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CloudNumber8 — I'm Really Not Okay
Published: 2012-06-06 21:33:42 +0000 UTC; Views: 18077; Favourites: 991; Downloads: 259
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Description When I whisper of my woes
How can anyone hear
When the din of their own lives
Is ringing in their ears

Forcing a smile as they glance
Frown as they look away
Please somebody turn around
I'm really not okay

You refuse to see the signs
A deluge of denial
Drowns out my facial features
The absence of a smile

Obliged to ask how I am
Your concerns I allay
But then again I would do
I'm really not okay

Hold back the transparent tears
A dam of repression
I'll  be damned if anyone
Sees through my confession

Slowly my world unravels
Life's tapestry will fray
My pain has been tailor made
I'm really not okay

I write poems and stories
Keep a diary with me
Leave it in public places
Hoping someone will see

And tell me how they have read
Up to the present day
Hold me close and say those words
Are you really okay?
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Comments: 538

Raindropiskawaii [2017-03-04 03:10:37 +0000 UTC]

This poem is so touching and I'd be lying if I said this can't describe me. But every time I read this poem I feel like I'm not the only one. Thank you for that.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Raindropiskawaii [2017-03-04 19:14:05 +0000 UTC]

Hey there

many thanks for your kind words about my poem. I am really glad you enjoyed it and it made you feel less alone. It is the truth too. No one is really ever alone with the feelings they feel.

have a nice day

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gdpr-34241432 [2015-04-05 03:11:54 +0000 UTC]

This poem is touching. I think it's relatable, like how when people are asked how they're doing, they reply "fine", even though they don't mean it. Then again, it's not like the other person cares. It's just what we're used to, I guess.

I just love this poem, though.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to gdpr-34241432 [2015-04-05 13:55:38 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, i think people just reply ''fine'' almost without even thinking. In fact fine probably shouldnt even mean fine now.

Glad you liked the poem have a great day

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Bellaninha12 [2013-10-16 01:12:32 +0000 UTC]

Amazing!  

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Bellaninha12 [2013-10-18 15:51:59 +0000 UTC]

thank you!

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Cr4zyW45t3d [2013-08-03 08:38:11 +0000 UTC]

So , I don't know, revealing, heart-felt, emotional despair. I LOVE IT, I UNDERSTAND IT, I'VE HAVE FELT IT! And it's alright to not be ok, as long as occassionally you find your way back to some way, shape or form of happiness and stability. Been there done that for me-more than once.  Thankfully I find my way back at the last moment. (except that ONE time...I needed some help, didn't want it, but I needed it!)

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Cr4zyW45t3d [2013-08-03 10:19:15 +0000 UTC]

thanks for the comment Yeah, it is really easy to stray away from path of happiness and wellbeing without even realising. It creeps up on you. I sometimes find myself waking all of a sudden and thinking ''did that 6 months really just happen?''  I like to think that the more times it happens the better I am equiped to deal with it. Unfortunately situations are always different. But so long as I have the one goal of happiness then my ultimate destination will always be the same and I try to focus on that

have a great day!

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Sarahblerg [2013-07-31 02:13:12 +0000 UTC]

this is brilliant, kind of makes me want to be more careful with people. pay more attention. I want to be the one who's asking that question "Are you really okay?". A few years back a friend of mine took his own life, and living in a small town, this actually happens among  us teens frequently. This poem just makes me feel so much because you never know what people are going through and you just want to be there for them when they need you. (sorry for the big personal blah) I love your poetry, and this is perfect.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Sarahblerg [2013-07-31 17:26:19 +0000 UTC]

thanks for sharing your story. Such a tough situation and i feel for you. Since joining this site I have seen a lot of young people having no one to talk to.

At first i put a journal up offering to listen to anyone who had a problem. Then i realised i could write my poems about subjects important to them and it would show how they arent alone in how they feel. Not only because i was writing about it but also reading comments left on the poems

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Sarahblerg In reply to CloudNumber8 [2013-08-08 21:44:51 +0000 UTC]

yeah the comfort of that in a poem just makes me so happy   and you know people are reading them and just feeling the same ..makes us all feel less alone

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Sarahblerg [2013-08-09 23:53:58 +0000 UTC]

it is so nice to think i could help someone feel a little less alone

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shadow0071 [2012-12-11 19:45:43 +0000 UTC]

its amazing i can relate loads as i was sexually abused as a young girl i feel like my body screams for help but it never shows ive become used to being on my own emotionally i would love to listen to someone elses problems and advise them and i would love for someone to talk to
your poem was great it makes you want to cry its so good it really helps its amazing

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CloudNumber8 In reply to shadow0071 [2012-12-12 01:46:24 +0000 UTC]

I am no expert but I think having been through something like that it would be helpful to speak to someone.

I think talking to others who have been through similar things too would help.

I am really glad you liked the poem and felt it helped you It means alot to me

thank you!

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shadow0071 In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-12-12 12:50:41 +0000 UTC]

aye it is but people grow to cope it is what we do

yes it i wouldnt mind speaking about how to cope with experiences and stuff

your poem was really good and yes it helped thank you.

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bonnylasspam [2012-09-22 05:27:49 +0000 UTC]

I feel like you wrote those words just for me.......thank you

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CloudNumber8 In reply to bonnylasspam [2012-09-22 14:36:57 +0000 UTC]

thats a lovely thing to say and means alot to me

thank you for the comment

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RedStoryTeller [2012-09-13 01:56:37 +0000 UTC]

I absolutly love this one. One of my favorite favorites I think 'cause I can relate. But anyway really emotional as usual and just lovely rhymes!!

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MiraKazue [2012-08-25 03:44:41 +0000 UTC]

Having my situation described so wonderfully actually gives a glimmer of hope. We realise we're not the only ones having the same problem but finding another person to share it with is just hard. Thus feelings get locked up and we feel it's best to keep it to ourselves.
At least that's how I see it lol.
It's a lovely poem. Keep it up!

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CloudNumber8 In reply to MiraKazue [2012-08-25 19:47:09 +0000 UTC]

yeah, its such a shame too because so many feel this way and want someone to talk to. But they keep feelings bottled up. Its good their are places like this where people can talk. Like i hope someone might see a comment on here from someone and relate and then go and make friends with that person

thanks for the comment

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MiraKazue In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-08-25 23:26:50 +0000 UTC]

Thou hath noble intentions my friend.
Haha no problem

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LilyHitori [2012-08-24 00:36:53 +0000 UTC]

This is beautiful, I mean, no one should feel that way. But I can totally relate to this piece. You're an amazing poet

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CloudNumber8 In reply to LilyHitori [2012-08-24 17:51:52 +0000 UTC]

thank you. I am glad the emotions came across

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Chigami [2012-08-24 00:07:31 +0000 UTC]

Wow, so touching. You really are good at writing poems.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Chigami [2012-08-24 17:52:04 +0000 UTC]

thank you for that, i appreciate it

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thebluerooster [2012-08-22 18:12:01 +0000 UTC]

i used to be familiar with this, and everyday thing, i used to cry myself to sleep, not letting anybody see or help.
i began to open my eyes, there are others like me... i made a promise to be strong, if not for me then for them, all of my friends and family, all of those who needs me to be strong.
now it feels like I'm blooming a little more everyday! i can truly smile.
this poem makes me think of that time, not so long ago...

be strong people, tomorrow the sun will shine again

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CloudNumber8 In reply to thebluerooster [2012-08-22 18:28:02 +0000 UTC]

that brought such a smile to my face knowing that you are feeling better.

I hope lots of people who have read and identified with this poem also read your comment.

thanks again

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thebluerooster In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-08-23 08:51:44 +0000 UTC]

hehe I'm glad that it made you smile
and I'm feeling amazing!

i hope they will, the most important thing is to hang on, it will be better.

this kinda remind me of [link] also very touching and sadly true

it is me who is thanking

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CloudNumber8 In reply to thebluerooster [2012-08-23 20:03:24 +0000 UTC]

ahh yeah, i like that.

It becomes an autoatic response sometimes doesnt it. Like someone asks how you are and you just say 'fine' when really you arent fine at all.

i am gonna thank you for thanking then lol

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naruhinawuv2 [2012-08-21 04:39:13 +0000 UTC]

That's how I feel most of the time.
I still in school and I usually lay behind scenes because,
I'm either being picked on or not being noticed..

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CloudNumber8 In reply to naruhinawuv2 [2012-08-21 22:24:24 +0000 UTC]

thank you for reading and commenting. I am sad really that you can relate. It can be a tough time in school, i have been there. Just know that things get better and it doesnt last forever. Thats just a small percentage of your life.

thanks again

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kjones1241 [2012-08-19 23:42:53 +0000 UTC]

Heartbreaking ~ achingly poignant. Beautiful.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to kjones1241 [2012-08-20 17:30:20 +0000 UTC]

thank you, i am glad you enjoyed it

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NYCrainbow6 [2012-07-28 16:26:17 +0000 UTC]

oh my..oh...OMYFREAKINGGOD that was....its so...YES! its wow...
very relate-able and so well written <3 keep writing!

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CloudNumber8 In reply to NYCrainbow6 [2012-07-28 18:50:13 +0000 UTC]

aww i missed your BIG words. But i want some longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg words toooooooooooooo lol

thanks Sara

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NYCrainbow6 In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-07-29 01:46:48 +0000 UTC]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP YOU'RE SO WELCOME COL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS BEEN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG SINCE I'VE SAID HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII lol are you good now? hahha

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CloudNumber8 In reply to NYCrainbow6 [2012-07-30 17:54:55 +0000 UTC]

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy that made up for all those weeks away lol

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NYCrainbow6 In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-07-30 18:35:13 +0000 UTC]

hahahahahahahaha I DID SOMETHING GOOOOOOOOOOD YAYYYYYYYY

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Skilletlover1234 [2012-07-11 21:01:57 +0000 UTC]

know how this feels

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Skilletlover1234 [2012-07-12 22:38:03 +0000 UTC]

:/ sorry to hear that. But thank you for reading this and commenting

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Skilletlover1234 In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-07-14 22:22:23 +0000 UTC]

its fine ur welcome

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lacesnflowers [2012-07-04 23:00:57 +0000 UTC]

I love it. You're truly talented!

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CloudNumber8 In reply to lacesnflowers [2012-07-06 20:34:24 +0000 UTC]

aww thank you very much

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rayven20012 [2012-06-22 14:02:13 +0000 UTC]

love it!it sensational and true how most of the people are treated or what hppens to them

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CloudNumber8 In reply to rayven20012 [2012-06-23 01:51:37 +0000 UTC]

thank you very much

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rayven20012 In reply to CloudNumber8 [2012-06-24 08:44:00 +0000 UTC]

np

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Nightfarer [2012-06-21 16:39:09 +0000 UTC]

I had to read it more than ones... it's intensive... and reflects the feelings of many people out there.
I don't want to say to many things about this poem. It's great... I tried to hold back the tears in my eyes. Especially the last verse "sounds" like a hug... a resolution of all the pain inside of the suffering and desperated person.

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CloudNumber8 In reply to Nightfarer [2012-06-21 23:35:59 +0000 UTC]

I am really glad this poem seemed to touch you and you took time to come and tell me your thoughts

thank you for reading

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IS-THISTHING-ON [2012-06-16 00:28:30 +0000 UTC]

story of my life

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CloudNumber8 In reply to IS-THISTHING-ON [2012-06-16 22:39:06 +0000 UTC]

sorry to hear that. A few people have identified with it and all i can say is for you to talk about it. Dont keep it bottled inside

thanks so much for reading and commenting

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