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Things have been... weird. Ever since that day everything has changed. I had tried to make myself believe it was just a one time thing. A fluke, if you will. However when I stumbled into him the day after the incident and it happened again I knew something was wrong with me. My heart was out of control when I was around Aravali. Every little touch, every nice word he said to me would bring me near ecstasy. I tried to tell myself a lot of things to explain it. That it was normal, since he was my best friend. Somehow that didn't seem to be the case though. That maybe I was sick, a fever perhaps. Yet when I asked around, my feelings didn't seem to match with what a fever was like. I was at a loss. It was only around Aravali as well. The other Guardians also played around with me, but when they touched me my heart was as steady as a hammer. It wasn't until we were all hanging around after a day of work that a topic came up that seemed to resemble what I was feeling towards Aravali.

It was me, Aravali, Sanchay, Gold Dust, Gamble and Scott. They were teasing Gamble about liking Chimayi. Joking about his heart skipping a beat when he saw her. About him blushing when she was near. And that his work suffered because he was thinking about her the entire time. Getting Gamble to fluster and fail miserably to defend himself. They were only playing around, none of it had been meant seriously. But I grew horribly silent as I came to the realization that those words perfectly described my feelings towards Aravali. But I couldn't like him. He was my best friend. My tutor. A guy above all. The guys only joked about being gay sometimes. When saving another stallion got a little too close, when one of them said something feminine. But it would always be a joke. I never quite got into those jokes, having no experience on the topic whatsoever. Aravali had asked me some times, about previous girlfriends or me liking a mare. But I'd never been in love before, I had no idea what it would feel like. When I had told him I'd never been attracted to a mare before he told me I was weird but he'd laughed. I wasn't bothered about it though, I wasn't particularly interested in girls anyway. I just didn't know I was particularly interested in Aravali at the time.

My mind was still blown from that night. I didn't want to believe I was in love with Aravali. It would ruin everything. Coming to terms about being gay was something I didn't want to think about. I couldn't even begin to imagine what that would mean for me in its entire meaning. So I shoved that thought way to back of my mind. The more pressing issue was me feeling like this about Aravali. And I wasn't even close to figuring out how to deal with it. It was such a weird mix of euphoria and guilt. Whenever he praised me, my heart would flutter like a maniac but then I would imagine what Aravali would say if he knew what was going on in my head. And then I'd feel down again. It was like a never ending cycle. And even though I wanted to get off , these feelings remained. As a matter of fact they seemed to grow in intensity day by day.

As another day of work ended I was put in a similar scenario as the day I started to become aware of my feelings. It was the end of a work day and Aravali had already mentioned going out with his brother after. I mentally prepared myself as he reached over to ruffle my forelock. For him a friendly gesture, for me so much more. My heart ached as he pulled back, said his goodbye and left. I stared after him, my face burning and my heart pounding. How many times had it been now, that he had made me feel this way? "Miss him already?" I jumped at the sound of Gold Dust's voice. "What? No! Of course not!" I stammered, flustered and desperate to try and calm myself down. I could feel my face heating up even more and could only pray Gold Dust wouldn't notice. His expression as he looked at me was confused though. "What are you getting so flustered for?" he asked, half laughing , half serious. "I'm not flustered!" I replied too quickly and too loudly. It was at that point I realized I had never been prepared for anyone actually finding out about my feelings. And it scared me.

"Boost? Is something wrong?" Gold tilted his head to the side, confused. I forced myself to take a breath before answering this time. "Nothing's wrong. You surprised me", I replied much more composed now. At least I thought so. "Then why are you so red?" he pointed out and, my body failing me, I flushed even more. I didn't have a reply this time. How was I supposed to explain this situation? As I peered up to look at Gold it seemed as if a light had went on in his head and I shuddered in fear. "Wait", he said, looking at me intently. "You actually... about Aravali?" his words weren't as much a question as him putting two and two together. I flinched at the mention of his name unable to form a proper sentence in reply. Dropping my head in defeat I decided to let it be, there was no way to salvage this situation anymore. "Woah", Gold breathed, surprise colouring his voice, I wasn't sure how he would react. Next to Aravali and Sanchay I got along with Gold the best, I could only hope this wouldn't ruin our friendship. " It's not normal, is it? A guy falling in love with another guy", I asked with a pained smile, my voice low. It was Gold's turn to flush slightly at my words, but he composed himself. "Everyone is different. I'm not one to judge but I am surprised, truth be told", his tone was gentle, a slight smile playing around his lips. Relief washed over me, Gold truly was a good friend. It felt as if a huge load fell off my shoulders, finally having said it out loud. "Aravali doesn't know?" he asked me and I shook my head. "All right, let's keep it that way for a while. It'll be our secret okay?" Truly a good friend, I thought. "Thank you, Gold", I dipped my head and he smiled at me. "You don't think I'm weird?" I asked him at which he laughed out loud. "Oh I think you're plenty weird. But not because you like Aravali", he grinned at me which made me giggle. His eyes narrowed warmly and he pulled me into a hug with his neck over mine. "Talk to me about it okay. I'm saying I'll be here for you", he told me before letting go and I don't think I'd ever felt more grateful for someone's kindness.

To be continued~

Next part of Woo's story! I love writing for this smol little cinnamon bun <3
Not everything's roses and sunshine when you fall in love with your same-gendered best friend/tutor. Woo figures out his feelings but is very conflicted about them. Luckily Gold Dust is there to be a good friend :3
Oh my God have I MISSED drawing Gold Dust!! He really needs to get himself a new reference sheet! I love how he turned out here as well, as well as Woo Boost <3 Yep I really enjoyed writing this part and drawing it I hope to have the next part up soonish

I hope you guys will like it as well! I would love to hear what you think of the story

Woo Boost & Gold Dust: Me Paardjee
Only loosely reffed Gold Dust's head from a google image.

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Previous: What is this Feeling
Next: Ugly Feelings

Things have been... weird. Ever since that day everything has changed. I had tried to make myself believe it was just a one time thing. A fluke, if you will. However when I stumbled into him the day after the incident and it happened again I knew something was wrong with me. My heart was out of control when I was around Aravali. Every little touch, every nice word he said to me would bring me near ecstasy. I tried to tell myself a lot of things to explain it. That it was normal, since he was my best friend. Somehow that didn't seem to be the case though. That maybe I was sick, a fever perhaps. Yet when I asked around, my feelings didn't seem to match with what a fever was like. I was at a loss. It was only around Aravali as well. The other Guardians also played around with me, but when they touched me my heart was as steady as a hammer. It wasn't until we were all hanging around after a day of work that a topic came up that seemed to resemble what I was feeling towards Aravali.

It was me, Aravali, Sanchay, Gold Dust, Gamble and Scott. They were teasing Gamble about liking Chimayi. Joking about his heart skipping a beat when he saw her. About him blushing when she was near. And that his work suffered because he was thinking about her the entire time. Getting Gamble to fluster and fail miserably to defend himself. They were only playing around, none of it had been meant seriously. But I grew horribly silent as I came to the realization that those words perfectly described my feelings towards Aravali. But I couldn't like him. He was my best friend. My tutor. A guy above all. The guys only joked about being gay sometimes. When saving another stallion got a little too close, when one of them said something feminine. But it would always be a joke. I never quite got into those jokes, having no experience on the topic whatsoever. Aravali had asked me some times, about previous girlfriends or me liking a mare. But I'd never been in love before, I had no idea what it would feel like. When I had told him I'd never been attracted to a mare before he told me I was weird but he'd laughed. I wasn't bothered about it though, I wasn't particularly interested in girls anyway. I just didn't know I was particularly interested in Aravali at the time.

My mind was still blown from that night. I didn't want to believe I was in love with Aravali. It would ruin everything. Coming to terms about being gay was something I didn't want to think about. I couldn't even begin to imagine what that would mean for me in its entire meaning. So I shoved that thought way to back of my mind. The more pressing issue was me feeling like this about Aravali. And I wasn't even close to figuring out how to deal with it. It was such a weird mix of euphoria and guilt. Whenever he praised me, my heart would flutter like a maniac but then I would imagine what Aravali would say if he knew what was going on in my head. And then I'd feel down again. It was like a never ending cycle. And even though I wanted to get off , these feelings remained. As a matter of fact they seemed to grow in intensity day by day.

As another day of work ended I was put in a similar scenario as the day I started to become aware of my feelings. It was the end of a work day and Aravali had already mentioned going out with his brother after. I mentally prepared myself as he reached over to ruffle my forelock. For him a friendly gesture, for me so much more. My heart ached as he pulled back, said his goodbye and left. I stared after him, my face burning and my heart pounding. How many times had it been now, that he had made me feel this way? "Miss him already?" I jumped at the sound of Gold Dust's voice. "What? No! Of course not!" I stammered, flustered and desperate to try and calm myself down. I could feel my face heating up even more and could only pray Gold Dust wouldn't notice. His expression as he looked at me was confused though. "What are you getting so flustered for?" he asked, half laughing , half serious. "I'm not flustered!" I replied too quickly and too loudly. It was at that point I realized I had never been prepared for anyone actually finding out about my feelings. And it scared me.

"Boost? Is something wrong?" Gold tilted his head to the side, confused. I forced myself to take a breath before answering this time. "Nothing's wrong. You surprised me", I replied much more composed now. At least I thought so. "Then why are you so red?" he pointed out and, my body failing me, I flushed even more. I didn't have a reply this time. How was I supposed to explain this situation? As I peered up to look at Gold it seemed as if a light had went on in his head and I shuddered in fear. "Wait", he said, looking at me intently. "You actually... about Aravali?" his words weren't as much a question as him putting two and two together. I flinched at the mention of his name unable to form a proper sentence in reply. Dropping my head in defeat I decided to let it be, there was no way to salvage this situation anymore. "Woah", Gold breathed, surprise colouring his voice, I wasn't sure how he would react. Next to Aravali and Sanchay I got along with Gold the best, I could only hope this wouldn't ruin our friendship. " It's not normal, is it? A guy falling in love with another guy", I asked with a pained smile, my voice low. It was Gold's turn to flush slightly at my words, but he composed himself. "Everyone is different. I'm not one to judge but I am surprised, truth be told", his tone was gentle, a slight smile playing around his lips. Relief washed over me, Gold truly was a good friend. It felt as if a huge load fell off my shoulders, finally having said it out loud. "Aravali doesn't know?" he asked me and I shook my head. "All right, let's keep it that way for a while. It'll be our secret okay?" Truly a good friend, I thought. "Thank you, Gold", I dipped my head and he smiled at me. "You don't think I'm weird?" I asked him at which he laughed out loud. "Oh I think you're plenty weird. But not because you like Aravali", he grinned at me which made me giggle. His eyes narrowed warmly and he pulled me into a hug with his neck over mine. "Talk to me about it okay. I'm saying I'll be here for you", he told me before letting go and I don't think I'd ever felt more grateful for someone's kindness.

To be continued~

Next part of Woo's story! I love writing for this smol little cinnamon bun <3
Not everything's roses and sunshine when you fall in love with your same-gendered best friend/tutor. Woo figures out his feelings but is very conflicted about them. Luckily Gold Dust is there to be a good friend :3
Oh my God have I MISSED drawing Gold Dust!! He really needs to get himself a new reference sheet! I love how he turned out here as well, as well as Woo Boost <3 Yep I really enjoyed writing this part and drawing it I hope to have the next part up soonish

I hope you guys will like it as well! I would love to hear what you think of the story

Woo Boost & Gold Dust: Me Paardjee
Only loosely reffed Gold Dust's head from a google image.