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You're ugly.
You're stupid.
You'll never amount to anything.
No one will ever like you.
If you think he'll stay, you're mistaken.
You have no friends.
People hate you.
You are a freak.
You have no place here.
You are nothing more than a coward who
is too afraid to step outside half the time.
Your face is like something from a horror movie.
No one will ever truly fall in love with you.
Guys want girls that are beautiful and face it,
you are considered everything but that.
Hide behind your hair dye because you want to
feign like you don't care.
But inside the cruel eyes of others burn holes into
your soul.
You will never amount to anything.
The only thing you will ever be good for
is cleaning up dog shit.
You will never be good enough.
Why bother even dreaming?
How can you consider the possibility of love
when everything you do, the way you look, walk,
talk, move, think, can only ever be seen as
ugly.
Not only is the outside hideous;
the inside is no better.
Why do you think you've never been on a date?
You have nothing going for you because even your
personality sucks.
Your eyebrows are too thick.
Your nostrils are shaped funny.
Your face is too big and fat.
Your shoulders too broad.
Your stomach's too weird.
Your eyes are nothing special.
Your hands and feet too large
to belong to a woman.
Your teeth are crooked.
Your nose too big and wide.
Your build is something that
can never be desired.
You don't need to be here.
You have no point, no place.
Nothing to live for.
Just kill yourself already.
Voices set on replay
like a record in my head,
playing every single time I wish to sleep
or glance at my reflection.
Because sometimes in life you find,
the biggest bully of them all,
aren't the trolls and sharped tongued teens
you find online and in school buildings.
Sometimes the cruelest tormentor,
the one wishing you ill will,
is the person staring out at you
from a sheet of glass, mirror.
You are your hardest critic.
This has been said before but,
sometimes I can't help to think
that maybe all these things are said
for a certain reason.
Sticks and stones may break bones
but bones can be set and healed.
Yet words slice through your brain and soul
etch permanent cracks on the heart.
No matter how much glue you use,
the cracks always remain just below
the surface and each time they feel better;
each time the pain weakens,
the words start up again.
Impaling you with truths that cut
deeper than any knife could do and
causing much more damage.
Who can save you from yourself?
Who can stop the evil thoughts,
if you haven't the ability to
make them go away yourself?
I am my own enemy.
The destroyer of my own soul.
Hi, my name's Rebecca.
And I am a bully.
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Comments: 108
howlingghostwolf In reply to ??? [2017-09-23 02:39:34 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for your kind words
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the-anything-network [2017-03-11 06:19:14 +0000 UTC]
raise your head high and your middle finger higher. If that doesn't work, poison your bully like i did.
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shining-char In reply to the-anything-network [2017-09-03 17:20:25 +0000 UTC]
The best comment
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TheKingOfIlluisons [2016-02-11 06:10:26 +0000 UTC]
Beautiful. Made me drop tears, thank you.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to TheKingOfIlluisons [2016-02-12 20:58:48 +0000 UTC]
Thank you very much
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TheKingOfIlluisons In reply to howlingghostwolf [2016-02-13 02:37:53 +0000 UTC]
Your welcome.
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LuvLuvHurts [2015-10-14 09:02:47 +0000 UTC]
Thank you...thank you for writing this beautiful poem. I can't thank you enough.
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charlotte652 [2015-06-05 07:02:26 +0000 UTC]
Wow! Very powerful and so true! Impressive stuff chica!
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charlotte652 In reply to howlingghostwolf [2015-06-06 22:16:58 +0000 UTC]
You're welcome
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RainfoxArts [2015-06-03 00:37:35 +0000 UTC]
Ha. In the bold part i felt like being bullied because it's almost everything my mind tells me i am.
Really interesting. You see mostly poems about bullied people out there, but almost never about bullies. Daily deviantion deserved!
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howlingghostwolf In reply to RainfoxArts [2015-06-03 00:42:50 +0000 UTC]
Thank you very much
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Swanhyld [2015-05-31 19:28:14 +0000 UTC]
Wow, being honest with yourself is really difficult, well done. If you can recognise your flaws that is the first step to overcoming them, I commend you!
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Indianimations [2015-05-28 08:48:20 +0000 UTC]
Wow, this is very powerful! Great writing and congrats on getting a DD
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howlingghostwolf In reply to Indianimations [2015-05-28 18:33:51 +0000 UTC]
Thank you!
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Indianimations In reply to howlingghostwolf [2015-05-28 19:26:29 +0000 UTC]
You're welcome
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Thisguyhere070 [2015-04-26 01:11:14 +0000 UTC]
Its funny bullies say these things and its true in their case. They think they are so cool. But......
I have to stop I will rant forever about this.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to Thisguyhere070 [2015-05-02 02:02:30 +0000 UTC]
Yes, that is so very true.
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gummy10020 [2014-11-26 21:33:30 +0000 UTC]
I have been before and I can feel your pain...I would cry at those words if someone said that to me.Heck someone called me stupid/retarded just because I did something wrong,One slip up He yells at me
Thats why I try to avoid him but he keeps on creeping into me...I never did anything wrong to him,but I will always and never stop smiling.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to gummy10020 [2014-11-26 21:37:10 +0000 UTC]
It is never easy to shake the things that people have said to us.
It is great that you are able to keep smiling. Never stop! Always
keep your head up!
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gummy10020 In reply to howlingghostwolf [2014-11-26 22:00:08 +0000 UTC]
Thank you you have a wonderful day!
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howlingghostwolf In reply to gummy10020 [2014-11-26 23:25:25 +0000 UTC]
You're very welcome c: You too and have a great Thanksgiving! :3
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DaisukeAlexandria [2014-11-17 03:45:53 +0000 UTC]
OMG! This makes me want to cry and hug you at the same time. Well done, beautiful, and very true...the worst enemy indeed is ourselves.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to DaisukeAlexandria [2014-11-17 04:05:19 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much for your kind words. *hugs*
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DaisukeAlexandria In reply to howlingghostwolf [2014-11-17 04:05:49 +0000 UTC]
You're welcome
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howlingghostwolf In reply to burningrage8-13 [2014-11-06 19:55:28 +0000 UTC]
It is never something anyone should have to endure but sadly is all too common
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burningrage8-13 In reply to howlingghostwolf [2014-11-07 20:15:23 +0000 UTC]
One word for it: Ignorance.
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miistical [2014-10-28 22:45:53 +0000 UTC]
Wonderful poem, really; but I must ask you something. I'm a 2nd year at my high school and we were given an assignment on finding poems/prose that we could analyze or find meaning in. This is for my Creative Writing 2 and Honors English 2 class. I'd love it if I could use your poem for my analysis. If you wonder what this means, it's that I will take your poem and read it aloud (giving proper ownership) to both classes and say why I chose the piece. Like I said, I'd love it if I could use your poem.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to miistical [2014-10-29 03:18:48 +0000 UTC]
Sure! I would be honored! I will note you my real name.
I am glad that you like it so much that you would consider
using it.
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YppleJax [2014-10-26 14:30:41 +0000 UTC]
Bullies outside your head are rarely so creative and devastating as the one inside can be. Β She knows all your secrets, after all.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to YppleJax [2014-10-26 22:11:28 +0000 UTC]
That is true on so many levels. For she knows the demons
and monsters that lie in the shadows and depths that sometimes
even our conscience isn't aware of.
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CowardForward [2014-10-26 11:32:38 +0000 UTC]
I'm so sorry for that inconsiderate comment! Q_Q
I'm not myself when I feel down and I don't really think things through.
I actually think this poem is beautiful and holds much of what I've lost.
keep on struggling because life can also be very kind and warm.
You are a beautiful person and very strong to struggle with these thoughts
I'm honestly sorry for that comment >.<'
I vote for you
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howlingghostwolf In reply to CowardForward [2014-10-26 21:47:57 +0000 UTC]
I am not sure what you mean. My internet has been
weird for the past few days so I am just now getting to comments.
No worries though, I have those days as well and know all to well
what it is like to say the wrong things at time. Thank you. And I
hope you have a wonderful and beautiful day~
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CRG-Free [2014-10-25 07:08:59 +0000 UTC]
This is an awesome poem. I never realized it until discussing this poem with myself but I was this exact way from age 5 to 14. Although I never consciously did this looking back, it's exactly what I did. Feeling disdain for myself and that I was unlovable. Never telling anyone when I liked them. When I had friends they were always the wrong kind. Until I was 14 there was thing that was always in common though. What I called my Best Friend. She tortured me, made me hide if she thought someone might see me. If she thought they did she bring them to laugh at me. I got mad and would end the friendship usually a few times a year but I always went back because deep down I felt that how she treated me was how I deserved to be treated. I was so shy and afraid of being embarrassed by asking someone out or even talking to one of them, that I subconsciously was pushing everyone away from me by overeating. I saw a pizza as both comfort and a way to prevent me from getting hurt. Because I felt I was so unworthy of being liked I did everything I could to make no one who would treat me nice to even talk to me.
All through elementary School and even after I went into homeschooling I was under the false belief that I was mocked and humiliated and picked on. However in the past 3 years it's hit me that the people I thought were making fun of my lunch of junk food were trying to help me. They were being kind. I mean when you think you are deserved of being hated a simple act of kindness can be seen as an insult.
Do I hate the best friend that helped push me further and further by mocking me and turning her friends into hating me? No I do not. I realized like 4 years ago what was happening. I was reminded of a prank some kids pulled on her that got her suspended and them nothing. It was then I realized that what she was doing to me was exactly what they were doing to her. They'd make fun of her. Make her be there joke and laugh at her. Make her be a comedian or the house where they could go to make out.
Basically she was going through the same thing I was and I'm not even sure she ever realized it. I do know that what she did was wrong to me but I feel I am exactly where I need to be in life. I've lost over 60 lbs since the beginning of the year. It gave me the thick skin I needed in life.
The bullying in my life is both forever lasting constant effects, and also still being built upon. I can not go to a Zoo, go to a Store, or walk around town without either people staring or people taking photos of me with their cellphones. That happens atleast 75% of the time I go to Walmart. Which is shocking because the people there that give looks are obese as well. A lot of the ones taking photos are obese as well also. I've learned though to look at stuff below the surface. Those people taking photos of me because I am obese are portraying on to me how they feel about themselves. They are putting me in there shoes and torturing themselves.
Sorry for the text block and I assume there will be a lot of tl;dr
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howlingghostwolf In reply to CRG-Free [2014-10-26 22:12:07 +0000 UTC]
This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing
your story with me. You are a strong and amazing person
to have such strength! I know all too well the feeling of
"friends" being too embarrassed to be seen out with you,
the people judging and staringΒ at you. Keep strong my friend.
I can tell from your words and your amazing photographic
eye that you are beautiful~
Thank you for reading and commenting and may God bless you~
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CRG-Free In reply to howlingghostwolf [2014-11-17 03:06:48 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much. All my Strength comes from the Lord above. I just love your poem. I think it may be one of the best of all time and should be published.
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howlingghostwolf In reply to CRG-Free [2014-11-17 03:19:15 +0000 UTC]
You are very welcome. Thank you so much.
It means a lot to me that you say that. <3
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shadowzabimaru [2014-10-25 05:40:22 +0000 UTC]
Wow, I feel like you've really written something that a lot of people can relate to here. And the way in which you've written them⦠sounds exactly right. These are the things we fear everytime we look into the mirror and yet are too embarrased to ever admit out loud, because we sound too pathetic, too desperate⦠which we'd like to pretend that we aren't, but we kind of are. It must have taken a lot of courage to write this!
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