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A little while back I saw a Norwegian documentary called "Jeg Mot Meg" which means "I Against Me". Eight young Norwegians documented their daily life while facing psychological problems. They would all meet once a week with a psychologist in Oslo sharing and talking about their challenges. This documentary really hit a spot in me. I realised how many people that are daily fighting these beyond difficult fights. Facing their challenges all alone and might not have the strength to overcome them on their own. Even though the eight young Norwegians all had different psychological problems one thing they all shared was the feeling that they were alone with their problems. Sharing and learning that others felt just as lost as them, and some even more lost, really helped them all.

I immediately wanted to do something. But what can I do? I thought that if maybe I could help share and show others that they are not alone with their problems and challenges, even though it feels like it, maybe that could do just a little bit. Maybe just for one person.

Some amazing people from all over the world have shared their stories, their challenges, and how or what made them get to "the other side". I'm going to share these stories with you. This is someones personal experiences so please be respectful.

It will be about relationship.I'm a person who's always felt the need to love and to be loved but had never found anyone to share this with me. I met this guy online, we became extremely close friends and my feelings started to grow. We were not living in the same country. Here starts already the dark place so to speak. I was unable to express my feelings but on the other hand, he was telling about his feelings for other girls. It was just as if I was in line, waiting for my turn, without knowing if it would be ever my turn.There were the times we could meet (and even if it was so great every time, we were still only friends), the times we were talking on internet, sharing our struggles, etc. The more the time was going on, the harder it was for me to keep my feelings inside. Then came that one time, after visiting him, he sent me a message where he was wondering if we could be more than friends. I had felt it was a very important decision for me to answer him the right thing and while I had at last revealed my feelings, a few months after, he realised that he had been wrong and that he didn't want to change our friendship into a relationship.This period of time lasted about one year. The first weeks after the news I was completely depressed. All my hopes were down, I knew I would end up alone for all my life because if it wasn't him it would be nobody else. I was feeling dirty because nobody wanted of me and because I had revealed my feelings so much, I was almost ashamed of it. Our friendship could restart after a few months but it was still very hard for me. I was feeling I couldn't get rid of all these dark thoughts and most of all, I wasn't understanding why it couldn't work between us two. Again, I had the feeling that if it wasn't him, it would be nobody else and I knew he had so much consideration for me that I wasn't understanding. But little by little, I was becoming hopeless.Then, it happened quite fast. During only 2-3 months, he got new friends in his "real" life, I felt he had a new interest in a girl and that I was left aside little by little. Even if he assured me it was not the case, I couldn't help but being extremely bad and maybe even more depressed than before. Besides, it had been a year and a half since I had graduated and I still wasn't finding a job, I was staying home the whole day, not moving on with anything. I was simply stagnating with everything in my life: my work and my relationships. I was like in a closed box or falling endlessly into a well, not being able to reach what was the most important to me.At that moment where I couldn't stand it anymore, I got the help of my Mom who lead me towards the decision to move in abroad, to my friend's country. Even if it was just for a couple of year. But at least to be physically closer to me (because it is also what I was missing), to have a new fresh start, with a fresh atmosphere and maybe different opportunities for work.I could move 7 months after. I could spend more time with my friend (actually, much more time than what I would have expected) and only 3 little months after my moving, he told me that he was now certain about his feelings for me. We've been together for 20 months now, we live together for almost a year, my professional life is not perfect but gratifying enough, and I'm happier than ever.
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Materials:
- Gouache
- Watercolor
- Pen

Description
A little while back I saw a Norwegian documentary called "Jeg Mot Meg" which means "I Against Me". Eight young Norwegians documented their daily life while facing psychological problems. They would all meet once a week with a psychologist in Oslo sharing and talking about their challenges. This documentary really hit a spot in me. I realised how many people that are daily fighting these beyond difficult fights. Facing their challenges all alone and might not have the strength to overcome them on their own. Even though the eight young Norwegians all had different psychological problems one thing they all shared was the feeling that they were alone with their problems. Sharing and learning that others felt just as lost as them, and some even more lost, really helped them all.

I immediately wanted to do something. But what can I do? I thought that if maybe I could help share and show others that they are not alone with their problems and challenges, even though it feels like it, maybe that could do just a little bit. Maybe just for one person.

Some amazing people from all over the world have shared their stories, their challenges, and how or what made them get to "the other side". I'm going to share these stories with you. This is someones personal experiences so please be respectful.

It will be about relationship.I'm a person who's always felt the need to love and to be loved but had never found anyone to share this with me. I met this guy online, we became extremely close friends and my feelings started to grow. We were not living in the same country. Here starts already the dark place so to speak. I was unable to express my feelings but on the other hand, he was telling about his feelings for other girls. It was just as if I was in line, waiting for my turn, without knowing if it would be ever my turn.There were the times we could meet (and even if it was so great every time, we were still only friends), the times we were talking on internet, sharing our struggles, etc. The more the time was going on, the harder it was for me to keep my feelings inside. Then came that one time, after visiting him, he sent me a message where he was wondering if we could be more than friends. I had felt it was a very important decision for me to answer him the right thing and while I had at last revealed my feelings, a few months after, he realised that he had been wrong and that he didn't want to change our friendship into a relationship.This period of time lasted about one year. The first weeks after the news I was completely depressed. All my hopes were down, I knew I would end up alone for all my life because if it wasn't him it would be nobody else. I was feeling dirty because nobody wanted of me and because I had revealed my feelings so much, I was almost ashamed of it. Our friendship could restart after a few months but it was still very hard for me. I was feeling I couldn't get rid of all these dark thoughts and most of all, I wasn't understanding why it couldn't work between us two. Again, I had the feeling that if it wasn't him, it would be nobody else and I knew he had so much consideration for me that I wasn't understanding. But little by little, I was becoming hopeless.Then, it happened quite fast. During only 2-3 months, he got new friends in his "real" life, I felt he had a new interest in a girl and that I was left aside little by little. Even if he assured me it was not the case, I couldn't help but being extremely bad and maybe even more depressed than before. Besides, it had been a year and a half since I had graduated and I still wasn't finding a job, I was staying home the whole day, not moving on with anything. I was simply stagnating with everything in my life: my work and my relationships. I was like in a closed box or falling endlessly into a well, not being able to reach what was the most important to me.At that moment where I couldn't stand it anymore, I got the help of my Mom who lead me towards the decision to move in abroad, to my friend's country. Even if it was just for a couple of year. But at least to be physically closer to me (because it is also what I was missing), to have a new fresh start, with a fresh atmosphere and maybe different opportunities for work.I could move 7 months after. I could spend more time with my friend (actually, much more time than what I would have expected) and only 3 little months after my moving, he told me that he was now certain about his feelings for me. We've been together for 20 months now, we live together for almost a year, my professional life is not perfect but gratifying enough, and I'm happier than ever.
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Materials:
- Gouache
- Watercolor
- Pen