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Published: 2016-01-28 15:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 148936; Favourites: 9260; Downloads: 1123
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You've done your best with the tools you've got, but what if it's still not good enough?
Ask for help.
Today I'm going into hospital.
I am being taken to stay in a psychiatric ward again for a bit while I try and get my brain better.
Everyday is tough, I've tried really hard to do nurturing things and stay positive. I think I've done pretty well, considering. But I need to accept that I can't do it on my own at the moment, I need help.
Doctors are not sure of my diagnosis, my symptoms are more complex than depression/anxiety. I'm not worried about what they'll label me with, I just want to get better. I've started writing about my experiences, which is helping. I'll share it all with you when I'm stable again. Though presently I can't begin to describe how horrible it's been; except to offer a small insight: I feel like death would be better than a life like this.
Yup. I need help.
This illness has taken so much from me. I don't want to let it take my life too...
Peace, Love and Asking for Help,
Blue
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You will get better. Even if it's only a little bit, your friends here on dA will help you as best as we can from all corners of the world. I won't say 'stay strong' because I know from personal experience how much that hurts. I saw a quote that describes this well, and I think it describes you well too: "Crying doesn't mean you're weak. It means you've been strong for too long." It's okay to let it out, because you have to let it out and let go of it to start healing.
We're here for you, Blue. We won't leave you when you need us most. Remember that your art has given us all something, especially me.
We love you. And don't you forget it! 
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it's okay to be weak-putting up a strong front sometimes hurts us in the end. just be yourself, no matter what.
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I'm not going to say 'be strong' because if u need to be weak for a moment to get through this, then BE weak. Be strong again when it's time. I know distance and not knowing one another is a factor in the equation but we all love you Destiny, even though we don't know you personally. We were brought in by your art but we stay for the woman behind it. every work you produce is beautiful to me, your pain isn't but the way you express it is. Some people are hard hearted and run off people who are hurting but it turns out they are the ones hurting the most.
You say you're reaching out for help, I feel VERY limited with how I can actually help but if there's anything I can do let me know, I personally came to your page because all the things you post resonate with how I feel as well. I don't express with art like you do -I write- but if my songs had a physical appearance I think some would look like some of your paintings. were here for you love, we all have your back. Rest and get better. and dont end your ouwn life, the world has lost too many lights. we dont want to lose you....
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We love you, Blue! You can always ask us for advice because I'm positive some of us have experienced what you are! Love ya!
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poor blue be well my dear we are all hoping for you and your brain to get well soon my dear just keep smiling and drawing your work is beautiful and inspiring be well * offers a big hug*
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You might have BPD, like I do. If that ends up being the case, try DBT. I'm on a waitlist for it, it's supposed to be very helpful.
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Oh my goodness...
I'm sorry that you've faced so much struggle...
It's... horrible, that people have to be put into these sorts of things...
At the same time though, it is nice that... because we're forced to rely on one another... we remember that we can find lots of... nice things in others...
I... understand that it must be... really hard right now, so just take your time and, it may sound really dumb, but if you can smile... even something like that, just at some small, insignificant thing that you found peculiar... it helps sometimes to just smile a little, heh...
I'm sorry that you've been going through lots of rough times, and I... trust that you start to feel better soon... ^^
A soul as bright as yours shouldn't be put out...
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You're not alone. My entire life from as far back as I can remember has been like this. Its hard and lately I too have been thinking is it really worth the struggle or is li orated. Sometimes think death isn't given enough credit. You are not alone! All 16 yrs of my life no psychiatrist has been able to diagnose me with anything. Other than the obvious, self harm, depression, and anxiety. Just keep telling yourself one or another it has to get better. I know that's the only thing that has kept me going. I've found that with people like us.... we have those few people in our life we NEED. once we meet them we don't want to ever loose them because somehow they make life more worthwhile. And then there are those we CANT have in our life, those who make us wish we would die more than we've felt on our own. One tip just try to stay away from those people, no matter how hard it is... I NEED you to keep fighting. You are one of my people who make my life worth living.
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Destiny, you are an amazing person, and I know you'll make it through what you're going through
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Blue, you are an extraordinary person and have brought so much to us. Your art has genuinely helped me through some really tough times, as I too struggle; your drawings all speak to me so much. You are so incredibly talented. I'm sure you know this, but I'm going to say it anyway as it's always lovely to hear, but I'm with you. We are ALL with you. I've been keeping you in my thoughts as I know you're going through a tough time, you take all the time you need to heal up. You are surrounded by people to help you through this, and it's so good you're reaching out, and you're very inspiring to me. I don't know how keen you are on going to music when you need a boost, but have you heard Swim by Jack's Mannequin? That song speaks to me a lot too. You're definitely not alone in this, keep swimming and you will pull through. Lots of hugs sweetie xx
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Get well soon Blue, were all gunna be here for you through this and wishing you all the best. Keep fighting and staying strong and you can overcome this, we believe in you.
Love and well wishes always x
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Good luck and hope you'll feel better soon!!! here, take my love and hugs!!!
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I've been there. This picture calls me in so many ways, because of that. May you find your peace and your way. There is great strength to be found, leaning on others. I wish you luck. <3
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I love your style of art, and I really hope everything will be okay!
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Yeeeeeeah - it's alright.
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You're amazing blue 
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Hope they can help, nothing so complex likely is easy to overcome but hope you and they can do it together. Good luck, please share as much as you want, as much as helps.
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The drawing is so emotive...
And just know that reading each time is a thing that I really appreciate. Being able to understand just a little bit anything that i can't comprehend is invalluable for me! ^_^ It can seems a bit odd, and not in the best english, i'm sorry, but i wanted to express it! (づ⪰ᗝ⪯)づ
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You've accomplished so much as it is with your art, you give people inspiration. You impact people, its a beautiful and amazing thing, and they all have faith in you.
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I don't know what your feeling but i have felt the feeling of thinking death is better then living at one point or another. And you can't let that defeat you because your mind in that moment is usually wrong. Don't give into it and you'll find a way again. You'll see things you wasn't going to see without the struggle. You'll truly appreciate the beauty and good, life has to offer because you'll know how being in pain feels. that is one of the only things rewarding from going through hell, you get a new appreciation for life.
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Such a pure innocence to it. I can't stop going back to it. It's heart warming.
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E-hugs and platonic kisses from the U.S.! Best wishes on a safe recovery. ♥
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You inspire people, its pure and simple. It helps when I know I can spark a little bit of inspiration in people. You spark inspiration on a larger scale than I can speak to. Stay strong.
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I too have been struggling immensely. Good luck and I hope you get the help you need.
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Your drawing style is amazing, I really like the vibrant colors you use. Sorry about your mental illness, I have Bipolar and it's definitely no fun. I would get intrusive thoughts and hallucinations (hearing footsteps, seeing blood run down my face in mirror). I decided to take a European approach to my mental illness (which is becoming more accepted in America). Basically in some European countries, they use minimal medicine and focus more on stress reduction and family therapy. It's done wonders for my condition and am now on 120mg of Lithium Orotate per day which I just buy over the counter (no prescriptions or anything) and am doing so much better. I don't get hallucinations or intrusive thoughts anymore. Sometimes I still get those days where I wish I could just die but having a good family and set of friends can really help you through those times. I never feel down when I'm around them. I hope you get better soon. ~Eric
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Stay strong, I hope you become better soon.
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I wish you all the best as you go through this. I'm praying for you sweetie, please don't give up
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The girl looks sorry and full of pain and has a band-aid on her forehead. Very good picture.
I really hope the best for you and that you get better soon.
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i am sorry for your pain you are a talented artist i hope you get better
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You work inspires so much out of people, having the courage to share these experiences with us, and through art, a means that everyone can relate to on some form, helps everyone, i know it helps me, to share my experiences and to seek help, relate to someone and realise im not alone. Thank you <3
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*sends positive energy* I hope every positive thought will reach you and help a little!
The best wishes dear,
Xx
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May the hand of God be with you. It takes character to acknowledge that you need help and even more to seek out and accept help. One brave soul you are.
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