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(I thought that you promised
You would catch me when I'd fall
I thought that you told me
That you'd come when I would call)

(You said it would be brief
You'd be gone for just a bit
But when I'm in this house alone
It makes me want to quit)

(You said it was just business
That you'd be gone for just one day
It's one day much too many
How I wish that you had stayed.)

(All of you screams brightness
You're carefree smile, your assuring grin
It makes me feel impure,
Like you're the angel, and I'm your sin.)

(I pledged that I'd be okay
That I'd never touch a knife
But it's sitting there, and you are not-
It begs to take away my life)

(You always said you loved me
And I'm sure that you still do
But if I'm so weak that I can't survive alone
Then I'm not worthy of you.)

(The blade is cold, and so am I
But there's nowhere that I can go
Crimson pain is flowing down my wrists
On my clothes blood begins to show.)

(Slashes coat my pale wrists
But it isn't yet enough
There's a deeper wall I have to breach
One that's hollow, yet so rough)

(Cuts are flowing on my legs
And all throughout my arm
Would you cry if you saw me here?
Would you shelter me from harm?)

(All of this heartache, all this torture that
I thought that I could take
I'm sorry, love, I broke my vow
But you weren't supposed to see me break.)

(It's growing darker, please, save me
I'm being overcome with fear
My silent tears are watering
How I wish that you were here.)

(Right before I collapse and black out
Before my heart stops without a trace
I see you burst in through the door
Panic's etched throughout your face.)

(When I awaken, all I see
Is walls of complete white
Overhead are monitors
And burning, blinding lights.)

(Am I alive, or am I dead?
But I have nothing to fear
You're sitting at my bedside
And I know that you are here.)

(Your embrace is almost bittersweet,
I hate to see you cry
You're sobbing in my shoulder, saying
"I'd never let you die.")

(My arms are limp, oh, how I wish
I could only hold your hand
But there's too much blood that I've lost
And I can barely stand.)

(Hours turn into days
Days turn into weeks
I'm healing little by little
The scars fade into tiny streaks)

(As I heal, every step
Seems like thousands of miles
But weeks have passed, and when I come home
It's worth it just to see you smile.)

(In my ear you whisper the words I needed
The ones I know that still are true
The most complex ones in our language
The touching phrase of "I love you.")

(All that I almost lost
What that blade was about to take
I'll never sear my vow again
You'll never have to see me break.)

Description
(I thought that you promised
You would catch me when I'd fall
I thought that you told me
That you'd come when I would call)

(You said it would be brief
You'd be gone for just a bit
But when I'm in this house alone
It makes me want to quit)

(You said it was just business
That you'd be gone for just one day
It's one day much too many
How I wish that you had stayed.)

(All of you screams brightness
You're carefree smile, your assuring grin
It makes me feel impure,
Like you're the angel, and I'm your sin.)

(I pledged that I'd be okay
That I'd never touch a knife
But it's sitting there, and you are not-
It begs to take away my life)

(You always said you loved me
And I'm sure that you still do
But if I'm so weak that I can't survive alone
Then I'm not worthy of you.)

(The blade is cold, and so am I
But there's nowhere that I can go
Crimson pain is flowing down my wrists
On my clothes blood begins to show.)

(Slashes coat my pale wrists
But it isn't yet enough
There's a deeper wall I have to breach
One that's hollow, yet so rough)

(Cuts are flowing on my legs
And all throughout my arm
Would you cry if you saw me here?
Would you shelter me from harm?)

(All of this heartache, all this torture that
I thought that I could take
I'm sorry, love, I broke my vow
But you weren't supposed to see me break.)

(It's growing darker, please, save me
I'm being overcome with fear
My silent tears are watering
How I wish that you were here.)

(Right before I collapse and black out
Before my heart stops without a trace
I see you burst in through the door
Panic's etched throughout your face.)

(When I awaken, all I see
Is walls of complete white
Overhead are monitors
And burning, blinding lights.)

(Am I alive, or am I dead?
But I have nothing to fear
You're sitting at my bedside
And I know that you are here.)

(Your embrace is almost bittersweet,
I hate to see you cry
You're sobbing in my shoulder, saying
"I'd never let you die.")

(My arms are limp, oh, how I wish
I could only hold your hand
But there's too much blood that I've lost
And I can barely stand.)

(Hours turn into days
Days turn into weeks
I'm healing little by little
The scars fade into tiny streaks)

(As I heal, every step
Seems like thousands of miles
But weeks have passed, and when I come home
It's worth it just to see you smile.)

(In my ear you whisper the words I needed
The ones I know that still are true
The most complex ones in our language
The touching phrase of "I love you.")

(All that I almost lost
What that blade was about to take
I'll never sear my vow again
You'll never have to see me break.)