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Published: 2016-01-28 15:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 148963; Favourites: 9260; Downloads: 1123
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You've done your best with the tools you've got, but what if it's still not good enough?
Ask for help.
Today I'm going into hospital.
I am being taken to stay in a psychiatric ward again for a bit while I try and get my brain better.
Everyday is tough, I've tried really hard to do nurturing things and stay positive. I think I've done pretty well, considering. But I need to accept that I can't do it on my own at the moment, I need help.
Doctors are not sure of my diagnosis, my symptoms are more complex than depression/anxiety. I'm not worried about what they'll label me with, I just want to get better. I've started writing about my experiences, which is helping. I'll share it all with you when I'm stable again. Though presently I can't begin to describe how horrible it's been; except to offer a small insight: I feel like death would be better than a life like this.
Yup. I need help.
This illness has taken so much from me. I don't want to let it take my life too...
Peace, Love and Asking for Help,
Blue
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I'm so sorry that you have to go through this, it will get better though. It might seem tough right now but it will get better. I wish you luck and I hope you get better soon
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I am sorry for what you're going through. I hope that better times ahead of you and then you realized that you are giving the world something positive both with your presence and your artwork find. Let me finish with this.
May the road rise to meet you may the wind always be at your back may the rains fall soft upon your fields the Sun Shine warm up on your face and until we meet again may God hold you in the palm of his hand.
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Thanks. It's an Irish Blessing I know by heart.
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You may be broken, Blue, but you can never be broken for a long time. Sure, you might still have cracks, but with enough support and help, you can fix yourself from being broken. Stay in there, Blue!
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Stay safe Blue! We are all here for you!!! I understand you because I have Depression and Anxiety and used to self harm. I'm here to support you all the way. You're a mazing artist,person,idol for me. I hope this storm passes.
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Good luck, Blue. We're all supporting you!
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Out of 300+ comments you're not gunna see mine aha. Hopefully it goes well enough! (love this piece too)
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If you can't stop thinking negatively, intentionally distract yourself with silly, spontaneous or well-know-good-feeling-thing like your favorite movie or manga 
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I wish you the best of luck and hope you start feeling better soon <3
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we are wishing you well and happiness for the future <3
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Having felt pretty similar to what you describe for like the past 20ish years, I feel like there's so much I'd like to say. But the right feeling words don't come, and they probably wouldn't really help.
The generic "Things will get better" and whatnot never do any good.
I guess the best I can do is just say that I hope things get better for you.
Ps: I love your artwork.
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we've never meet in person, but through you're art I feel like I have come to know the person you are, and I care about that person. I'll send as many positive waves as I can from were I am.
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I know that my voice will be drowned in the millions of others wishing you well, but truth needs to be heard.
I personally have been in the hospital. The mental ward. I too went seeking help. It didn't fix my problems, but they taught me to help myself. I may not know you, but in the art, I see your pain. I know I won't be remembered here. Maybe not even read. But I believe you can do anything you want. While it may be too late to save myself, I can use my experience to help others. I never went on for me. I went on for those who I may help. Going on is never easy. I should know. I've almost died about seven times now. Once by my own hand. But things are still bad. I'm standing on shaky ground, but I'll never hesitate to extend a hand. I just hope that I can help others. Purpose is not something easy to come by, but I'll search the star speckled sky for it with anyone who asks. I want to help others. It is who I am. To continue on, I bring other up. I hope that I can do the same with you.
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Everyone is an up-lifter at their core. It's soothing to read your comment!
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Aww, thank you. That really made my day. I didn't realize how much I needed to hear that.
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Blue you can do it, I feel like that too, and not sometimes, but most of the time. I really hope you get better. You can do it, just not alone, but the doctors will help you. Wishing you the best!
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Only just found you and your art. You've caught a mood so well: the lost look & the words. So true of folks going where you're visiting.
Truly tho it'll pass. Yeh and it'll swing round again but you will get used to holding on, you will find your own crutches.
Keep on finding that help you need and finding it early. You don't want this kinda souvenir fav.me/d95v749
Got a lot of friends with leaky heads; they're all still here; it is possible to live with mind ogres.
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I hope you get better, I want to do something for you but I´m afraid I can´t. . . I know this comment may get lost betwen all the other commentaries but I know you won´t give up easily and everything can improve.
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The eyes are so beautiful!!! I love it! So many colors used MMMMMMMMM AMAZING
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We are all here to support you, blue~!
Don't ever forget that
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Blue, from the bottom of the hearts of your fans, your friends, your "great, big, international, internet family", we all hope that whatever cruel illness that is infecting, contaminating, and polluting you can be destroyed indefinitely by professional psychiatrists and doctors.
Love, DJ, attempted voice of hope.
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You're art just seems to touch my soul in a really comforting, someone-understands kind of a way.
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Oh, and chin up!!! Getting help is always a positive, nurturing step!!!
You can get through this, you can get better, you can do it!!!
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You'll get through this, I know you can! After the hurracaine comes the rainbow.
I wish the best of lucks. Get better!!
(I love your drawings by the way, they're beautiful.)
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I hope that your stay in the hospital will lead you to better times. I will be watching out for you and thinking of you! I really hope that you can get at least a little better than you are now! I believe in you and you can do it!
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I wish you the best of luck. I'm glad you're finding a way to get yourself better.
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I'm not the best with words. But people like you are in my prayers. And I want you to get better more then almost anything in my life right now. I've never experienced depression, though I have had the odd panic attack and I hate it. But I can't even imagine how you're feeling right now. And you're so talented and a huge inspiration to me. Nothing could ever beat that.
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Looking at all these comments fills you with determination.
We all wish the best for you Blue.
Get better soon.
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I'm so sorry honey! I really hope you're alright.
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I promise to pray for you. Your art(and yourself, really) is soo amazing that I know others will do the same.
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I've loved your artwork for a long time even though I just watched(I forgot to watch you on this new account 
I wish you the best of luck. I've been in psychiatric hospitals before. It can be hard but it's worth it if you fight the good fight. Sending my love <3
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I usually don't read comments but today I did and obviously there must be some depression and other problems going on I didn't know about. I haven't faced anything like that, but my thoughts and prayers are to you. STAY STRONG
-lovelyladykay
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i hope and wish you get better, Blue 
i wish i could help more than "i hope" but i can't... so may the doctors save you from that pain, whatever it is, who cares ? it's pain, and it needs to be fixed, because you don't desserve it.
Asking for help is the best thing you could have done here. be brave, it'll let you live in peace someday, and may it be really soon.
and your art is beautiful as always !
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Here's hoping whatever it is, it is dealt with quick. Good luck!
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Sending positive vibes and hopes for a fast and healthy recovery! Thank you so much for everything you give and share with us! Take care of yourself and take all the time you require!
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I know that this must feel horrible. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and obsessive compulsive disorder. I know that some days might seem almost too difficult, but never give up. Because while you may be crying now, someday you will laugh again, and that will make it all worth it. Stay strong!
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I'm very happy that you're seeking help. It's really hard for an individual to actually admit to themselves that they need help and actually try to reach out for it, so I'm very proud of you.
May you feel better soon. We're all here for you as well! <3
Oh and wonderful drawing XD really expresses those with chronic diseases very well.
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A couple of days ago Yuumei and now you ! I feel like 2016 is stealing so many great artists from us already ! Guys ! you're going to make me depressed myself and join you at the hospital <.<
But if we look at the bright side of things, accepting one's condition and deciding to go through therapy is a brave step and it takes alot of courage, letting bad things pile up will only weight on your shoulders until it breaks you down at once. I wish you the best of luck and I know you'll be able to get through, you're an inspiring artist wich is not a given, and that means without doubt, that you have alot of strength inside of you, I hope that you'll find your way back to us very soon ! Fighting !
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Please stay with us your such an inspiration to tons of people on here!!! I hope everything turns out okay, stay strong!!
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I love how you're able to use bright colors without making it painful to look at, and I really hope you'll get better soon. You have my support!
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I really hope you get better! Stay strong.
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I hope everything gets better in your life soon
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