essentially ruining his con). Gay Guy is also still pissed at me for "my accusation". Well, honestly, if you ask me, if you respond to my question of "is there something going on between you and my boyfriend?" with a freak out going down to calling me "deadbeat" and saying "don't be a bitch and have a drink" and essentially asshattery all around the message, there's something going on in your mind between you two. And seeing how when asked for some belongings back you say "I don't want to come between you two again", kinda sounds a tad sketch. But hey, I'm a woman, I'm supposed to be paranoid. But if there is one thing that I want to say, it's "Continuing eating dick and just leave us alone".

Ok...um...that's rant paragraph done. Boy, that's a little embarrassing but it needed to go somewhere...In other news, things right now are cold. It's too cold to go outside. Just gonna finish some WoWing. the new expansion has been great. It's my first expansion which I was there since the beginning. That so does not mean I'd be a top player. More or less, I'd be a midlevel player if that. I prefer to play the game almost casually.

So, that's been my year. I look forward to 2015 only to get rid of 2014!