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Published: 2016-01-28 15:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 148988; Favourites: 9260; Downloads: 1123
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You've done your best with the tools you've got, but what if it's still not good enough?


Ask for help.



Today I'm going into hospital.


I am being taken to stay in a psychiatric ward again for a bit while I try and get my brain better.


Everyday is tough, I've tried really hard to do nurturing things and stay positive. I think I've done pretty well, considering. But I need to accept that I can't do it on my own at the moment, I need help. 


Doctors are not sure of my diagnosis, my symptoms are more complex than depression/anxiety. I'm not worried about what they'll label me with, I just want to get better. I've started writing about my experiences, which is helping. I'll share it all with you when I'm stable again. Though presently I can't begin to describe how horrible it's been; except to offer a small insight: I feel like death would be better than a life like this.

Yup. I need help.

This illness has taken so much from me. I don't want to let it take my life too...


Peace, Love and Asking for Help,

Blue


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Comments: 746

Triggerz02 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 19:08:36 +0000 UTC]

  

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Yumi-Aelita In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 19:04:26 +0000 UTC]

I understand how you feel and believe me I know it's tough but stay strong and keep beleving

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Cinnawren In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 19:02:02 +0000 UTC]

You're such a wonderful person, Blue. I wish you the best of luck and hope you feel happier soon 

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FunAnnieh585 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 19:01:59 +0000 UTC]

My best wishes and good vibes for you, Blue. I know you'll get through this; hope you get better really soon. Stay strong!

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TimelordFandango [2016-01-28 18:57:21 +0000 UTC]

Get well soon, Blue!

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Pure-Fire-Legend [2016-01-28 18:57:17 +0000 UTC]

Keep fighting

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Sukkutte [2016-01-28 18:56:16 +0000 UTC]

I can't do much but send all my good vives trough this comment I wish you get better very soon, yuo are strong a fighter and we know this won't take your life away.

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RAMWOC87 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:54:26 +0000 UTC]

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DestinyDash1 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:53:57 +0000 UTC]

I am here to help you <3

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W-Rabbitt In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:49:38 +0000 UTC]

All the best I can do is sending all the good emotions I can produce to thank you for all these drawings who makes me feel better!
<3

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AChevalier In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:49:17 +0000 UTC]

you're so strong, you're a fighter, you're a good person and I hope and pray along with thousands of others who genuinely care about you that you can find some peace and a spark of happiness to hold on to while your getting help.
I don't know how it all has affected you personally, it hits us all in different ways, but you helped save me from completely disappearing in my personal black hole.

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charmdemon [2016-01-28 18:47:29 +0000 UTC]

All the best to you, you lovely and wonderful person. 
Your art is amazing but also relatable. Do get well and continue to work on a better you ^-^.

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Charlotte-Nikki [2016-01-28 18:42:19 +0000 UTC]

I hope you get the help you need Blue!  

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Pinkieshy345 [2016-01-28 18:37:04 +0000 UTC]

wish you the best Blue! ;;v;;

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msimoneaux20 [2016-01-28 18:35:38 +0000 UTC]

I hope the doctors can help you Blue, you deserve to live a happy, normal life. The main focus is to try to stay happy and look forward to getting better.

Take care.

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Paitent115 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:33:47 +0000 UTC]

I seen your artwork everyday i log on and now seeing the message on this piece of your artwork tell your expression so much about what happening to you now. I hope this message from a dA user cheers you as i know how those feelings can wreck that person life, please be positive and stay strong

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Shadow-Walker-22 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:32:28 +0000 UTC]

You're not alone. We are with you!    

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wandzie In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:29:36 +0000 UTC]

I'm so so so sorry, I feel like this a lot. All your art is just beautiful and just makes me relate so much <3 I really hope you make it through, we all love you <3

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Konarika [2016-01-28 18:28:48 +0000 UTC]

I hope you feel better soon... This looks absolutely gorgeous!

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Colonel-Knight-Rider In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 18:22:49 +0000 UTC]

You are in my prayers, ma'am.  And I applaud your efforts to stay positive in spite of what sounds like something that's been plaguing you since before you joined DA.

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DeviantOnceAgain [2016-01-28 18:18:03 +0000 UTC]

Keep fighting! It might not mean much, but you will be in my prayers.
Get better soon! ♥

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EpicWolfOfDarkness [2016-01-28 18:14:31 +0000 UTC]

Everything will get better, don't worry. I haven't really been feeling the best recently either, I've been worrying about way too many things. But I'm trying to stay positive, and I think you should try too.

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Tracy4angel [2016-01-28 18:10:37 +0000 UTC]

Awesome!

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SadBLACKsheep [2016-01-28 18:05:52 +0000 UTC]

I love your art!! I hope you get better,sweetheart..sorry if it doesn't help but,you are not alone! I wish you all the best~!     

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winxsome [2016-01-28 18:01:02 +0000 UTC]

you can get better you are anyway do you ever get the feeling when you get nice comments and you feel happy and when you draw do you feel overmoon and cant wait to share ?  then you are healing hope this helps and your art inspires me to draw

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StarForce97 [2016-01-28 18:00:51 +0000 UTC]

Those with the will to live know that they can end their suffering with help. Please feel better and stay determined.

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They-Call-Me-Oddy [2016-01-28 17:59:00 +0000 UTC]

You are a strong, amazing person and I know you can beat this. Sometimes things just take some time, but I'm sure you know that already. We all love you here, and hope/pray for a wholesome recovery for you, dear Blue.  

I don't know if you have ever tried to or if you even have any desire to or not but.. when I was in a very unhealthy mental state several years ago, and I thought it would never, ever end, and even though I wasn't even sure I believed or not, I took it all to God and told Him EVERYTHING. As if He could hear me, as if He might save me. And He took my heart, my mind, my soul, and made me realize what I needed to do to get set back on the road of recovery. It was not easy to see how much I really needed help, but it was so worth it. Sometimes lessons are learned the hard way but either way you grow from it and, speaking from personal experience, God can take your broken pieces and make you stronger, wiser, and happier than ever before. 

Anyways... you are in our thoughts and there is loads of love being sent your way  

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Kasardian In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:57:20 +0000 UTC]

You'r art is so beautiful! But I hope that you'll get better. It's good that you know and can accept it when you need help. Well anyway, I hope that you'll find a reason that makes life worth it and wins the anxiety/depression. 

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bunnyb133 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:55:31 +0000 UTC]

I'm so glad you went for help! I couldn't imagine a world without the wonderful, thoughtful Blue!

We all love you very much!

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Spirit-Of-Cat In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:52:51 +0000 UTC]

Maybe it feels awful now, but I know you can, and will get better! <3
I have much faith in you, and don't you dare give up after all this effort, okay? :')
Love you too, and be strong!

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Ced-Didou In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:46:51 +0000 UTC]

You're not alone, blue !

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Sapphiet In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:46:31 +0000 UTC]

I hope you get better soon

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faeldra In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:41:56 +0000 UTC]

We all care about you Blue. I've got you in my heart, I promise C:

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Saphyrae In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:41:34 +0000 UTC]

I really hope you get better soon. You're a great artist and an even greater person, and we're all totally here for you.  

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Haelyonn In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:41:24 +0000 UTC]

Wishing you the best, Blue 

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J-D-Hann In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:40:21 +0000 UTC]

 All my love and prayers are with you during this time of need. 

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Purinblood In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:39:02 +0000 UTC]

We're all here for you, Blue. Get well soon.

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Leslie24FanFic In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:38:47 +0000 UTC]

Blue, first of all I love your art, it's so beautiful and colorful and it just makes me so happy to see. I really hope you feel better, you are doing the right thing, asking for help. The first step to solving a problem is recognizing there is one, as one Will McAvoy said. You are loved from all around the world, I wish you best of luck on your way to recovery and just a little reminder. I'll be with you ever step of the journey. Sending all my love, TWP

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Grendelkin In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:38:03 +0000 UTC]

I can only wish you the best and praise your strength in seeking help.

If you want to talk, pm me anytime and I'll try to answer asap...

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daphnie816 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:35:20 +0000 UTC]

I've had depression / bipolar since I was 16 (15 years). I've been down to the bottom and back up. I almost succeeded in a suicide attempt. I've been in hospitals and mental wards multiple times because of my illness. What I've learned is, you're not your illness. Sometimes it feels like that, but there's more to you than that. ***They're not labeling "you" ***  They're giving a name to the disorder that is affecting your life. If you don't know what the problem is, you won't know how to begin to fix it. They're giving you a place to start from so you know what you're dealing with and what you have to work with to overcome. *** You're not broken because you might need medication. You're not weak because you need help from other people. *** It took me 14 years to understand this, but when I did, I began to finally build the life I wanted. I still struggle with it every day, but I'm determined not to go back to that place, so I fight and fight and fight. 

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Wings-of-Change12 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:30:00 +0000 UTC]

I hope you find a way to get better! That is a terrible mindset to have. Life is so much better and to feel like it's not is just hard to take. Please get better! Your art is amazing and has so much meaning.

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Schneeflocke96 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:28:49 +0000 UTC]

Probably it is the least, for what you care, but I love the colors, I love the Hands, cause I can't draw hands, I love the eyes, and I love the whole drawing. I've tried something like that several times, but everytime it looked like some dirty stuff, you find in adult magazins and you make it look simply and perfectly.

Please be careful with yourself, and get better.  

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Looking4Work In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:27:15 +0000 UTC]

Blue, I only wish I could help you get better.
I know that feeling. I've been through it, too.
But I'm still here, thanks to the help I've gotten.

You are loved by a hundred thousand people all over the world who only want you to be well.
You are in our hearts, our thoughts and our prayers.

Take all the time you need. We'll be waiting. 

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CyrinaM In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:26:39 +0000 UTC]

Glad you're so willing to do what it takes to get better because it's impossible to go at it alone. Hang in there! You'll be in our thoughts and sending you all the best wishes ^3^

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Miko-The-Fox In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:25:23 +0000 UTC]

Good luck in the hospital.

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elf4god In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:18:28 +0000 UTC]

We wish you the best Blue!

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ILuvGimp2 In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:16:59 +0000 UTC]

Best wishes to you.

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Polabear-loves-art In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:16:05 +0000 UTC]

Awwh good luck, Blue!

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Daffolyn In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:06:08 +0000 UTC]

Take care sweetheart, I hope you'll find the right people who can help you <3
If someone is kind to me when I feel sad I just start crying. I'd want to cheer you up with nice words and love to give but what if all this love from everybody makes you cry even more ahh
So uhh you better get better soon or or I will eat all your favourite foods in stead of making them for you!
I suck at this
Welp, I sure wish you find someone who doesn't suck at this <3

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Hardwing In reply to ??? [2016-01-28 17:05:04 +0000 UTC]

Good luck.

I hope you feel better soon!

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