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Published: 2016-01-28 15:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 149066; Favourites: 9260; Downloads: 1123
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You've done your best with the tools you've got, but what if it's still not good enough?
Ask for help.
Today I'm going into hospital.
I am being taken to stay in a psychiatric ward again for a bit while I try and get my brain better.
Everyday is tough, I've tried really hard to do nurturing things and stay positive. I think I've done pretty well, considering. But I need to accept that I can't do it on my own at the moment, I need help.
Doctors are not sure of my diagnosis, my symptoms are more complex than depression/anxiety. I'm not worried about what they'll label me with, I just want to get better. I've started writing about my experiences, which is helping. I'll share it all with you when I'm stable again. Though presently I can't begin to describe how horrible it's been; except to offer a small insight: I feel like death would be better than a life like this.
Yup. I need help.
This illness has taken so much from me. I don't want to let it take my life too...
Peace, Love and Asking for Help,
Blue
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I really hope you get better, Of course there's things in life that aren't good but, you have to think about all the good things in life too. 
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This is very beautiful !!! And I really hope you will get better <3 !
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Oh Blue. I'm very VERY sorry that you're going through this.... it might be PTSD (Post Traumic Stress Disorder) since your depression and anxiety you said started with some situations at your home. It might also be schizophrenia, i'm not exactly sure. I'm very sorry that you're going through all of this, and I hope they'll find out what you're going through. Just remember, we're all here for you. ^w^
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I'm so freaking proud of you getting help! I admire everything that you just said about finding help and having tried your best. You are doing a wonderful thing for yourself and your life by getting the help you need and deserve 
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Death is no option dear!
Keep fighting! We all support you!
It would be horrible to lose you!
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Oh I'm so sorry that things haven't been going well for you, and I do hope that you get better soon. Honestly I admire how you've been able to pull through so much, and I do hope you know how much you are appreciated. I'm glad you have found someone that can help you and I really hope that things get better for you! I really like this piece of art that you did, you can really get a lot from the emotion in her eyes and even the color palette has an effect. Great work and, as I said, I hope that things get better!
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I've been clinically diagnosed with PTSD (due to long term abuse as a child), and the anxiety and depression that follows as well. Add social anxiety and night terrors onto it and I can be a right mess. It's been hard staying sane and functional, I've managed to do it without medication thanks to sheer strength of will and a lot of very supportive friends (who thankfully with everyones crazy hours, are around nearly around the clock).
It's hard, and sometimes you realize you need help. I used to be stubborn and shut everyone out...my problems were my problems and to hell with everyone. Though after a few lonely hard years, I realized how much they helped me get through every day just by being around, and after knowing everything they help nearly 1,000x more.
It's hard to struggle through the days, its harder to do it alone, but its even harder to realize and ask for help. Good on for you doing it! Things can be hard, but trust me, you'll break through the heavy cloud and see the sun and the blue sky once more. I'm sure so many will agree, we all love you and hope you feel better and we're always here if you need or want someone to chat with.
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I know it sounds like an odd thing to say considering I don't actually know you, but the world would definitely not be the same without you, Blue. I hope everything go well.
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There is no shame in needing help. In fact, I think you're brave to seek it and share your experiences with us. Remember Blue, we've got your back. You're not alone. You've been a real inspiration to me and so many others,and you deserve to know that. May you be on the road to recovery soon. And if you ever need me, just send me a note. I'll do what I can.
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... I'm sorry to hear about this, but I'm afraid I don't know what to say. All I can tell you right now is that we- me, and everyone else who has left a comment- are all here for you when you need us. Please don't forget this, and please don't give up. We'll try to help you in any way we know how. Whenever you feel like sharing your story with us, please don't hesitate. And you take all the time you need until you are ready.
We all care about you, Miss Blue. We wish you nothing but the best.
Please, get well soon.
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I might not know what is your reason for depression yet I hope you can overcome it
As I did few years ago after losing loved one, maybe i am better now but up till now it will be 10 years i couldn't find person who could fill gap in my existence.
Doctors didn't know how to help me and friends which i thought will stay with me, blamed me for what happen that time, and turn away on me.
I did try a few times to kill myself yet failed. Without family or friends there was nothing for me. Regrets are still dwelling inside of me even after all these years.
I wish i could change what happen or at least beg for forgiveness and before i knew all these feeling began to be my fuel to live.
So doctors might not help you, the only person which can help you it's you. When you overcome all sadness and other bad feelings.
You will find something new which will give you hope and will to live again.
Hope you will be better when we meet again on one of ComiCons.
Sorry for me English
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Beautiful colors and painting style!
And I hope you get well soon.. being sick is never fun. Remain strong despite this hardship
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I wish I knew what to say, but... I'll just say that...
A) Beautiful drawing.
B) I admire and am grateful for your being able to admit that it's hard and that you need help.. I can't speak for others, but, as sad as it is to hear that things are still very rough for you, I think it's much better than having to hear that you're gone forever.. Please keep fighting, and come back to us when you can
We love you
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You can't give up! There are so many people out there, real people who love and look out for you. even in these little comment sections, every single one in its form will show that there is care and love.
I look up to you so much, not just as an artist, but a beautiful, gorgeous and expressive person. A soul who's willing to share with the world their experiences, a poetic being who possesses great light and vivid colour. You're my friend from the moment I met you at the Hyper Japan Convention. There are many more who wish to meet you and just to be in your presence, heck. If you had a meet and greet happening somewhere, just to be with you for a little while as friends and just talk I'd be there. Even if you just wanted one personal friend, I'd be happy to spend time with you. ^.^
What's most important right now though, is that you find some love and confidence in yourself, something somewhere in you, is going to be something that will always allow you to feel stronger, no matter how long it may take to find that, you will, as long as you keep believing.
Not only do the people already living wish to meet you... but people of the future too, my sweet. Maybe someday, even your own wonderful child.
Stay strong DestinyBlue!
~ Peach.
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I hope things start to look up soon. Stay strong <3
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We are here for you. Keep on working hard and doing what you love the most. You are an inspiration. You are lovely and beautiful. You shine as bright as your art. You have such a great talent that has help a lot of people young and old. This piece in particular is just what I needed today. Stay colorful and vibrant. Shine, fly high, speak loud. I mean this all. I'm not just saying it. I hope I reach you cause you and your art have given a new light to my life.
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The piece looks wonderful,
As for depression, I know it's really tough to overcome, like stumbling through a dark forest with no idea where to go, but you're really tough, and you've been doing so well, and now you're going to get even more help. I know it's absolutely horrifying, and it might be super hard to talk about, but you'll make it through, and while you're never going to forget the days/months/years, you were depressed, you'll get better, you'll be able to say, hey, I'm feeling like shit today, and I just need to have a mental health day, but it's okay. Or, if (and god forbid) you self harm(ed) you'll be able to resist the urges, and stop yourself from doing it.
And you'll feel proud of yourself for coming so far. And you WILL get there, you're doing so great already.
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I just want to hug you
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I am glad that you know when you need help and that you are seeking a way to make things better. I wish I could do something to really help your condition improve, but from the other side of a computer screen I know I won't have much of an impact.
You are an inspiration to me and many others, take the time to get well so you can inspire many more.
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Sending you hugs and prayers, Blue. Feel better soon <3
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I really want to fix you, I really do. But I hope that you will pull through and that you can move on from your days in the hospital.
I have all three of your prints on my wall above my bed. Which reminds me of the two encounters with you in Manchester and Ghent.
My Moogle stuffed toys will cheer you on.
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Moogleeeesssssssss
Sorry had to. xD
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We'll be here when you get back.
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You're the strongest person I know! I also know that your brave, and you shouldn't give up! You can do it, and you will! I hope that whatever it is that you will be diagnosed with isn't too serious, and you can get better soon! You deserve it more than anything! Your art is very creative, and powerful. Thanks to you, I was convinced that I'm not the only one and many people have it worse, and I should be thankful for the situation that I'm in. You are my inspiration, and you've encouraged me to live on. You're amazing, and I wish you nothing but the best. I love you, Blue.
Wishing you the best of luck,
Fatimah
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Stay strong for all of us, Blue, please.
your an inspiration to too much people
to count, and they're counting on you
to get better.
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It sounds really rough, but I know you can get through it because you are a strong individual.
Just know all of your fans are here for you no matter what.
Wishing you the best Destinyblue~!
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Remember that the Lord God will always be there with you. Everyone needs help especially you that it's difficult to find the peace you deserve. May God bless you on your healing journey and I'll always wait for you. This made my day as I try to also block out all the negative things coming at me. You've become such an inspiration to me as it inspires me to look for professional help. Anyways, you have my blessings and good luck.
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I've been following you for a while and I just want to tell you how brave you are to me. Please keep being strong, you are an example for everyone out there. Love you, and wishing you a better health
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You go ahead and get better so we can enjoy you and your art for longer~
Sending lots of love and positive vibes!
We hope you get better~
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Your art is beautiful, as always.
I hope you will get better...
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Don't worry. You got an army behind you and we are your soldiers
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Please write here how all of us could help you.
P.S.
With hopes for good wealth from Odessa, Ukraine.
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you dont get how happy I am when you uppload, it made my day, thank you!
I told my sibling about my problems 2 days ago, I feel a bit scared about whats going to happen, but im telling myself its going to be fine ^_^
hope you get better soon!
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Whatever the result might be, you are not alone dear, please remember that <3
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You will get the help and support that a beautiful person like you deserves. You are not alone, asking for help is the best thing to do in situations like this. I know that you can overcome this. It will be alright
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"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you"
this song realy helped me in a terrible moment of my life.When i lost my dad i was so mad ... all my mistakes were dragging me down.
hope it can help you too
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We have your back! I wish you the best for the future!
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Don't give up, just keep pushing and you WILL get through this.
If you keep showing how you feel it will be easier for you to let the bad things go.
You got this~
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