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Published: 2016-01-28 15:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 147786; Favourites: 9263; Downloads: 1123
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You've done your best with the tools you've got, but what if it's still not good enough?
Ask for help.
Today I'm going into hospital.
I am being taken to stay in a psychiatric ward again for a bit while I try and get my brain better.
Everyday is tough, I've tried really hard to do nurturing things and stay positive. I think I've done pretty well, considering. But I need to accept that I can't do it on my own at the moment, I need help.
Doctors are not sure of my diagnosis, my symptoms are more complex than depression/anxiety. I'm not worried about what they'll label me with, I just want to get better. I've started writing about my experiences, which is helping. I'll share it all with you when I'm stable again. Though presently I can't begin to describe how horrible it's been; except to offer a small insight: I feel like death would be better than a life like this.
Yup. I need help.
This illness has taken so much from me. I don't want to let it take my life too...
Peace, Love and Asking for Help,
Blue
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This piece should be for the stubborn people who feel like asking for help would make them weak, even if they're on the lowest point, but normally its an act and they say it will make them weak because they're afraid others will judge them for their problem.
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Beautiful !
Everything is beautiful, colors/tones/shadings/lights ... character pose/gesture/attitude/expression ... atmosphere ... intensity ... your art talking so much !
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Remember there will always be people there to support you. Whether you want them to or not.
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...and then there's 4chan and r/edgymemes, where topics like suicide and mental health are a never-ending gold mine for dark humor...
...not that i see it as a problem, tho
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You're disturbing the comment section. If you can't understand a think or illiterate please leave. This isn't a place for you.
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>If you can't understand a think or illiterate please leave.
Nice english m8. I'm no english teacher, but the proper way to say it is "If you can't understand a thing or are illiterate, please leave." Since your profile states you're from Bangladesh, it's safe to assume the english language is not your native tongue.
Also, it's called "dark humor." You'll understand it and its presence in the internet eventually.
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Oh really? I'm sure telling someone illiterate is better than messing with someone's feelings.
I never said I was an English teacher or that I'm better in English, dude.
You're just ignoring Blues problems over depression and making fun in the comment section.
That's what made me mad and harshly told you illiterate.
And the way you write comments looks like you really are illiterate.
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I hope you get better soon! Your art is amazing BTW!
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When you try your best but you don't succeed...
When you get what you want, but not what you need...
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Love this! Get better, you have all of my love and support
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Awww... I wish you'll get well as soon as possible é_è
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I hope you get well soon. I love that drawing.
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Asking for help is the bravest thing a person can do, so I guess that means your brave as hell
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Hope you get all the help you need to feel better! Good luck, stay strong and hopefully, get better soon!
My hope is that since this is a near two year old post. You've been feeling way better by nowadays. Still felt like the message was worth saying!
And again, have another *Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug!* <3
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Never be afraid to ask for help. You'd be surprised at finding out who is travelling that same road as you.
Admitting you need help is the first step. That first step and asking for help are big acts of bravery.
Best of luck in your journey to healing. We're rooting for you!
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Gorgeous Artwork
And good luck to the future! You'll get through it I promise!
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I understand the kind of suffering you're going through on a very personal level. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and have suffered under the weight of depression all my life (but worse in the last few years). I don't know your precise symptoms, so giving advice can be difficult, but I have recently found that talking back to that inner voice which constantly tells me how worthless I am, does help. I'm not saying get into conversations with yourself, but vocally reject the voice's statements when they are made - either by saying "bullshit, that's not the truth and I reject that narrative!" or saying "you're right but those horrible things are in my past and I'm moving forward without them". Fighting the voices in silence tends to be the default but it isn't as helpful (for me, at least) as speaking out against them.
What I can tell you is, if you've not done it yet, I wouldn't recommend Electro Convulsive Therapy - it only made me *more* depressed than I had been before, but also stole two months worth of memories from me and left huge holes in my long term memories - some of which I've yet to get back two years later. But, worst of all, I used to be an avid reader and skilled writer (told so by professors and authors) prior to my ECT but now cannot read a book for more than 15 minutes and have barely been interested in or able to write anything. I had thought that nothing could be worse than how I felt prior to the treatment - I was wrong. I have managed to recover a little in the last year but that has been about hard work in changing the way I perceive myself and the world and not the electro-shock.
I will warn you that, should you feel compelled to do so, killing yourself is a lot harder than it seems - harder than you'd think it should be - and if you fail, you'll end up with a bunch of horrible repercussions for trying ... so better not to do it, in general.
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Oh wow. I've been hospitalized for treatment about 5 times. I hope you'll get the help you need and feel better! Death is not the answer even if things feel that way. I deal with bipolar depression and have anxiety. I'll be praying for you. 💕
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Wow!! You truly very talented person❤️ I invite you to join my group and share your wonderful art with us 
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I had no idea. Things will get better. I promise.
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Having read the 4 parts of your story so far, this is such a sweetly-sad expression of the day you posted it. I'm so glad you got help and hope you're continuing to grow and heal.
Thank you for encouraging others to get help, too. Myself included.
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Things get better, I promise. Love you and praying for you <3
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Incredibly brilliant! How we all feel once in awhile when depression takes over.
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it's kinda ironic when you invert the colours. it looks as if she's glowing in the middle of destruction.
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Man!.....you certainly know what your doing with your colors. I see a lot of experience that it must be like your 100th painting lol. Good work!
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I hope things get better for you, your art inspired me lots you can't even imagine. I am more than willing to help in any possible way. We, your fans/watchers will all be there for you. With lots of love, ~Tyrann
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It gets better, I really hope things clear up for you soon. Sending love and good thoughts your way. ♥
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I just want to say that ever since I stumbled across your Deviantart page, my mind has been constantly awash with ideas. You have inspired me loads during the past few months, and if someday I create artwork that is even half as good as yours, that would be the most amazing thing.
Your art always seems to have some deeper meaning, like it's not just a pretty drawing, but it feels like you've poured your whole heart and soul into each image.
Thank you ever so much for all the inspiration. Get well soon, and keep inspiring people.
- Mo
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Hope you get better. You seem like an amazing person. I just stumbled upon your art and it's already taken away my heart. Get better soon, bc if you leave, our souls will leave with you.
~Mia
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