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Published: 2019-03-16 18:37:18 +0000 UTC; Views: 332; Favourites: 12; Downloads: 0
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The call asks who you are, not expecting an answer.  Is there even one anymore?

"Who are you?" a voice calls out. The fawn-coloured young cat known as Aloepaw looks around frantically, searching for a body the voice belonged to. But there is no one there but herself. She is completely alone. And lost. All Aloepaw can see is gold. An endless stream of gold. Gold. Gold. Gold.
"SOMEONE HELP ME" the apprentice screams out. "I'm scared," she sobs. "Somebody... Anybody... Please... Help..." Her desperate cries of help in vain, tears start streaming down her cheeks. She feels completely and utterly helpless.
Who are you?" the question still rings in Aloepaw's ears. Who am I? Aloepaw thinks to herself. She is barely a seeker. Let alone, an apprentice. For months, Aloepaw had barely done anything to define herself. She had deliberately shunned herself from the rest Safe Haven after the battle on Babylon. Who am I? Her months in isolation made the question even harder to answer. Why had she done it? Why had she built this wall between herself and the ones she loved? Her friends... Her old mentor, Fallowsparks... She had even neglected her own mother. How could she have done it? How did things get this bad? Now she has no one. No one she can go to. No one she can depend on to save her. She can't even save herself.
Is she going to be lost forever? Forever surrounded in gold. Forever on her own. "I deserve it," Aloepaw mutters. This was all her fault. If it had not been for her negligence, this would not have happened. She could be fighting with the rest. Fighting to protect Safe Haven - her home. She has done so little for Safe Haven. Can she even still call it her home?
"Who are you?" the voice asks again. This time louder. "I-I don't know..." the apprentice answers, her voice soft and unsure. The lump in her throat growing bigger, she screams "I don't know!" A series of sobs escape her throat, one after another. The tears will not stop. I'm going to die here, Aloepaw realizes. The pain in her chest grows heavier. No one is coming to save her. This is it. Having done nothing with her life, she is going to die alone. And it will be the most insignificant death Safe Haven has ever encountered. A measly seeker apprentice found dead in liquid gold. Her accomplishments; zero. Her friends; zero. Cats that cared about her; zero. She is and will always be nothing.
"WHO AM I, YOU ASK?" Aloepaw screams into the oblivion. "I'M NOTHING!" she screams louder even though she knew no one could hear her. "YOU HEAR THAT STUPID GOLD WATER?! I'M NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!" She starts laughing maniacally.
"WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE, GO AHEAD AND KILL ME. DROWN ME IN THIS STUPID GOLD LIQUID! YOU'LL CHANGE NOTHING! BECAUSE NO ONE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ME!" She cries and her knees finally give way beneath her and she falls onto the gold-covered ground. Now that she was lying on the ground, she finally notices her reflection in the gold liquid. "I look pathetic," the apprentice thinks out loud. Aloepaw did not know a cat could look so pitiful. I hate myself, she sighs. "I'm no one," she announces to herself before closing her eyes. Tired of the situation and herself, Aloepaw drifts...

(555 words, 3119 characters)

 So ummm... I guess Aloe's cursing now. I had a headcanon that Aloe only curses when she's really really angry or frustrated. And in this situation, it's both. My writing sucks, I know. I haven't written or read a proper book in forever. I tried going for like writing in present tense kinda thing like some writers do but sometimes it comes off as sounding a bit weird. Buuut I've already written so much when I realized so I just went with it. There might be parts where I accidentally shifted to past tense but whatever. Anyways, let me know whether this submission is acceptable or not. I have a feeling that something's off about my writing but it's 2AM right now and I can't think.
This piece of writing was kinda personal to me in some way. I'm sure a lot of people have felt the way Aloe's feeling; insignificant and unloved. I want to tell you that that's all untrue. There are always people who care about you and love you. You may not feel that way but you ARE important. No one is ever insignificant. Everyone plays a role in the world, whether it be someone's family, friend, lover, enemy or your pet's loving owner or just someone who really cares. You're all important to something and someone. That probably made zero sense but like you get the point.

Also, drawing liquid gold is hard >n<

Character & Art is mine
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Comments: 8

saloony78 [2019-03-26 09:51:11 +0000 UTC]

YOURE EXPERIMENTING ANGLES BUCK URE SO AMAZING 

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CaveatLector52 [2019-03-19 19:32:47 +0000 UTC]

I love Aloe's expression, the poor baby just looks so tired and helpless and I just want to give her a hug! 

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Bay-fire In reply to CaveatLector52 [2019-03-21 03:38:43 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! I'm glad you like it.
Yeah, poor Aloe could use a hug :c

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TheGreatCattacoon [2019-03-18 02:44:48 +0000 UTC]

dude, this drawing is awesome! I really dig the angle you drew her at, it looks so good!

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Bay-fire In reply to TheGreatCattacoon [2019-03-18 05:55:24 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! I'm actually really proud of it.

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Kidariko [2019-03-16 20:01:37 +0000 UTC]

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Bay-fire In reply to Kidariko [2019-03-17 04:39:07 +0000 UTC]

Thank youuu >u<

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Riveriia [2019-03-16 19:56:26 +0000 UTC]

You are nothing.  You are nothing.  You are nothing.  

You drift, and when you wake, you have taken one step forward from nothing.

Objective: Return, Aloepaw! is now 1/8

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