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♩♫ Brave – Amarante ♩♫

Don't let them take you down
Take your heart away
Don't let them take you down
Take your love away

And when the world pushes you down
You gotta get back up
And when the world comes crashing down
You gotta hold your ground

It's time
To stand up tall
We gotta face our fears
Knock down these walls

And when the world pushes you down
We gotta get back up
And when the world comes crashing down
You gotta hold your ground-

Super-big file warning!!and this is only the 50% fullsize ahahha- ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

Do you ever have one of those WIPs that's just been sitting in your files for so long that you kinda just ahhHHHH I JUST WANT IT TO BE DONE!!
Because that's 100% exactly what this is LOL.

What started out as a self-indulgent daily doodle in March 2016 turned into a super personal piece that ended up taking me two years to finish lmfaoo- |D;
.. this WAS NOT helped by the fact that I all-at-once-consecutively graduated from university, went on a two-week family trip to Europe, got a full-time job, and then ended up on a year-long hiatus between 2016 and 2017 lmaooo- oops.. ''orz

Honestly this art had gotten sO old that I've poked and prodded and retouched it more times than I can count in the past two years skjdd but. as I mentioned earlier..
I just wanted it to be doneeeeee ''orz
So even though there are some things I think I could have worked more on like finding a better-detailed and more efficient technique for shading wings tbh haha, I'm pretty content with this for what it is. ....... a really, really old art that I could not bring myself to scrap lmao- |D

As a lot of you know, Kyuvel has been a huGE part of my life, especially though it maybe sounds kinda weird to say this about a fictional character ?? haha in coping with the overwhelming depression I struggled with in my final year at university.

He kept me emotionally afloat long enough ( both through my own drawings, and the copious amts of comms and trades I got of him ) for me to somehow(??) get a job-
And through that job, I overcame a lot of personal obstacles in my ability to function in the real world, I met my current boyfriendo who inspired me to keep living as much as I inspired him to do the same, and I made some really strong genuine bonds / friendships that I'd realized I'd been sorely lacking- ; o ;

So- as childish or theatrical as it might sound, I really owe Kyuvel a lot. >w>;
He gave me my life back, or at least, was the catalyst in helping me overcome things when I really, really was about to give up.

I came across the band Amarante when I was a few months into my job, and things were somewhat starting to look up. I loved this entire album a lot, but this song in particular had a really profound calming effect on me.
It's a song that I strongly associate with Kyuvel now- not in the sense of him as a character, but rather what he means to me as a way of coping. It was kinda as if he was talking to me and encouraging me not to give up haha. I listened to it a lot for a while, when things got too stressful at work or at home.

And that song was the driving motivation behind this, turning it from a one-off waist-up doodle into a full-on fullbody that meant a lot to me personally haha. ; w ;
I drew him with his hand outstretched to the viewer because it's meant to represent the way he's always been there to help me stand back up when I thought I didn't have the strength to anymore. =v=;

And honestly, from all the sweet and kind compliments I've gotten on him over the years, I'm so soso happy that he's not only been a positive influence on me, but other people as well!

Recently though, I've started drawing him less and less.. originally because work took up so much of my time, but then afterwards, because things actually did get a lot better for me emotionally and situationally- and I don't rely on him the same way I used to in the past. =v=;

For the first time in six years, I feel like I have at least some semblance of a plan, and of a future. And I've gained much better resources for coping now than I had back then ( shoutout to good husband Lenard & best friendo @/reincarnationz ) <333. And all of those things I owe at least in part to Kyu helping me stay alive when things were really bad. >w>;;

As for the art itself-
I didn't intend to add a background to this, so thankfully!! it doesn't look too out of place for having been slapped on last minute- |D;
I thought it was about time I showcased this myself, since I've made mention of it but never actually drawn it haha- but this is Kyuvel's favourite time of a day, a pinkish-gold dawn, and viewed from a place very high above it all. It's his fave because dawn reminds him of a new day, a new start. Even if he can't solve his problems at the moment, he can get away from them at least for a little while. uvu

I was really proud of the anatomy and flow on this at the time two years ago LOL but truth be told I'm still pretty happy with it years down the road. ; v ;
tHANK GOODNESS it's finally done and I can r e s t

tl; dr
I may not draw Kyu as obsessively as much as before, but he still means a lot to me and I am eternally grateful for my dumb noodle son. :' >
And thank you to all the artists and friends who have taken so kindly to him as well! That means more to me than I could ever put into words- ; o ;

I hope you enjoy this one too!

Seamless Dirt Ground Texture © hhh316
Artwork, Kyuvel © Inkshadow

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♩♫ Brave – Amarante ♩♫

Don't let them take you down
Take your heart away
Don't let them take you down
Take your love away

And when the world pushes you down
You gotta get back up
And when the world comes crashing down
You gotta hold your ground

It's time
To stand up tall
We gotta face our fears
Knock down these walls

And when the world pushes you down
We gotta get back up
And when the world comes crashing down
You gotta hold your ground-

Super-big file warning!!and this is only the 50% fullsize ahahha- ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

Do you ever have one of those WIPs that's just been sitting in your files for so long that you kinda just ahhHHHH I JUST WANT IT TO BE DONE!!
Because that's 100% exactly what this is LOL.

What started out as a self-indulgent daily doodle in March 2016 turned into a super personal piece that ended up taking me two years to finish lmfaoo- |D;
.. this WAS NOT helped by the fact that I all-at-once-consecutively graduated from university, went on a two-week family trip to Europe, got a full-time job, and then ended up on a year-long hiatus between 2016 and 2017 lmaooo- oops.. ''orz

Honestly this art had gotten sO old that I've poked and prodded and retouched it more times than I can count in the past two years skjdd but. as I mentioned earlier..
I just wanted it to be doneeeeee ''orz
So even though there are some things I think I could have worked more on like finding a better-detailed and more efficient technique for shading wings tbh haha, I'm pretty content with this for what it is. ....... a really, really old art that I could not bring myself to scrap lmao- |D

As a lot of you know, Kyuvel has been a huGE part of my life, especially though it maybe sounds kinda weird to say this about a fictional character ?? haha in coping with the overwhelming depression I struggled with in my final year at university.

He kept me emotionally afloat long enough ( both through my own drawings, and the copious amts of comms and trades I got of him ) for me to somehow(??) get a job-
And through that job, I overcame a lot of personal obstacles in my ability to function in the real world, I met my current boyfriendo who inspired me to keep living as much as I inspired him to do the same, and I made some really strong genuine bonds / friendships that I'd realized I'd been sorely lacking- ; o ;

So- as childish or theatrical as it might sound, I really owe Kyuvel a lot. >w>;
He gave me my life back, or at least, was the catalyst in helping me overcome things when I really, really was about to give up.

I came across the band Amarante when I was a few months into my job, and things were somewhat starting to look up. I loved this entire album a lot, but this song in particular had a really profound calming effect on me.
It's a song that I strongly associate with Kyuvel now- not in the sense of him as a character, but rather what he means to me as a way of coping. It was kinda as if he was talking to me and encouraging me not to give up haha. I listened to it a lot for a while, when things got too stressful at work or at home.

And that song was the driving motivation behind this, turning it from a one-off waist-up doodle into a full-on fullbody that meant a lot to me personally haha. ; w ;
I drew him with his hand outstretched to the viewer because it's meant to represent the way he's always been there to help me stand back up when I thought I didn't have the strength to anymore. =v=;

And honestly, from all the sweet and kind compliments I've gotten on him over the years, I'm so soso happy that he's not only been a positive influence on me, but other people as well!

Recently though, I've started drawing him less and less.. originally because work took up so much of my time, but then afterwards, because things actually did get a lot better for me emotionally and situationally- and I don't rely on him the same way I used to in the past. =v=;

For the first time in six years, I feel like I have at least some semblance of a plan, and of a future. And I've gained much better resources for coping now than I had back then ( shoutout to good husband Lenard & best friendo @/reincarnationz ) <333. And all of those things I owe at least in part to Kyu helping me stay alive when things were really bad. >w>;;

As for the art itself-
I didn't intend to add a background to this, so thankfully!! it doesn't look too out of place for having been slapped on last minute- |D;
I thought it was about time I showcased this myself, since I've made mention of it but never actually drawn it haha- but this is Kyuvel's favourite time of a day, a pinkish-gold dawn, and viewed from a place very high above it all. It's his fave because dawn reminds him of a new day, a new start. Even if he can't solve his problems at the moment, he can get away from them at least for a little while. uvu

I was really proud of the anatomy and flow on this at the time two years ago LOL but truth be told I'm still pretty happy with it years down the road. ; v ;
tHANK GOODNESS it's finally done and I can r e s t

tl; dr
I may not draw Kyu as obsessively as much as before, but he still means a lot to me and I am eternally grateful for my dumb noodle son. :' >
And thank you to all the artists and friends who have taken so kindly to him as well! That means more to me than I could ever put into words- ; o ;

I hope you enjoy this one too!

Seamless Dirt Ground Texture © hhh316
Artwork, Kyuvel © Inkshadow