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Published: 2015-08-24 21:58:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 1296; Favourites: 200; Downloads: 2
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Wow I don't even know what to say about this, but it's just something I can't express in words and am really ashamed of.I've always been at a battle with depression, when I started expressing it when I was younger I was told not to say anything about it because nobody would love someone who was always sad, and I should just 'be happy' and 'put on a smile'. I've learned slowly that it's okay to talk to people but still struggle, even now it's really hard to talk about, but I just don't want to feel like I need to hide it, since nobody should need to silently suffer. And I'm really sick of seeing so many people like me just hold it in because they're afraid of being left behind because of it. And a lot of time, these kind of things make me jump to conclusions and will incite a littler anger and I'll lash out and people, and I'm really sorry for all the people I've hurt and all those I'm prone to hurt in the future.
But I'm happy to say that the worst part is over, and I'm starting to heal. And I really thank everyone for sticking with me, it means a lot ;w;
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Amazing work. This is kind of what it felt like when I got my tattoos to help with my self harming
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//dies
thIS IS SO
I DON'T KNOW
MY FEELS??????
I connect with this on a level I can't express Q_Q I'm glad you're healing!
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Mah boi (all the Zelda references), I used to cut. It was...yeesh. Bad.
If I remember correctly, 27 or 25 cuts on my left arm. Only 3 kelloid scars left. For me, physical pain was the only escape for my nightmare-ish reality. My parents were physically abusive when I was little, and they're emotionally abusive now, which is THE WORST time when a teen is goof through many phases. My dad found out when I fell and my sweater sleeve dropped and my mom found out indescreetly. I remember one day as the worst.
One day my mother just lashed out at me (mood swings...she's old) for nothing, saying that my sister will always do better. And that I will never be better. I mean, I got that for a while, so I took it as a joke, hid my anger. Then I woke up in the middle of the night, grabbed a pocket knife, and just thought.
"I DON'T. CARE. ANYMORE."
I remember I went into an uncontrollable rage on a soccer practice (I know, an Asian playing soccer? Amazing!). I scared all my teammates there and the coach had to pull me out and talk to me. I only remember bull-running at people and punching the goalpost until my knuckles were sore and bruised.
Now? I'm fine. I keep to myself. I laugh at the jokes about me. They're actually really funny. But of course, there's that offended side. But I bury it. My anger level is naturally capped at the boiling point. So many people can tell when I start to lose control. But I keep it in. I mean, my fake smile kept me here for over 6 years, so...ha! Fuuuck you, depression! No shits were given. Sure, I punch the occasional tree or chase birds every now and then, but, at least I'm content.
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This is so beutiful and sad at the same time and I see what you were gettin at. Lovely piece of work.
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Really touching piece. I'm sorry you had to suffer like that but I'm glad you are using your art (which is beautiful) to speak out and let others know it's okay to talk, and be heard, be sad, etc. It takes a lot to do these things. With that being said great work and many blessing to you.
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Well if you need anyone to talk to I'm here. I'm currently fighting some feelings that I guess I would rather not feel.. but I know I have them for a reason.
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Awe sugar. There will always be someone that is willing to listen. X3 this peice is also very cool. X3
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Im so fucking proud of u right now i dont even know what to say <3
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I was formerly depressed as well. I'm glad you're starting to feel better. Depression is a terrible thing.. Though we do learn to be stronger from it. I love your art, I'm sorry this is short, but I really do appreciate you, your art, and everything you do.
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good luck with you're healing. You really deserve it.
Though if you feel your self slipping again, a friendly tip: Fake blood and plastic knives can work wonders.
Though it's not as good as just putting your emotion into your art obviously.
-mun frost
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Unrelated question how can you draw and I cant ;-;
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I've got depression as well.
And this is beautiful.
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im so proud of the progress you've made and are making bro 
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woaoh.....the universe...the deeply universe....o.o....
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doqhouses
This is amazing c: and I thought of you
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No words can express how moving this is. It's beautiful- truly. It's amazing- and it's great for you too! The point of overcoming, that's awesome. ^-^
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