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You need to read everything to understand wtf this is. I'll just make an angry fais if you ask a question I answered in this freaking desc. I write this textwall for a reason.

mmmmkay I'm a liar. I did art.

I've been doodling this little guys a lot during actual class time. They're fun and simple, little blobs with silly noodle arms and stub legs; quite wonderful. They're the personifications (sorta?) of Eleanor's dominating feelings/emotion/whatever. I never intended to have them become their own little characters, but darn it they have; I'm thinking of making a random comic of them just interacting with each other and tormenting internal Eleanor, already sorta working on something related to "Eleanor's Rage." >3>

Don't ask we why they have the colors they do, their Eleanor's monsters, not mine; I just colored the way they felt right. I can't make sense of some of them myself. But man they are sooooo fun to shade. Being blobs, they are easy as pie. I'm all for easy, since it means I can be LAZY. c:
And I've grouped them, the six main ones are called "negs" and the three in the lil box are the "pos", for simplicities sake.

The negs-
Trauma: Basically all her bad memories, she thinks about them constantly no matter what other feelings she's having. He's a major asshole, of course does a very good job of ruining every good moment Eleanor can have. Is ALWAYS present and tormenting her and he will never, ever go away. D:

Paranoia: Feeds off of Trauma, they're best buds, more often than not tormenting her together. Paranoia is also an asshole, only he's a bit... smoother about it? Trauma's just a dick, Paranoia is a cool dick.

Fear: omg my favorite one. He's freaking hilarious, everything he does is funny, because he's scared of EVERYTHING; lives up to his name, of course. Pretty much always present, just like Trauma and Paranoia, only he's MUCH nicer. He's actually looking out for Eleanor to prevent Trauma, Rage, Loneliness, and Sadness from growing. But seeing as Paranoia and Fear feed one another, as long as one existes so will the other. However, I think Fear with the help of Kindness, Happiness and Love could definitely calm down a bit, and when that happens Paranoia will get weaker, along with all the other negs.

Rage: Well... Rage. The scariest one. He's seductive and offers Eleanor power, with his power she could quiet all the other emotions, ALL OF THEM, and finally be free of them tormenting her. The only thing is Rage seeks to completely control her, so while he offers her 'love' it's all empty. She can't see this, however, not right away. The power is overwhelming, she likes it (ohohoho, you'll see), at first she finds it hard to resist because her mind is finally quiet. Only thing is she hurts everyone around her because Rage also seeks revenge, Kindness can break the spell Rage attempts to cast on Eleanor; that, and she doesn't like that the pos will become just as dormant as the other negs if Rage takes over. She really wants to know the pos better... So Rage is denied control and continues to slumber, it'll be hard for him to take her mind again the second time, but he'll always be there. He feeds off of all the negs, so their continued existence will mean his as well, and vise versa.

Loneliness: Ah, Loneliness, he feeds off Sadness mostly, but tends to hang out with the pos. Whenever external Eleanor meets someone new, the pos and Loneliness attempt to come to the forefront of her mind, trying to encourage her to open up a bit and get to know that new individual. Too bad usually Fear and Paranoia manage to get her to freak the hell out and run away, much to Trauma's lulz. Afterwards there's a resurgence in Sadness and Loneliness, Fear is weakened by the previous intense surge in power and as a result so is Paranoia and Trauma. Loneliness isn't always around though, really it's just Trauma, Paranoia, Fear, and Sadness that are constantly messing with her internal self.

Sadness (or Depression): This one's pretty straight forward, right? He feeds off... Trauma I'd say, because Eleanor is obviously unhappy such things happened to her and that it has made her completely incapable of trust. Sadness is probably my second fave just because he's like ":'C" all the time and... idk it makes me snicker. Sadness actually isn't ALWAYS around, he's considerably stronger when Loneliness is there, a little fainter otherwise, but still one of the main ones.

Now the pos, actually not sure why I made monsters out of these guys since they're NICE and all, but I guess because I needed something to give Eleanor some relief. AND they can be just as detrimental/overpowering as the negs in the right circumstances. They have the potential to be SO strong in Eleanor if fed properly. The negs keep them pretty well repressed, which is why they are so shrimpy. But if given the right stimuli they could completely over shadow all the negs and become even more powerful and all-consuming than Rage (who's pretty freaking powerful) because they've been pushed back so much but are actually Eleanor's TRUE self. Trouble is, there is no outside stimuli to feed them, so they are only faint hopes rather than realities.

Happiness: Naw... I'm not sure who's shrimpier, Happiness or Love. Probably Love though, since Eleanor can make herself KINDA happy with her metalwork. But it's not a very strong happiness, and no matter what when Happiness is there so are the main negs, flicking him in the head and giving him Indian burns and whatnot. But if Eleanor was ever given something to be TRULY happy about Happiness would be a huge looming BEAST that squished (for the time being) all the negs. Happiness and Love feed off one another mostly, obviously, however all the pos sort of feed off one another.

Kindness: The strongest pos at the moment, he can occasionally convince Fear and Paranoia not to cause a freak out/run away, usually if Eleanor feels the individual she's seeing isn't TOO threatening. Kindness often argues with the dominant negs, causing a horrible internal conflict that causes an external breakdown (you've seen it, lol), but seeing he's so shrimpy he usually gets the pulp beat out of him by Trauma and Paranoia, causing a freak out/run away anyhow. You can almost ALWAYS appeal to Eleanor's kindness and give him power to overcome the dominant negs if you're hurt in some way. ;3 Seeing pain in others makes Eleanor feel VERY guilty/empathetic since she knows what it's like. Don't ask me why she feels guilty tho, she's just a weirdo.

Love: Poor, poor Love. SO STARVED. Honestly, Eleanor's never felt love, not from another living thing anyway. She loves her machete, but it's a very, very unhealthy and misplaced love seeing as it's an inanimate object and like... it can't feel. :V It's pretty much an intense attachment that she HAS to apply to something otherwise she'd go even MORE loco. Anyway. Love could pretty much consume her mind like Rage if given the right stimuli, make her blind to reason and logic because she just has no way to deal with it having never known it before. No matter what, when it comes to Love, Eleanor is pretty boned; without it the negs rule, with it she just becomes an idiot. :c I think, because Love's been so repressed Eleanor could actually fall IN love with more than one person, because she simply wouldn't UNDERSTAND how to decode the intricate details of the different levels of love. Not good, since that would lead to the development of new monsters, Confusion and Heartache, and a resurgence in Sadness with the new negs to feed off of.

So there you go. EL'S A NUTSO.
These guys... don't ACTUALLY exist in her mind, it's an abstract concept of the internal workings of her unstable brainz. She's NOT A SCHIZOPHRENIC or anything. I just like working with metaphors and taking ideas too far. 8D

Description
You need to read everything to understand wtf this is. I'll just make an angry fais if you ask a question I answered in this freaking desc. I write this textwall for a reason.

mmmmkay I'm a liar. I did art.

I've been doodling this little guys a lot during actual class time. They're fun and simple, little blobs with silly noodle arms and stub legs; quite wonderful. They're the personifications (sorta?) of Eleanor's dominating feelings/emotion/whatever. I never intended to have them become their own little characters, but darn it they have; I'm thinking of making a random comic of them just interacting with each other and tormenting internal Eleanor, already sorta working on something related to "Eleanor's Rage." >3>

Don't ask we why they have the colors they do, their Eleanor's monsters, not mine; I just colored the way they felt right. I can't make sense of some of them myself. But man they are sooooo fun to shade. Being blobs, they are easy as pie. I'm all for easy, since it means I can be LAZY. c:
And I've grouped them, the six main ones are called "negs" and the three in the lil box are the "pos", for simplicities sake.

The negs-
Trauma: Basically all her bad memories, she thinks about them constantly no matter what other feelings she's having. He's a major asshole, of course does a very good job of ruining every good moment Eleanor can have. Is ALWAYS present and tormenting her and he will never, ever go away. D:

Paranoia: Feeds off of Trauma, they're best buds, more often than not tormenting her together. Paranoia is also an asshole, only he's a bit... smoother about it? Trauma's just a dick, Paranoia is a cool dick.

Fear: omg my favorite one. He's freaking hilarious, everything he does is funny, because he's scared of EVERYTHING; lives up to his name, of course. Pretty much always present, just like Trauma and Paranoia, only he's MUCH nicer. He's actually looking out for Eleanor to prevent Trauma, Rage, Loneliness, and Sadness from growing. But seeing as Paranoia and Fear feed one another, as long as one existes so will the other. However, I think Fear with the help of Kindness, Happiness and Love could definitely calm down a bit, and when that happens Paranoia will get weaker, along with all the other negs.

Rage: Well... Rage. The scariest one. He's seductive and offers Eleanor power, with his power she could quiet all the other emotions, ALL OF THEM, and finally be free of them tormenting her. The only thing is Rage seeks to completely control her, so while he offers her 'love' it's all empty. She can't see this, however, not right away. The power is overwhelming, she likes it (ohohoho, you'll see), at first she finds it hard to resist because her mind is finally quiet. Only thing is she hurts everyone around her because Rage also seeks revenge, Kindness can break the spell Rage attempts to cast on Eleanor; that, and she doesn't like that the pos will become just as dormant as the other negs if Rage takes over. She really wants to know the pos better... So Rage is denied control and continues to slumber, it'll be hard for him to take her mind again the second time, but he'll always be there. He feeds off of all the negs, so their continued existence will mean his as well, and vise versa.

Loneliness: Ah, Loneliness, he feeds off Sadness mostly, but tends to hang out with the pos. Whenever external Eleanor meets someone new, the pos and Loneliness attempt to come to the forefront of her mind, trying to encourage her to open up a bit and get to know that new individual. Too bad usually Fear and Paranoia manage to get her to freak the hell out and run away, much to Trauma's lulz. Afterwards there's a resurgence in Sadness and Loneliness, Fear is weakened by the previous intense surge in power and as a result so is Paranoia and Trauma. Loneliness isn't always around though, really it's just Trauma, Paranoia, Fear, and Sadness that are constantly messing with her internal self.

Sadness (or Depression): This one's pretty straight forward, right? He feeds off... Trauma I'd say, because Eleanor is obviously unhappy such things happened to her and that it has made her completely incapable of trust. Sadness is probably my second fave just because he's like ":'C" all the time and... idk it makes me snicker. Sadness actually isn't ALWAYS around, he's considerably stronger when Loneliness is there, a little fainter otherwise, but still one of the main ones.

Now the pos, actually not sure why I made monsters out of these guys since they're NICE and all, but I guess because I needed something to give Eleanor some relief. AND they can be just as detrimental/overpowering as the negs in the right circumstances. They have the potential to be SO strong in Eleanor if fed properly. The negs keep them pretty well repressed, which is why they are so shrimpy. But if given the right stimuli they could completely over shadow all the negs and become even more powerful and all-consuming than Rage (who's pretty freaking powerful) because they've been pushed back so much but are actually Eleanor's TRUE self. Trouble is, there is no outside stimuli to feed them, so they are only faint hopes rather than realities.

Happiness: Naw... I'm not sure who's shrimpier, Happiness or Love. Probably Love though, since Eleanor can make herself KINDA happy with her metalwork. But it's not a very strong happiness, and no matter what when Happiness is there so are the main negs, flicking him in the head and giving him Indian burns and whatnot. But if Eleanor was ever given something to be TRULY happy about Happiness would be a huge looming BEAST that squished (for the time being) all the negs. Happiness and Love feed off one another mostly, obviously, however all the pos sort of feed off one another.

Kindness: The strongest pos at the moment, he can occasionally convince Fear and Paranoia not to cause a freak out/run away, usually if Eleanor feels the individual she's seeing isn't TOO threatening. Kindness often argues with the dominant negs, causing a horrible internal conflict that causes an external breakdown (you've seen it, lol), but seeing he's so shrimpy he usually gets the pulp beat out of him by Trauma and Paranoia, causing a freak out/run away anyhow. You can almost ALWAYS appeal to Eleanor's kindness and give him power to overcome the dominant negs if you're hurt in some way. ;3 Seeing pain in others makes Eleanor feel VERY guilty/empathetic since she knows what it's like. Don't ask me why she feels guilty tho, she's just a weirdo.

Love: Poor, poor Love. SO STARVED. Honestly, Eleanor's never felt love, not from another living thing anyway. She loves her machete, but it's a very, very unhealthy and misplaced love seeing as it's an inanimate object and like... it can't feel. :V It's pretty much an intense attachment that she HAS to apply to something otherwise she'd go even MORE loco. Anyway. Love could pretty much consume her mind like Rage if given the right stimuli, make her blind to reason and logic because she just has no way to deal with it having never known it before. No matter what, when it comes to Love, Eleanor is pretty boned; without it the negs rule, with it she just becomes an idiot. :c I think, because Love's been so repressed Eleanor could actually fall IN love with more than one person, because she simply wouldn't UNDERSTAND how to decode the intricate details of the different levels of love. Not good, since that would lead to the development of new monsters, Confusion and Heartache, and a resurgence in Sadness with the new negs to feed off of.

So there you go. EL'S A NUTSO.
These guys... don't ACTUALLY exist in her mind, it's an abstract concept of the internal workings of her unstable brainz. She's NOT A SCHIZOPHRENIC or anything. I just like working with metaphors and taking ideas too far. 8D