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As some of you may have known....my little yorkie-poo was acting strange.........we took her to the vet...
and got the worst possible news.....
there was a fist sized cancerous tumor in her belly....it was not allowing her to keep anything down.....
Yesterday i sat around her,hoping the doctor would be able to help her today....
the doctor's mom died and he wasn't able to come....
Sarah was to weak to stand.....
She was vomiting up her own shit,she was all backed up
....and dieing.....
She hadn't eaten in days.....
my mom tried feeding her yogert with a little spoon
......*sniff*
but today....at 10:42 we made our decision at the vet....
we had to put her out of her misery
she could barely lift her little head.....
Me,my brother,my Maltese Max,my dad and my mother kissed her goodbye
11:35: my parents walk out with the little blanket she was being held in......Max was completely lost without her and was looking for her.......
My dad had told me the tumor had turned her belly completely purple.....
Please understand if i take a few days to myself......i'm not going to work on anything....i just need to adjust......and maybe a hug would help to
Mange(c) Me
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The-Gij In reply to ??? [2010-12-23 00:53:32 +0000 UTC]
....um....well as many people don't know....
I'm 16 .__. *long awkward pause*
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 13:14:08 +0000 UTC]
Nothing wrong with that.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 13:19:24 +0000 UTC]
...eh sort of....
to young to really move out but my dad won't stop trying to force me out
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 13:23:11 +0000 UTC]
It's not too young if you had somewhere to go. If your parents force you out, you can either claim abandonment and neglect, or just, move. Honestly, they can't really make you get out until you are at least 18.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 13:28:58 +0000 UTC]
true,but i wouldn't have anyone to move in with plus my mom has had enough bad things happen to her
......................
...and yet i see no one bothering my brother.....he's 18 and does nothing but lay around the house
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 13:31:36 +0000 UTC]
I guess it's with most families. There is always a favorite. Perhaps your brother is the favorite. My younger sister is the favorite in my family.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 13:33:52 +0000 UTC]
I know for a fact he is.....
:< one night my family took me out to this restaurant and my dad got drunk and blurted out how he hated "my little emo ass" and then proceeded to tell me how i was suppose to be a boy
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 13:52:35 +0000 UTC]
My dad said the same thing to me, so I know how you feel. He resented me for not being a boy. "you were supposed to be a boy. that's what i wanted, and you fucked that up for me. you were a mistake."
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 13:55:28 +0000 UTC]
Yeah pretty much.....*sigh*
lemme guess,he drinks too?
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 13:57:14 +0000 UTC]
He used to. I don't really talk to him anymore. He was a big substance abuser. Drank, popped pills, smoked weed. That's why I'm anti-drug now. I'll drink occasionally, but I will never ever become an alcoholic.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:04:27 +0000 UTC]
Gawd that's my dad to a tee....
and he's the violent drunk type too O__o
I'm never going to end up as pathetic as him
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:09:07 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, my dad was violent for sure. He had some major issues. I once had to pee when I was 8, and he'd told us to go to bed but I couldn't hold it. So I got up to go, and as I was coming back out to go back into my room he grabbed me by the arm and yelled at me, shook me, then slung me against the kitchen wall. I was coughing blood for about a week, but the doctors said I'd be fine, that it just jarred my insides. They told them I had fallen or some shit. My mom was too scared to say anything else, and being that small, so was I.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:12:30 +0000 UTC]
Mmmm.....
my dad once came into my room when i was much younger and he attempted to crush my skull by pressing down on my face....naturally as a little kid i had no idea what was going on until the pain set in....luckily my mom was there and kicked him in the nuts to "save" me
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:16:13 +0000 UTC]
My dad never got that bad, but he was violent. I'd never have put it bast him if he'd gotten strung enough. Sounds like we both have some past trauma. Yours hasn't ended yet, but it will. Until then, I'm here for you if you need a vent. I understand where you are coming from for sure, because I've been there. It's hard to get past, but if you have enough peer support, you can do it. You seem very strong spirited, even despite situations.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:19:53 +0000 UTC]
<:3 aw thanks...personally i think I'm going nutty....
I only say this because i've been keeping a dead lizard in my room (he's in a jar full of alcohol) ...and the comics i write for -real life- are....um
..............strange
(to say the least)
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:23:02 +0000 UTC]
No worse than the things I've collected. I had a dead bird for a while, and I wanted to see how decomposition looked. So I kept it until it was nothing but bones, bits of skin, and crusty feathers. Kept him in a shoe box. That's probably the oddest moment. I collect a lot of useless things though. Or what others would consider useless. Feathers, bits of string, can tabs from sodas and energy drinks... I'm a bit of a pack rat. I don't really write as much as I used to, my imagination has pretty much flooded from me, and is running on empty.
Do you have AIM or anything of the sort? I'd love to add you to a messenger.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:32:20 +0000 UTC]
My mom freaked when she found i had a dead snake in my room lol
....yeah...I'm a bit of a packrat myself...i normally pick up rusty metal on the side of the road,i keep little bits of everything...normally i can use it....
hell,in the picture with my axe i have up here you can see my empty doom juice cans X3
well i only have a hotmail.... .__.
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:36:34 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, I'm really crafty, so I have bits of everything. especially if I feel I can use it later. I made Christmas ornaments out of soda cans once. soda bottles and milk jugs generally become flower pots. I usually cover them in paint, and paint little pictures on them, like pictures of flowers or watering cans. Generally the name of the flower also. So I know what is what. I used to grow cooking herbs like that.
Hotmail is fine. I have everything. By hotmail you mean MSN right?
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:39:23 +0000 UTC]
Ah lawl i can't cook whatsoever >XD
......well i did start a little pet project in my room....i have a little bit of bamboo growing without soil
Yeah....I'll note it to you so creepers don't email me....(i have enough stalkers)
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:43:37 +0000 UTC]
I love growing things. Sometimes I used them for cooking, sometimes I used them for... spells... Yeah. I'm kind of a pagan to some aspects. I was Wiccan there for a while, but now I'm non-practicing, thanks to my family. I'm not allowed to express my religion freely around here.
Understandable. I'm probably going to remove my IMs from my page, what with all the drama lately.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 14:51:20 +0000 UTC]
Mmmm i understand...i have both wiccan and a pagan friends
.......personally i really don't have a religion....my parents shoved Christianity down my throat like there was no tomorrow
....not to mention my life has left me really lacking on the whole 'God' idea.......when your life is so bad you just lose faith in a 'good' force.....:/
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 14:56:39 +0000 UTC]
That's how I feel any more, to be honest. It seems like everything I love leaves me at one point or another. Family, friends, boyfriends. I just can't keep one good thing in my life. Hope that will change eventually, for now all I can do is be here for myself. Try to keep myself built up. It's really hard to do so. My family shoved Christianity down my throat too. Probably why I push that out all together.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 17:31:36 +0000 UTC]
*shrug* meh,i really think the idea of some big beings controlling your fate is just as creepy ad Moose from Jthm...
I'd rather not think about a devil and God and live my life a little less stress free....
plus it saves me the hassle of coming up with my own beliefs as far as the 'afterlife' goes
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 19:49:18 +0000 UTC]
I pretty much live life to the best of my abilities. I throw caution to the wind a lot, and take risks when I find it to be worth it. I just into things headstrong more or less.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 19:55:16 +0000 UTC]
o3o well yeah...for life I'm willing to take risks but i don't like to worry about religion...hell it's killed more people than any war
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 20:04:02 +0000 UTC]
Yeah it did. I just, practice all sorts of different things. More than any god, I think mostly I believe the world controls shit. Like, survival of the fittest. If a creature gets too out of hand, it will be controlled by earth. earth has been around longer than any organism on it. We can't kill our planet, but it can kill us.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 20:06:44 +0000 UTC]
:/ Mmmmm....true.....
*thinks of all the ways a person could die*......
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 20:11:17 +0000 UTC]
I watch that show a thousand ways to die. Ever see it? It's very amusing.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 21:36:06 +0000 UTC]
Ah yeah >XD
i love that show....even though i rarely watch tv...
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 21:49:22 +0000 UTC]
Same here. The only thing I really actively watch is The Walking Dead.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-23 21:57:26 +0000 UTC]
:3 well that's a good show....really good writing
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-23 22:01:29 +0000 UTC]
I agree. It's probably my favorite thing on TV right now.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-24 00:15:18 +0000 UTC]
:/
*shrugs* but I'm not really fond of tv.....though....i was thinking about watching that thing about monkey brains they had on the travel channel >XD
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Nightshade28681 In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-24 18:46:19 +0000 UTC]
XD I never saw that. Did you know some people eat money brains? Eeeeewww.
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The-Gij In reply to Nightshade28681 [2010-12-24 20:55:34 +0000 UTC]
Yeah and they cut their head open while they're still alive >XD
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The-Gij In reply to musicalartpunk [2010-12-20 21:41:10 +0000 UTC]
*sniff,snuggle huggle*
musicalartpunk In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-20 21:56:28 +0000 UTC]
Precious bb come to my bosom :C *hugcuddle*
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musicalartpunk In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-20 22:03:36 +0000 UTC]
I'm on Tumblr and its infecting my speech patterns don't mind me
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The-Gij In reply to musicalartpunk [2010-12-20 23:56:01 +0000 UTC]
I'll post a little "in memory of..." edited photo of her tomorrow
The-Gij In reply to musicalartpunk [2010-12-21 13:58:33 +0000 UTC]
<:c i know...this is especially hard on my mom....take Sao's word for it...they talked on the phone last night
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Eruisar In reply to ??? [2010-12-20 21:38:04 +0000 UTC]
Aww.... I'm sorry Gij... I hope you feel better soon... at least she's not hurting anymore...
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The-Gij In reply to Eruisar [2010-12-20 21:41:56 +0000 UTC]
Yeah.....it was just tourcher to watch.....
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Eruisar In reply to The-Gij [2010-12-20 21:45:50 +0000 UTC]
*huggles back* I know... at least it's over now though...
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