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Stray-Sketches In reply to BlueLumi [2012-03-19 19:55:05 +0000 UTC]

vent art is definitely a wonderful outlet. Usually I write in a journal, but sometimes I feel the only way to get my emotions out quick and clear enough to just to draw them.

When it comes to my conscious, it's not usually about telling myself to do something, it's usually building up the initiative to start doing it. Usually, when I start on something (and I mean really start it, not BS it), then I tend to get things done fast and efficiently, but a lot of times I just feel so down or self-conscious or emotionally weak to do so. I like to get things done, because I find when I wait, I just become more nervous and hesitant(and this goes for all aspects of my life--social, work ethic, art, etc.). I, too, sometimes write stuff down to get myself motivated, and a lot of times it does help, but the best remedy for me is the kind I fear the most--to speak out. Art and writing gets my feelings and ideas out, but they're the forms of expression that I know I can do comfortably and well, speaking out is definitely something I have to work on, mostly in terms of standing up for myself.
In my mind, I'm a very emotionally strong person, but when my emotional strength is put to the test I often find myself staying quiet. Well, practice makes perfect, and every time I do speak out it helps me be more open about my feelings in regards to others, so I guess I just need to keep working at it.


As for the snarling face, I've actually been trying to draw that face for years, but I think the emotional struggle behind it helped it finally come out the way I wanted.

Fortunately, I don't get teased as blatantly nowadays, but it is sometimes very frustrating to have to figure out who I can trust and who I can't among my current peers; some while immediately judge me, some are just shy or misunderstood and others just aren't people I want to keep company with; even though I've been in school for a few months, it's still pretty difficult for me to figure out who I really want to be around and vice versa. I think I'll feel much more comfortable next semester, since I'll be taking more art classes, which should give me and some of my peers something to relate to.

Thank you for your kind words and support, Lumi; things usually look better as more stuff gets done.

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BlueLumi In reply to Stray-Sketches [2012-03-20 16:19:48 +0000 UTC]

That is also understandable, I also have that issue of "starting out" with anything seems to give me the most difficult time. Speaking out can be a powerful way for you to effectively get your feelings out. If you seem to have an issue with properly speaking what's on your mind, I can suggest a speech class. I was quite hesitant when I took this class, but as it turned out it actually helped make me become a much better speaker, whether giving a presentation or a pep talk for a friend.

I'm proud of you to know that you're a strong person emotionally, how easy it is to fall into this wallowing hole of self pity and depression. To know that you don't want to feel like that forever and fighting to keep yourself up is a very strong person in my eyes.

Funny how when one feels a certain emotion strongly enough, it helps with getting a certain feeling in a drawing across. I remember whenever I tried to draw Lumi snarling but she always ended up looking "cute" but my most recent drawing of her being angry finally looks angry haha.

I find it stupid how people freak out about others who act "different". But in terms of judging, I think that we are all guilty of doing it though a lot of times we aren't aware of us doing it. I like how at the very least you're trying to find people to be in company with, the issue with me is in my college everyone keeps to themselves. Pretty sad :/

And you're welcome~ I am sure everything will get better if you push yourself forward

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Stray-Sketches In reply to BlueLumi [2012-03-20 17:14:21 +0000 UTC]

Actually, I'm currently taking a speech class, even though we've only had 2 speeches so far
It definitely helps me speak out a bit more, and I noticed an major improvement in my ability to stand in front of others for my second speech in comparison to my first.

Thank you; I try to think of myself as an emotionally strong individual, even if it doesn't always blatantly show. Even though I have times when I doubt myself, I figure regards of how I'm treated by others, I shouldn't put myself down all the time.

My emotions definitely play a major part in how my drawings come out. My mood usually determines how much effort I put into a drawing, how detailed it is and what the expressions are. Usually, the strong the emotion the better the drawing (this goes for any emotion).
In terms of trying to make "cute" look "angry," usually I try to think of everything from that character that makes it cute and I sharpen it, make it menacing somehow--usually delicate curves of the body become crooked and large pupils become small dots, stuff like that. :3

Indeed, like most human beings, I can be a complete hypocrite. I know for a fact I judge others sometimes--that's one of the reasons why I'm such a guarded person, but at least I learn to be more open as time goes on.
My college is pretty much the opposite; very few keep to themselves, instead a lot of people get in each other's business very quickly. That works for some people, but I don't open up immediately, so a lot of people often wonder why I seems so reserved; like I said, though, usually when I find a common ground with people (whether through morals, interests or anything of the like) I'm not as distance.

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BlueLumi In reply to Stray-Sketches [2012-03-20 17:31:40 +0000 UTC]

Haha, that's great to hear! That class really does help n.n

You're welcome, I have that struggle as well. But that's okay, we're only human. Just keep doing your thing and you'll succeed in your own way

I had the issue of making something look menacing because I had been accustomed for my drawings to look cute in general. I do thank you for the tips, I will keep that in mind for sure n.n

Oh wow that is quite a difference in terms of our colleges lol. I'm sure you'll be able to find people who are on the same common ground as you. Shame I don't go to your college, I would have like to be able to help break the ice with you haha. X3

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Stray-Sketches In reply to BlueLumi [2012-03-21 01:17:51 +0000 UTC]

Yep, I'm just trying to take things as they come. :3
Even though I've been here for awhile now, it's still an adjustment sometimes.
lol if you came to my college it would definitely be an interesting experience; there are some pretty bouncy people around here. X3

Glad I could be of assistance in terms of the drawing. Good luck with those.

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Stray-Sketches In reply to feline927 [2012-03-18 16:50:57 +0000 UTC]

nope, same old Fi, though she has slightly new markings and I got rid of the 3 hairs

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feline927 In reply to Stray-Sketches [2012-03-18 23:29:27 +0000 UTC]

right ^^ cool

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