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Sugar Rush
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It felt stange, being back on the rock scene after being away from it for so long.  The Sugarmill hadn't changed, still packed to the brim, still had mould creeping up the walls underneath the thin purple voile, still had that familiar scent of cigarette ash and beer hanging in the air.

This time I wasn't returning with the normal crowd, this time we had fresh blood.  It was cool though, I'd know Sam for years and it was good to see that she was following in Sonia's (her sister's) footsteps and becoming a hardcore rocker like us. Me and Sonia were acting as guardians for the night, just to make sure that her leap into the mill remained tainted with some innocence.

We arrived and found our spots, Sam with her gothic friends and us old un's by the side with a RedBull and Vodka and a Larger.  As the venue started to fill up and more kids started entering the room, the atmosphere started to change.  It seemed to go from quiet and reserved to noisy and rebellious.  Everyone in here seemed eager to prove a point, mentally and physically and the very smell of teenage angst befelled the room like a thick, dense fog.

Chris was just in time for the gig, having him there as well as Sonia made our group feel like a group and not like two students who were going along for the ride.  We looked like we belonged again.  Upon realising this a small smile curled the edges of my mouth up slightly, I was home.

I’ve seen the signs of why we frayed, The torment of your lies decayed,
The things intended yesterday, Have changed and now have passed away..
Instead of drowning life away, To quench the burn of hate

Balance of Silence roared in our ears and filled our spirits with a funny kind of love-to-hate feeling that sedimented in the pits our stomachs.  The crowd instantly started to go into a wild frenzy and was as if the whole floor was jumping.  Then a space started to clear in the centre and all movement became that little bit more jerky.  The moshing had began.

I held onto my life, made it through,
Begged for a difference, got rid of you,
Now this time, this is mine,
Suspension of the life denied

I looked at the pit and scanned the crowd for Sam, she wasn't quite ready for a mosh yet.  My eyes locked her on the edge of the pit her red-haired head been thrown up and down to the beat.  I pulled my gaze away to see the band change from green, to purple, to blue under the glare of the stage lights.  A beast inside my stomach started to jump up and down, thudding its rubber feet on my insides, yet still I remained just bobbing my head sighty.

We’ve seen ourselves from where we lay, The hate within begins to fade
I know that I have been afraid, but seeing you degrades!

It started to jump higher and land harder, pushing, constantly pushing.  My blue orbs looked down at the pit and damn did it look violent.  Black blurs went round in never-ending circles pushing any obsticle in their way.  People fell to the floor and staggered around after being hit around the face and head.  It was getting bad out there.  My orb then floated to where Sam was standing.  I was just in time, just in time to see her thrown into the pit.

Now..

I jumped over to the pit and wrestled my way into it.  My head turned in each and every direction trying to find her and do it quick!

Now, you’re wasted away, Degraded, All that is left of you is me,
Kicking yourself, Bleeding me, Looking back now I’m sure you see..

I found her being tossed from every angle like some kinda of fragile china doll.  I made my way across sustaining several blows on the way and took hold of her arm.  My biceps flexed as I charged her to the edge of the pit.  She landed safely on the people behind her and bouched off them like they safety nets.  Whereas I was hit by an elbow on the top of my head sending me straight back in.

Born again I am set free, enhancing all my world through peace,
Thinking now but can’t agree, the challenge of you mentally,
We’ve seen ourselves from where we lay, The hate within begins to fade

My heart raced and eyes widened.  Panic's iron claw gripped at me turning my blood into molten steel and rusting my joints.  A body collided with my ribs, bruising them I suspected.  I was being pushed in the same direction as the crowd and started to follow their fast-paced, monotonous circle.

Released from chains that you create, Dependence on a life remained,
I see this and I realise, The good I gave I now despise!

I went with flow, hot sweat pouring from my forhead and rushed breaths escaping my mouth.  I'd caught the current and was riding it, like a surfer riding a wave and I fucking loved it.  I loosened up and adrenaline was set loose and pumped into each and every vein in my body and even ran, pulsing, through my very soul.  My sweat-lined hair fell across my eyes and stung them, terribly, but I didnt care, I felt free.  The music was around me, inside me and under me all at the same time.  I was truely alive.

I held onto my life, made it through,
Begged for the difference, got rid of you,
Now this time, this is mine,
Suspension of the life denied…

For a split second the room was quiet but soon the roar of the crowd changed that.  Balence of Silence had finished their first song.  I looked down at the collar of my shirt as I walked towards the edge of the pit.  It was the first time Id noticed it had gotten ripped in there.

I returned somehow triumphantly to my friends, and with a huge grin spread across my face.  Sam was also there.  Sonia grabbed my ripped collar.  "Looks like you had fun then", she smirked at me and looked somehow proud that I'd had my first mosh.

For the rest of the night I stayed on the outside re-telling my experience to anybody who'd listen while the band played on giving my tale an awesome backing soundtrack.  Then finally the bands and the fans were played out and we left with ringing ears and rock in our hearts, minds and souls.

I learned a few things that night.  Live life on the edge even when it smacks you in the head, smell the angst and use it, be part of it and finally, live to rock!

Description
Sugar Rush
-----------------------------
It felt stange, being back on the rock scene after being away from it for so long.  The Sugarmill hadn't changed, still packed to the brim, still had mould creeping up the walls underneath the thin purple voile, still had that familiar scent of cigarette ash and beer hanging in the air.

This time I wasn't returning with the normal crowd, this time we had fresh blood.  It was cool though, I'd know Sam for years and it was good to see that she was following in Sonia's (her sister's) footsteps and becoming a hardcore rocker like us. Me and Sonia were acting as guardians for the night, just to make sure that her leap into the mill remained tainted with some innocence.

We arrived and found our spots, Sam with her gothic friends and us old un's by the side with a RedBull and Vodka and a Larger.  As the venue started to fill up and more kids started entering the room, the atmosphere started to change.  It seemed to go from quiet and reserved to noisy and rebellious.  Everyone in here seemed eager to prove a point, mentally and physically and the very smell of teenage angst befelled the room like a thick, dense fog.

Chris was just in time for the gig, having him there as well as Sonia made our group feel like a group and not like two students who were going along for the ride.  We looked like we belonged again.  Upon realising this a small smile curled the edges of my mouth up slightly, I was home.

I’ve seen the signs of why we frayed, The torment of your lies decayed,
The things intended yesterday, Have changed and now have passed away..
Instead of drowning life away, To quench the burn of hate

Balance of Silence roared in our ears and filled our spirits with a funny kind of love-to-hate feeling that sedimented in the pits our stomachs.  The crowd instantly started to go into a wild frenzy and was as if the whole floor was jumping.  Then a space started to clear in the centre and all movement became that little bit more jerky.  The moshing had began.

I held onto my life, made it through,
Begged for a difference, got rid of you,
Now this time, this is mine,
Suspension of the life denied

I looked at the pit and scanned the crowd for Sam, she wasn't quite ready for a mosh yet.  My eyes locked her on the edge of the pit her red-haired head been thrown up and down to the beat.  I pulled my gaze away to see the band change from green, to purple, to blue under the glare of the stage lights.  A beast inside my stomach started to jump up and down, thudding its rubber feet on my insides, yet still I remained just bobbing my head sighty.

We’ve seen ourselves from where we lay, The hate within begins to fade
I know that I have been afraid, but seeing you degrades!

It started to jump higher and land harder, pushing, constantly pushing.  My blue orbs looked down at the pit and damn did it look violent.  Black blurs went round in never-ending circles pushing any obsticle in their way.  People fell to the floor and staggered around after being hit around the face and head.  It was getting bad out there.  My orb then floated to where Sam was standing.  I was just in time, just in time to see her thrown into the pit.

Now..

I jumped over to the pit and wrestled my way into it.  My head turned in each and every direction trying to find her and do it quick!

Now, you’re wasted away, Degraded, All that is left of you is me,
Kicking yourself, Bleeding me, Looking back now I’m sure you see..

I found her being tossed from every angle like some kinda of fragile china doll.  I made my way across sustaining several blows on the way and took hold of her arm.  My biceps flexed as I charged her to the edge of the pit.  She landed safely on the people behind her and bouched off them like they safety nets.  Whereas I was hit by an elbow on the top of my head sending me straight back in.

Born again I am set free, enhancing all my world through peace,
Thinking now but can’t agree, the challenge of you mentally,
We’ve seen ourselves from where we lay, The hate within begins to fade

My heart raced and eyes widened.  Panic's iron claw gripped at me turning my blood into molten steel and rusting my joints.  A body collided with my ribs, bruising them I suspected.  I was being pushed in the same direction as the crowd and started to follow their fast-paced, monotonous circle.

Released from chains that you create, Dependence on a life remained,
I see this and I realise, The good I gave I now despise!

I went with flow, hot sweat pouring from my forhead and rushed breaths escaping my mouth.  I'd caught the current and was riding it, like a surfer riding a wave and I fucking loved it.  I loosened up and adrenaline was set loose and pumped into each and every vein in my body and even ran, pulsing, through my very soul.  My sweat-lined hair fell across my eyes and stung them, terribly, but I didnt care, I felt free.  The music was around me, inside me and under me all at the same time.  I was truely alive.

I held onto my life, made it through,
Begged for the difference, got rid of you,
Now this time, this is mine,
Suspension of the life denied…

For a split second the room was quiet but soon the roar of the crowd changed that.  Balence of Silence had finished their first song.  I looked down at the collar of my shirt as I walked towards the edge of the pit.  It was the first time Id noticed it had gotten ripped in there.

I returned somehow triumphantly to my friends, and with a huge grin spread across my face.  Sam was also there.  Sonia grabbed my ripped collar.  "Looks like you had fun then", she smirked at me and looked somehow proud that I'd had my first mosh.

For the rest of the night I stayed on the outside re-telling my experience to anybody who'd listen while the band played on giving my tale an awesome backing soundtrack.  Then finally the bands and the fans were played out and we left with ringing ears and rock in our hearts, minds and souls.

I learned a few things that night.  Live life on the edge even when it smacks you in the head, smell the angst and use it, be part of it and finally, live to rock!