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Well, I decided to give painting a try, after a few tips I got, and it's quite different than the way I usually do things... I think it's just right for this piece, but I don't know if I will be doing it often.
Now, about Ben. He is my inner avatar of willpower, wisdom and power in general. He knows a lot more than he is willing to share and I think it's for the best, since I saw glimpses of what he knows and I would prefer not to thread there again... He always acts cool and superior, even though he is pretty short compared to everyone else. He speaks only by thought and is always there when I need him. He wears only that dirty battered up robe around his waist and keep his scimitar at hand, though he rarely uses it.

As for his history, this one is a bit lengthy, but I would recommend people to give it a read, since they might get a hint or two to getting in contact with their own avatars:

Back in College, times were rough and I had a lot of time on my own to think. Some of my friends and I were looking into the way to tap into the supernatural, even though it was just some basic silly research on the internet. I had a feeling there was more to it though, and I bumped into an article on the so called 'inner guide'. In short, it was a way to be able to seek advice from your subconscious self, simply by asking.
That voice in your head, that sends a thought to you when you really need it. Everyone had that experience. When they are pushing themselves, or are cornered and can't see a way out, but then they just 'hear' an advice. Some choose to ignore it and just carry on with what they are doing and end up regretting it. But most of the times, people tend to follow it and then they have a success story to tell later on. That voice was something the article was suggesting can be called at will to seek advice.
I figured, why not give it a go. There was nothing to lose. And it worked! Starting with simple yes or no questions, just thinking about the question, as if you were sending a message to yourself, and then suddenly, a response comes, but you need to listen for it. And it's very different than your own thought... it has a 'voice' of it's own, even though it's just a thought. You can tell it apart. It might be vague, but it's definitely there. After a while, I moved away from yes or no questions, and dialogues started happening, in my head, with myself, but not the usual way. 'He' was glad I finally realized his presence and was willing to communicate. Before this point, I could only hear the thoughts, but then, I could visualize a color, and it was blue.
I shared this with friends I mentioned before, and little by little, they all came in contact with their own inner guides. One of them felt red and that it was a she, other felt green and that it was a he, and the last one couldn't feel a specific color or gender. With time passing and each of us getting to know our guides, as they were apparently unique personalities, our choices started diverging... My statement on it was, and still is 'If this voice is made up, or real, as long as it is beneficial, I see no problem with going a bit mad on the side'.
Each of them, however, gave a trial. A rite of passage, if you will. For me it was being given access to knowledge I was clearly not supposed to be given access to. It drove me to question everything, on a cosmic scale... but I endured, and got past the trial. My friends, though, did not. One of them had an argument with his guide, accused him of being a parasite and a bad influence and just ditched him, preventing any further guidance. The other was given advice to go against his current feelings, because following those feelings will lead to regret. But he refused the advice and since then ceased communication with the guide. The third simply was too much of a skeptic and didn't bother pursuing the guidance.
I however, proceeded to get to know my guide better and after, I think a few months, I was able to visualize him, or at least his upper body. It was as you see it on the picture. He did not want a name, but I decided to give him one, and Ben kind of stuck. It took a lot more to get his full visage in my mind, and at that point, I already had access to the Mindscape itself, and he was no longer alone. But more about that next time.
By now, I happened to run into quite a bit of books/studies/articles regarding contacting 'inner guidance', so I am pretty sure I haven't gone crazy. Or at least as crazy as others that wrote those articles.
Hope this was insightful. If you read all of that, you deserve a cookie

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Well, I decided to give painting a try, after a few tips I got, and it's quite different than the way I usually do things... I think it's just right for this piece, but I don't know if I will be doing it often.
Now, about Ben. He is my inner avatar of willpower, wisdom and power in general. He knows a lot more than he is willing to share and I think it's for the best, since I saw glimpses of what he knows and I would prefer not to thread there again... He always acts cool and superior, even though he is pretty short compared to everyone else. He speaks only by thought and is always there when I need him. He wears only that dirty battered up robe around his waist and keep his scimitar at hand, though he rarely uses it.

As for his history, this one is a bit lengthy, but I would recommend people to give it a read, since they might get a hint or two to getting in contact with their own avatars:

Back in College, times were rough and I had a lot of time on my own to think. Some of my friends and I were looking into the way to tap into the supernatural, even though it was just some basic silly research on the internet. I had a feeling there was more to it though, and I bumped into an article on the so called 'inner guide'. In short, it was a way to be able to seek advice from your subconscious self, simply by asking.
That voice in your head, that sends a thought to you when you really need it. Everyone had that experience. When they are pushing themselves, or are cornered and can't see a way out, but then they just 'hear' an advice. Some choose to ignore it and just carry on with what they are doing and end up regretting it. But most of the times, people tend to follow it and then they have a success story to tell later on. That voice was something the article was suggesting can be called at will to seek advice.
I figured, why not give it a go. There was nothing to lose. And it worked! Starting with simple yes or no questions, just thinking about the question, as if you were sending a message to yourself, and then suddenly, a response comes, but you need to listen for it. And it's very different than your own thought... it has a 'voice' of it's own, even though it's just a thought. You can tell it apart. It might be vague, but it's definitely there. After a while, I moved away from yes or no questions, and dialogues started happening, in my head, with myself, but not the usual way. 'He' was glad I finally realized his presence and was willing to communicate. Before this point, I could only hear the thoughts, but then, I could visualize a color, and it was blue.
I shared this with friends I mentioned before, and little by little, they all came in contact with their own inner guides. One of them felt red and that it was a she, other felt green and that it was a he, and the last one couldn't feel a specific color or gender. With time passing and each of us getting to know our guides, as they were apparently unique personalities, our choices started diverging... My statement on it was, and still is 'If this voice is made up, or real, as long as it is beneficial, I see no problem with going a bit mad on the side'.
Each of them, however, gave a trial. A rite of passage, if you will. For me it was being given access to knowledge I was clearly not supposed to be given access to. It drove me to question everything, on a cosmic scale... but I endured, and got past the trial. My friends, though, did not. One of them had an argument with his guide, accused him of being a parasite and a bad influence and just ditched him, preventing any further guidance. The other was given advice to go against his current feelings, because following those feelings will lead to regret. But he refused the advice and since then ceased communication with the guide. The third simply was too much of a skeptic and didn't bother pursuing the guidance.
I however, proceeded to get to know my guide better and after, I think a few months, I was able to visualize him, or at least his upper body. It was as you see it on the picture. He did not want a name, but I decided to give him one, and Ben kind of stuck. It took a lot more to get his full visage in my mind, and at that point, I already had access to the Mindscape itself, and he was no longer alone. But more about that next time.
By now, I happened to run into quite a bit of books/studies/articles regarding contacting 'inner guidance', so I am pretty sure I haven't gone crazy. Or at least as crazy as others that wrote those articles.
Hope this was insightful. If you read all of that, you deserve a cookie

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